I forgot to forget you

“Let’s just get to work.”
N was the first to break the pressing silence in the room and as he walked towards the middel of the room the other’s slowly followed.
But through the whole practice N couldn’t take his eyes of Leo. Deep down in his heart he was sorry he had hit the boy and he knew he should apologize but he couldn’t. It wasn’t just because of Leo’s actions towards Ken and Hongbin but also the fact that Leo didn't even seem to care enough to ask how Ravi was. But even so N couldn’t shake the feeling of guilt off of his shoulder so he decided to apologize to Leo after the precice was done.

“Hey Leo.. I’m.” N started as they all sat down, well Leo was still standing.
“Shut it, i'm leaving.” Leo said and before N could say anything more the black haired man left.
“Yah, Leo come.” Hongbin started yelling but N cut him off.
“Stop it Hongbin.” N mumbled before quickly standing up and running after Leo, he needed to ask Leo what was really going on, and he wanted to ask Leo another thing.

“Yah Leo! Stop!”
Leo stopped right by the front door and turned around to look at N.
“What is it now?” Leo sighed looking irritated at N.
“Are you even going to ask how he is?” N asked.
“Who?” Leo looked at N uninterested.
“Ravi of course.” N had to use all his willpower not to yell.
“What about him?”
“What about him? What about him!?” N was now yelling but he had no intention of lowering his voice. “Ravi is in the hospital!”
“Ahh right i forgot that..” Leo nodded before looking at N again. “So what?”
“So.. So what?” N was stunned. “So what? is that all you’re going to say?”
“Should i say something els like.. what dose that have to do with he?” Leo sighed rolling his eyes.
“Leo that’s to far!”
“What are you going to do? Hit me again?” Leo looked at N who suddenly feel guilty again. “In that case please hit me on the other side of my face because i'm starting to go numb on my right side.”

“Go..” N mumbled fisting his hands.”
“What was that?” Leo asked teasingly.
“Go, get lost before i really hit you.”
“My pleasure, i did’t want to stick around here either way.” Leo smiled before quickly waling out the door.
N just stood there completely still, he was sure he didn't even breath and when he finally started heading back he wasn't aware of it.

“What happend N?” Hongbin asked as N walked back into the room.
N didn't even look at him as he tightens his hands, he really needed to his something right now to get everything out. He heard both hyuk and Ken yell as he suddenly smashed his fist into the wall beside him, creating a small dent in the green surface and at the same time cutting up small wonders in my own hand. But it didn't matter, it didn't matter at all. N got both surprised and scared that in his mind he wished the wall had been Leo, he wished the dent that now was visible in the wall had been Leo’s face. But deep in his heart he knew he shouldn't be thinking like that, Leo was his friend. But still, why would a friend behave like that, if someone behaved like that could he still be considered a friend. No, a friend would never do something like that, a friend just wouldn't...

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