But You Love Me

I woke up before my alarm on Monday… which isn’t like me. Even my mother was surprised. I knew the reason I woke up though, worry. I walked to school because there was so much time. When I got to the gate, Yoongi was standing there, waiting for something. I realised… he has no one to hang out with now. My heart sinks thinking about what being around me has done to him. I walk up to him and as he notices me, he stands up straight and smiles. I smile back immediately.
“What are you doing here?” I ask with a little bit of sadness in my voice.
“What do you think? I was-“
“Saeyong-ah!” A voice interrupts Yoongi, which makes both of us turn. We see Seokjin waving happily from a distance. I hear Yoongi sigh, and I do a mental sigh. This person is exactly what made me wake up so late. I wave back before turning back to Yoongi, “remember what I said,” I raise my hand in a fist gesture, “have strength.”
“Have strength? Pfft… he’s exactly what makes me lose strength. He so stupid…” He says mumbling off at the end showing slight aegyo. I laugh at his cuteness and Seokjin meets up with us.
“What you guys talking about?”
“We’re talking about how annoying you are- OWW!” I hit Yoongi in the stomach swiftly with my hand as a warning. I laugh it off, “haha, let’s get going.” As I walk off I hear the boys starting their arguments again. I sigh. If Seokjin really does like me… is this a love triangle?? No, no, no… Square?? I shake my head getting rid of that thought setting my current thoughts on Hyemin. My best friend, who has admired Seokjin for years. I was determined to change Seokjin’s views on me and set them on Hyemin.

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Picking up my food from the counter in the cafeteria, i’m calm for the first time today. None of my friends are here to make me worry about the current situation… but I spoke too soon. “Hey!” Hyemin says to me as she catches up with me away from the food counter.
“Oh, hey. How are you?” I ask while I search for a table that clear. I grab a pair of eyes form the corner of the room. Namjoon. They all haven’t forgiven me for “stealing" away their leader.
“Good… oh right I wanted to say thank you.” Hyemin says slightly giggly as we find a table to sit down at. As we sit down across from each other, I look at her confused.
“For what?”
“For helping me with Seokjin! You know i’m a nervous wreak around him…” she says staring into her food, mumbling off. Hearing this I feel both sad and sick. I know at some point she’ll have to know about Seokjin’s feelings, and i’m going to have to be the one to bring her back up from the slum she’ll most likely enter. Bringing me out of my thoughts, a plate clangs against our table. I look to see Seokjin sitting down next to Hyemin, who’s going red in the cheeks again. “Hey everyone.” He says happily picking up his chopsticks smiling at us. Ever since Seokjin’s friend told me about Seokjin’s feelings towards me, his actions have become more and more critical to me. When he smiles, I don’t know whether I should smile back! When he leans over closer to me, do I lean away? I like him… but as a friend.
Another round of clanging cutleries hits our table. Everyone turns their heads towards my right. Yoongi decides to make this situation more awkward by sitting down next to me. “Did you get enough rice?” He asks me, excluding the other side of the table. I look at my plate, “is this enough?” He sighs grabbing his chopsticks.
“No… here, take some of mine.” He says softly moving clumps of his rice from his plate to mine. Knowing i’m being watched my Hyemin and Seokjin, my cheeks heat up.
“I’m fine Yoongi-ah, don’t worry.” I say quietly putting his rice back into his plate.
“AISH!” He says raising his voice slightly, jamming my chopsticks from grabbing anything with his. I look him in the eyes sadly, getting an annoyed face back. I roll my eyes and sigh in defeat. We all continue to eat and after a minute or so Seokjin places some bean sprouts on my plate. I look up immediately, with my heart beating faster due to the situation. I gesture with my eyes to Hyemin who’s looking at my bean sprouts sadly. It takes a while for Seokjin to get it but he puts more of his bean sprouts on Hyemin’s plate as well. Just when I thought the dangerous situation was over, Yoongi’s chopsticks interfere with my food once again, placing Seokjin’s original bean sprouts back on his plate. I look at Seokjin to see him giving Yoongi an evil stare. Seokjin places them back on my plate in reply to Yoongi’s action. I glance at Hyemin who’s looking just as worried as me. “Why don’t you just eat them yourself?” Yoongi says placing them back on his plate once again and grabbing some food from his plate and putting it on mine. I give them both annoyed looks, but they’re too busy glaring at each other to even notice.
“Why don’t you just not interfere?” Jin says in a low tone moving food from my plate again. I sigh in defeat and look over to Hyemin who seems to be over their bickering too, by the look on her face. I gesture my eyes away from the table and back to her, and we both discretely start to leave the table. We hunch over and scurry through the tables, out of the cafeteria.

Not long after leaving, I hear a faint call from Yoongi, “Saeyong-ah!” I ignore this and continue walking with Hyemin.
“Gosh, he sure does like you a lot…” Hyemin says pouting slightly. I go pink in the cheeks realising he does kinda like me quite a bit.
“You don’t want what we have, trust me.” I say honestly. “Our relationship is weird… and complicated…”
“At least there is a relationship at all between you two…” She says staring at her feet which are slowly walking. I know exactly what she’s talking about, Seokjin. Which makes me think that I should tell her now about this awful situation. The sooner the better, you know?
“Look Hyemin-ah, some things take time. Maybe nothing has happened because nothing was meant to happen yet.” I say shrugging my shoulders, giving my best advice possible for the situation. Looking at her for a response, I see her smile and look up at me.
“Don’t you think three years is enough time for something to happen?” She questions me with her smile turning sadder by the second. I blink and think. How do I respond to that? Should I just tell her i’ve known Yoongi before we even became friends? Would she believe in time’s fate?
“Don’t think too hard, i’ve already been thinking about how to start things happening,” she explains breaking the silence.
“Things happening?” I look at her confused. What’s she going to do? Suddenly she stops walking and stares me in the eye.
“Saeyong-ah, will you help me?” She says curiously.
“Help you with what?”
“I’m going to tell Seokjin everything.”
Even though I don’t want it to be true, I know this is happening. I can tell by the same look Hyemin gives me everytime she’s being honest with me. “Hyemin-ah, I don’t know. I really don’t think I should interfere.” I say dragging my eyes away from hers.
“You don’t have to! You’ll just be… supervising,” she says with a eager look on her face and a smile. Meanwhile I look sceptical and suspicious about the whole situation. I’m going to be “supervising" my best friend with telling her crush, who likes me, that she likes him…
“Can I be outside the room when this happens? I don’t want to be in between you two…” I say worried. As much as I want to help her, I really just want to tell her right now, ‘Seokjin likes me’. But what kind of a friend would do that? Plus getting her to believe me would be another problem…
“Of course!” She says happily. She hugs me tightly, catching me off guard. I softly place my arms around her too feeling guilt build up in my chest, making my chest feel heavier. “Thank you Saeyong-ah.” Those words got me. I felt like crying right there and then. I felt as if I was backstabbing my best friend without even realising it. Setting up a trap she was surely going to fall into. I knew, things weren’t going to be the same after this hug, so I hugged back as tight as I could. Closing my eyes and making it a clear memory in my head, so I would never forget this friendship.

Notes

AHHHHH This new problem had me worried it was too artificial, you know? Like it's been reproduced again and again in many stories. I hope this new problem hasn't been so sudden and the storyline works!
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