a sasaeng life *BTS*

I walked to school with pain in my heart and my body!
Actually I dont care about my body anymore!! That’s something normal, most of men my mum sleep with bit me if I refused to sleep with them!
I walked in! Some laughed at me! Others run away, scared that I would be their stalker or kill them
Girls keep on annoying me because I am crazy about BTS, and my.mum is bitch they call me bitch as well but I dont care anymore!
I went to my chair in class.
Teacher called me!
"are you okay you are injured"
"I am injured inside even more until I numb my visible injures dont care about me an ignore me as everyone else thank you"
I went back to my chair! He was puzzled he just started his lesson!
He was a new teacher! All teachers dont care about me anymore! They are scared I may kill them funny hehe!! But its cool I dont want to get annoyed by.them too.
I was sitting behind a guy he was really rich he always avoid me! He is scared that I will fall in love with him like other girls do! And if I did! I will be crazy about him and write him letters with my own blood! Or kidnap him!
Why people are so stupid! I dont love anyone from nothing!
Why nobody will understand why I love BTS! They are the reason I am still breathing and the reason I hold on these pain! I have this little hope in me that I will be noticed by them someday!!
I put my head phones again and just start looking outside the window until it rings!
From hell 2 to hell 1
My life is good :) yeah good
I entered my room, the only place I feel happy in.
Walls are full of bts pictures! Everything is just about them.
I opened my lap and watched vidoes.
I checked bts tweeter
Then I found that Suga shared a picture of my letter that I left for them
He wrote
*please do not write us with blood it scar us! I know you love us and we love you but do not hurt yourself, we love you Emma but do not hurt yourself*
I was going to die with happiness waa finally!! Omg I dont believe it Suga mentioned my name! The read my letter.
Emma was happy that her oppas read the letter! She didnt care about the part where suga asked to stop writting with blood!
She wore her jacket and run out! She went to their house! She never care if it was night or morning!
She start knocking
"thank you thank you a lot for reading my letter! I love you a lot a lot I really do"
She kept on talking and crying
Then the door opened
"oppa" she said
" please I know you love us but dont you think that its late and yoir oppa need to sleep"
She was shocked rap monster was infront of her!! Was she that lucky until one of bts came out.and talk to her
Her body was shaking a lot that she couldnt stand anymore.
She fall on her legs
"oo opp oppa, thank you!"
Her tears didnt let her talk
"we know, and you have to go home its late"
"oppa thank you for reading my letter" she hugged him
"you are the one who sent a letter with blood"
"yes me I love you a lot I can die for you all"
Rap monster pushed her and just went in and closed the door
"oppa!! Why are you scared I just love you oppaaaaa open oppa why!"
She couldnt stop crying! Until she was able to touch one of her oppas he run away from her she helped herself and stand up!
She walked disapppointed!
"whats the reason of me living when the only hope I got is hating me!! Whats the matter if I love something to death!"
She cried even more
"I hate everything! Life.is a shit to me! My mum is fucking me up every night! BTS is scared from me! My friends left me! The rest in school either are scared or they bully me!! What did I do to get all that! Just because I love"
She entered her room cried herself to sleep!
In morning her phone is ringing
"Allo"
"do you want to join us?"a voice said
"who are you" emma asked
"we are just like you! People who love and get hate instead"
"what do you mean"
"when we will meet we will talk more I.will send you adresse and come to meet us"
The caller hanged up
Then a message came with an adresse
"who are those people? What they want from me? How did they get my number"
Emma kept on thinking and thinking
"I guess I will just go I have nothing to lose!! Even if somebody killed me it will be great! Cause I dont have enough courage to killmyself and nobody will care"
Emma finally decide to go.

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