a sasaeng life *BTS*

Life is not fair, I am hated by people, my friends are leaving me! Why? Because I love BTS to death!
Am I not allowed to love who I want in any way I like!! I follow them everywhere I try to touch them get closer have them!! I just want them to be mine!! People tell me I am crazy! They can call me whatever they want my oppas are mine and I will make them notice me! Even it means my dead
Emma said with a saddic smile while writing with her own blood a letter to the guys who she loved! They guys who she said they made her world beautiful! Who made her lost her life who made her hungery to have them
"not my fualt!! Yeah not mine! They tried hard to make us love them! I am loving them! They should be reaponsible" she is crying now holding the letter she wrote with her blood! "please BTS notice me! I just want you to love me back"
She put the letter in the envolp and walked from her home! It was 1am, her family dont care about her! Her mum is a bitch! Everyday with a different man! They only savor for her was BTS who dont know that she doesnt even exist
She walked in a cold street her headphones on her ears with BTS songs! Smilling and crying. Some drunk guys followed her, catch her they tried to rape her! She fought back, when they couldnt get what they want they just hit her until she bleed and they run away!
She get up walking so hard falling and getting up again!
"they said 3am they will come to their drom"
She is finally there! Some girls are already their!
She waited in the cold weather injured!
Finally they are here she walked so hard toward them smilling and crying with the envelop in her hand crying "jimin oppa junkook oppa Please take this" they just ignored they other girls they didnt let her pass everyone was fighting to reach them! BTS entered!
Emma hold the envolop where she wrote all her feelings with her blood crying and crying! She kissed the envlop put it next to the door hoping they will read it
She started walking back to her home " lets go back to hell! Yeah life is unfair! We made the popular why they didnt give a fuck to us! My only savor is ignoring me! my mum is suffocating me! What should I do"
She is finally home door was already open it was 6am her mum was in ground with two men
She went clean her self up and went to the second hell "ahhh school, I feel numb sick and in pain! Going to second hell!! Lets numb pain with more pain :) "

Notes

what do you think?
shall I finish or stop?