"I, Kim Jongin, take you,__, to be my lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part."
It felt like it was only yesterday when Jongin held my hands and slid the ring on my empty finger. His eyes showed his gentle side that i adored so much. Jongin’s hair was perfectly slicked in a neat come over. His bow tie gave a hint that he was sophisticated yet adorable. He was finally mine and i was finally his.

"She looks beautiful." Suho nudged jongin playfully and his grin spread wildly across his face. "treat her well." I blushed at the sight of his nonstop smile.
"You may now kiss the bride." The pastor nodded his head at jongin and he came in for a kiss.
"I love you so much __." Those words sent shivers down my spine. Tears fell down my cheeks with reminiscences of our first kiss. I will never forget this feeling. Not ever. I was the happiest girl in the world. I am Kim Jongin’s wife.
The Wedding party went on. Everyone handed us their gifts and envelopes and congratulating us. It was then when Suho gave us keys.
"weh? what’s this?" The keys fell into my palm.
"my present to the newlyweds," suhos face never looked any more proud than it did now, "the villas located in jeju island. it’s the least i can do for you guys."
our mouths dropped in astonishment. “oppa???? jinjja!?”
suho laughed and grabbed jongin by the neck. “you can thank me later kai.”
"well what are you waiting for, go spend time with your new wife." jongdae handed jongin the car keys. My eyes were starting to form tears again.
"you guys are too nice," i sobbed, "i’ll repay you all."
"eeyyy what are you saying __-ssi! Youve treated us well, the least we can do is send you off to a dream vacation."
"it’s still too much." The trails my tears made were starting to dry up. Luckily i was wearing waterproof maker so nothing smeared. Suho patted my head and kept reminding me that it was nothing to worry about. A couple of hours passed and Jongin shook everyone’s hand and we all said our goodbyes.
It took awhile but we finally finished packing our suitcases and we were on our way. Before leaving i went towards the kitchen to get a drink.
"cups, cups, aha!" opening the cabinets i grabbed the closest cup to the edge. It had lip stains all over the rims. "they’re going to die when we get back home." I reached for the pitcher filled with homemade melon juice baekhyun brought back from his grandmas. She makes the best juice ever, i’d always go over with the guys just to get my hands on her recipe.
"ahhhhhh, refreshing." i licked my lips and walked over the the sink.
"Jagi! are you ready?"
"Yeah! give me a moment!" I quickly placed the glass in the sink, but being the clumsy person i was it slipped out my hand and broke. "Aishh, are you kidding me right now? How clumsier can you ge- ouch!" blood gushed out my finger. "great."
"Hey you, what are you doing?"
I turned around to give my attention to jongin. he was leaning against the doorway, his brown hair still messy from moving the luggage back and forth.
"oh nothing, i just dropped the cup and somehow managed to cut myself," i chuckled and got up to throw away the remaining scraps.
Jongin frowned and tended my wound. “You need to be more carefull __-ah. What if you accidentally cut yourself somewhere else? What would i do if i knew my precious wife was in life crisis danger?” The bandage he wrapped around my finger was securely shut making sure no bacterias would infect my cut. He was always overly protective towards me and i gratefully appreciated that charm he had.
"I’m sorry oppa, ill be more careful now." He kissed my forehead and we walked to the car.
The car ride made me anxious. It was raining and night was about to fall at any moment. I wanted to be at the villa already so i can embrace jongin. What more could i ask for. He would sneak a glance at me here and there but he never took his eyes off the road for more than 5 seconds. That made me giggle.
"oppa," he replied with a simple, hm. "are you excited? we have a whole villa to ourselves! sehun-ssi wont bother us anymore." I paced my hands on top of his and we continued on about what we would do there.
"Suho-ssi said theres a little street market down the street near the villa, can we go there tomorroww to buy groceries? Oh and Minseok-ssi said that the beach there is to die for! can we go there too! Oppa! I want to buy souvenirs for the members! lets go to a market once we get there too! We also have to try the ddukbokki too! theres so much to do i cant wait!"
Jongin smiled, “arrasseo, we can go once we settle tonight, we’ll leave first thing in the morning.” He tapped my nose but kept his eye on the road. Suddenly his face turned white. The car screeched. Jongin reached over and pulled me into his chest.
th-thump th-thump th-thump
His heart beated faster and so did mine. The car was still rolling down hill. Banging, brashing, metals getting crushed, we were in a disaster.
please stop. no more. it hurts, my body hurts. Jongin, J-Jong- Jongi-
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP
"She’s about in her early twenties. Possible head trauma a couple of broken ribs maybe and bruised lungs. Her make friend might suffer the same."
W-who is that. why is it so bright.
"can you hear me? you and your friend are going to be alright. Dont worry. i will save you. Now grab my hands and squeeze once for a no and twice for a yes. Does your chest hurt?"
my grip trembled but i managed to squeeze his hands twice.
"can you breath correctly?"
I squeezed once.
"can you see my finger?"
I squeezed once
"youre doing great, does it hurt here?" He lightly placed his finger on my forehead.
I squeezed twice. This is exhausting. please, let me rest. My eyelids got heavier and i slowly drifted away. im sorry. im too tired.
"hey! hey! stay with me! Minah! rush her into the icu. She’s in critical condition and we need to perform surgey on her right now. Leemin write her and her friend up in intensive care and do all you can to save both of them.
"A couple was found down the road from Seongsan Ilchulbong to Seongeup Folk Village, where they suffered a horrendous accident. They were in their early twenties. They have not been identified but pictures of them have been released.”
"Hyung, isnt that near jeju? where Kai and __-ah were headed?" sehun looked towards suho with a worried expression.
"shh just listen." Suho’s voice was trembling. It cant be them. It just can’t.
"The couple shown in the picture has been transported to Jungang general hospital where they were rushed immediately into the icu and labeled under intensive care. If you recognized the couple above please contact their family friends. Back to you Jaeyoung."
The room fell silent. “H-Hyung w-we n-eed.” Sehuns voice was choked by trying to hold in his own tears. Suho didnt reply. He couldn’t. “Hyung!” Sehun grabbed his elder by his shoulder and shook him ferociously. “we need to get to them now!”
"this is all my fault." th leader covered his face in shame.
"what are you saying! They need us right now! theres no time for you too feel sorry for yourself." Xiumin quickly grabbed suho and each member dashed out the dorms.
"Chen call the manager, tell him we need the first plane tickets to jeju island right now." Kris ordered and chen followed his instructions. "Xiumin grab jackets for suho, and d.o make sure to call kais and __ parents and make sure they know what happened. I’m countnig on you to explain things easily to them." Kris grabbed whatever was necessary for the plane ride and then all entered the van.
"Doctor shes going into cardiac arrest!!"
"Dont give up onn her right now! get the clamp and stop the bleeding. We cant let her die. Heetuk give me the ICD (implantable cardioverter-defibrillator). You’re going to be fine. we wont let you die."
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP
They continued on with the procedure with no other complications."Excuse me, do you know where the couple in the accident is?""theyre currently in the icu, but you can wait till the operation is done. I’ll page the doctor and tell them that.." she looked t the 11 boys across from her questionably. "o-oh! we’re close friends." "okay ill make sure to tell the doctor you guys have came." She handed them each a visitor pass and went on with her paperwork. Hours had passed and the members grew anxious. “I hope they’re alright.” jongdae fiddled with his fingers and looked at members."of course theyre alright. why wouldn’t they be," xiumin being the oldest tried comforting everyone.The doctor walked towards the members with sweat falling down his temples. "are you all here to see the couple who just came in?""yes." xiumin said calmly."How are they doctor?! Are tehy going to live?" Sehun abruptly got up and grabbed the doctors hand. "Yes theyre fine, but they’re still in critical condition.Unfortunately the young man will be in a coma but the girl is fine. we dont know when he’ll wake up and it’s best to wait for them to rest, but youre welome to see them now."The members took no time to think and asked for directions to the rooms. As they entered the room Suho’s hand raised to his mouth and he gasped. “im so.. sorry” he was baffled in tears and dropped to his knees. “im so so sorry.” Everyone in the room was either comforting suho or crying to their hearts desire. Silence was all there was and the faint noise of the heart monitors.BEEP BEEP BEEP.Months later and I had finally recovered, fully, but it sucked that i had to do it alone. I went through therapy, counseling, and i even had to talk to a physician just to see if i was mentally alright to go back to my normal daily life.Today, i had an appointment with the doctor in jungang general hospital. He called to say he had something to tell me. Of course, Kris and Suho tagged along just to make sure i was okay. Entering the hospital, the nurse guided me to his office.*knock knock*"come in, its unlocked."I politely opened the door and closed it behind me once we all entered, quietly. "ahhh, __, nice to see you today." he smiled at me, then at suho and kris, but it wasnt sincere. i can tell, he was stressed from everything thats been happening, but he still tried to look happy. "Seonbae-nim," i smiled gracefully and proceeded on. "you called me for something?" "oh yes, it’s about jongin."I turned all my attention on the doctor and listened carefully, Jongin hasn’t woken up for 3 months already and i needed to know what was wrong. "w-what about him…?" "Due to the accident, he suffered a severe head injury. He was lucky enough to have survived, but the downside is," he looked at me intently and rubbed the bridge between his eyes, "the downside is that he might suffer from amnesia, he may or may not regain his memory and i dont know what his brain has forgotten and what it has remembered."I stayed frozen and couldnt believe what i was hearing. A-amnesia? what? "s-so youre saying he wont remember anything?" Kris asked."like i said, im not sure. thats why when he wakes up just be ready and make sure you comfort him as much as possible.""o-okay.. can you excuse me for a moment." I trailed off out of the room and slid down to the floor. Suho sat beside me and rubbed my back.is this, is this for reals? am i dreaming? he wont remember? what do i-my thoughts were cut off by my phone ringing. “sehun, hello?” "noona!! it’s kai! he’s woken up."I shot up from my position and darted towards his room."I’ll be on my way!!" ”__! where are you going?!?!” kris yelled to get my attention."it’s jongin! he woke up!"Suho and kris looked at each other then ran after me. Joingin’s awake. My husband is finally awake. Joy filled my heart and i couldnt wait to hug him, to hold him in my arms and tell him how much ive missed him. A few more steps and ill be there. room 504"Oppa!" I ran towards him and hugged him tightly. "oppa, i missed you so much." He didnt hug me back so i pulled away to look at his face. "are you okay? does your head hurt?" My hands cupped each side of his face, moving his face side to side to see if anything was wrong. "You look horrible. look at how much weight you’ve lost." Jongin’s face was puzzled. The way he looked at me was different than before. ”__, why do you run so fast.” Suho said catching his breath. we both looked at kris and suho who both finally entered the door. "Hyung, who is this?" He pushed my hands off my face as he questioned suho. "Why is she touching me?""y-youre joking right? because this isnt funny?" I laughed at his ridiculous question while putting my hand on his shoulder."Seriously, stop touching me, you’re scaring me." He might suffer from amnesia. that’s right. amnesia.I backed away. Seeking comfort, i started to twirl the engagement ring he gave me. The ring that finally made me and him, us. It always gave me the comfort i was yearning for. Suho grabbed me and hugged me to hide the tears coming from my eyes. "Hyung are you kidding me? This is __!! YOUR WI-" Sehun was cut off by kris. "Keep quiet sehun." "But hyung!""enough." Sehun sat down and looked at me with troubled eyes."Kai! Kai!" an unfamiliar voice rang through the door. She entered the room, short with long brown hair. Her huge eyes scanning the room. She was someone that gave you a vibe to want to protect her. With a single glance i coudnt figure out who it was, but when i stared longer it was his ex, Son Na Eun."Oppa are you alright?" She peered onto him and hugged him the way i did not too long ago. "Naeun! Stop the members are here!" Kai blushed and looked at the members, then at me. He saw the pain in my eyes and pushed her off, but still held her close. "Why am i here? he questioned. No one answered. they just gazed at how shamelessly he held her waist in front of me. their jaws dropped in shock. "YAH!! What are you dong Kai!" Jongdae pulled Naeun away from Kai and looked at him with anger.

"What do you think youre doing?! who told you to lay a hand on Naeun?!? How disrespectful. I’ll find answers elsewhere. Lets go Naeun." He pulled her wrist to walk out the room. He gazed upon me and suho with an irritated look, pushing us away from each other he walked out. Not ever looking back.

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