I looked at my watch. It was 9 p.m.! I was exhausted. I woke up at 5 to avoid seeing Luhan. No. I did not even wake up. Because I was not sleeping. I cannot sleep anywhere else other than my room (Sam's room is an exception).
"The best thing is to go back to the Lu's!" I sighed and waved for a taxi. Soon I was in my destination.
I rang the bell and the door opened immediately. A young maid welcomed me with a warm smile. At least it could make me better.
"What would you like for dinner?" She asked as she walked behind me to the guest room.
I reduced my speed for the maid to catch up to me but she still walked behind me.
I stopped walking "Why don't you just walk beside me?"
"Uh-I've gotten used to that" She said as she bowed.
"Let's walk together!" I said and again walked up the stairs.
"Miss, what would you like for dinner?" She asked. This time she was just next to me.
"I'm not hungry, thanks"
"But I have to prepare something for you"
"Just leave it. I have no appetite" I looked around "Is that beast home?"
"What? Beast?" She asked.
Oh right! I forgot that I am the only one who calls him that. "I mean Luhan."
"Oh~ mister Luhan is at work. He comes back late usually." She said as she opened a door to a big hall. I wonder how Luhan carried me last night. This house is too big.
"But why do you call young mister a beast?" She asked.
"I don't know. Maybe because he is a beast" I stopped and looked at the door beside the guest room's door.
"That is young mister's room" The maid said and opened the door of the guest room for me.
Luhan's room?
Shall I take a look at it ?

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I closed the door behind myself silently. I narrowed my eyes to look around. It was dark. A bed, a desk and a bookshelf were the only things I could see. There were no maid upstairs to find me here so I turned the lamps on. My eyes widen when I saw the view in front of me.
Was it a room? How can a room be this big?
I walked to the center, there were a white two-sized bed in the middle. It was so big, big enough for 5 fat people to sleep on it comfortably! A big window in front of the bed was facing the garden. You could see the small yellow lights of the garden. Just some meters away, there was a black couch and a coffee table with so many papers on. I picked up one of the papers. It was full of numbers. I tried to understand it but I got confused. I left the paper on the table immediately.
I went to one of the doors on the right side. But just when I wanted to turn the knob I heard a door click from behind.
Right. I got caught!
It was Luhan's voice! What the hell was Luhan doing here? That maid said Luhan will be back late!
I had no other choice, I turned the knob and went into the huge bathroom before Luhan could see me.
Well, I wasn't caught yet.
I looked around but all I could see was the huge bath tub. It was dark. All I could do was pressing my ear to the door and listen to that beast and the maid talking.
"Why are the lights on?" Luhan asked.
"I-I guess I have forgotten to turn them off" That maid stuttered. You have not dear, I was the one turning them on.
"Right, where is Moon Ri?" He asked. Why was he asking about me? Am I this important to him?
"She is in her room" She answered.
"When did she come back?" It's none of your business, I muttered under my breath.
"She came half an hour ago"
"Okay"
"Do you want anything to eat?" She asked.
"I've eaten already. You can leave now" He said. I heard the door clicked closed.
I swallowed my saliva. Even the thought of being alone with Luhan scared me.
And soon I heard footsteps towards my direction. I hold my breath and jumped behind the bath tub to hide. The door opened and afterward, the lights were on. I covered my mouth with my hands not to scream. He went to the sink. What was going to happen? What if he wanted to take a bath? What if he felt like to come here, in the bath tube while he was naked? The thought widened my eyes.
I heard the water splashing to the sink. He was probably washing his hands. But no! I looked up the tube and looked at his back. He was touching his face while the water was running. What the fuck! He can touch his face without water too.
He cut off the water and started unbuttoning his shirt. My eyes widened in horror. I could not! I could not see him naked! This is just impossible. I have never seen a guy naked except in movies!
I will stay quiet!
The first button.
I closed my eyes. I will stay quiet.
The second button.
I swallowed.
The third button.
"Don't take that off!" I screamed finally. I could not stand that anymore.
There was no answer. I looked up again and saw him still unbuttoning that. Didn't he hear me? Is he deaf?
"Yaaaa, I told you not to take that off!" I screamed again covering my eyes.
"I can take my shirt off in my bathroom, can't I?" He said normally. He was not even surprised to see me there. Did he know that I was there?
"Not when I'm here!" I shouted again.
"Oh by the way, why are you here?" He asked. I uncovered my eyes and saw him leaning to the sink and looking at me. His shirt was unbuttoned and and I could see his bare chest.
I covered my eyes again. "I will explain this, just wear your shirt properly"
"Why?"
"Damn, I don't want to dirty my eyes by seeing you naked"
"You have not see any guy naked yet? Really?" He asked.
I stood up still covering my eyes."I will just leave"
"I won't let you." I looked at the door from the space between my fingers. He was leaning on it this time. I closed the space again.
"Please let me go!" I said again.
"You look so cute covering your eyes! I know you like seeing me naked. Stop pretending!" He laughed.
"I don't!" I took a deep breath to take courage and took my hand off my eyes. I swallowed and focused on Luhan's face. I was trying hard not to look down at his chest. Not that I like watching it. Your sights always go where they must not watch. It is a rule.
He smiled "Told you"
My heart started to beat fast just when he smiled. It got hot just in a second.
"Y-you told what?"
"You like it" He said and stepped closer.
"S-Stop coming closer" I warned "You're dead if you take a step closer" I walked back to make more space between us.
"You are stuttering, you know?" He still came closer. "Is it because you're scared I may kiss you again?"
I stepped closer until my back touched the tub "That's it, so just stay there" I pointed at where he was standing.
"But you kissed me back!" He smirked and closed the space between us. I didn't taken my eyes off his. That was because of his bare chest.
"Stop coming closer" I shut my eyes closed not to see him anymore "I did, for I was drunk. I was not myself!"
Everywhere went silent. I was still closing my eyes.
"You were not" He whispered into my left ear. His breath touching my ear sent shivers down my spine. I opened my eyes and saw his face just an inch away from mine.
"W-Will you let me go?" I stuttered. My heart was beating crazily.
"Not until you tell me what I want" he said.
"What do you want to hear?"
"Why did you kiss me back that night?"
"I said I was not myself then"
He moved his face closer, so that our noses were touching. "Are you sure?"
"Yeah"
He went back. I did not wait, I went to the door and left the bathroom immediately.
All the maids looked at me strangely when they saw me coming out of his room. I looked at them back. They all bowed and afterward started to giggle. I went to to the guest room and closed the door behind. I leaned on the door and put my hand on my chest. My heart was going to break my ribcage in any moment. I took one deep breath and closed my eyes. He was just too close to me!

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It was a quarter to 4.I rolled in my bed and hugged myself. My eyes were dying for sleep but I couldn't sleep. I had no pain anywhere, I had no stress for anything and I had nothing to think about but I still couldn't sleep because I was not in my own bed.
I stood up and went to my bag to find my phone. I could not find it there.I even turned it over so all my stuff fell on the floor, but It was not between them.
I looked everywhere in the room but It was not anywhere. I looked for it in the bathroom, under the bed, in my jeans pocket. But It was not there too. Just then, I remembered where I had left it.
I put my cellphone down on the coffee table when I wanted to check the papers in Luhan's room.
What now? How can I get it back? Should I wait till the morning? Or should I go to Luhan's room now? Should I wake him up or should I just take my phone?
I went to Luhan's door. I waited a little then knocked on his door quietly. If he were asleep that surely he is, I would go in and take my phone. In that case, he can not say anything if he finds out about that. I knocked anyway!
"Come in" A voice said from inside. My eyes widened. He was still awake? Why? How?
I opened the door and looked inside without stepping in. The only light on was his desk light. He was sitting at his desk and his back was facing me.
"Sorry I left my phone here" I said.
He turned his chair and looked at me surprised. What was surprising in me?
"You can take it." He said as he followed me with his eyes. I went to the coffee table and took my phone. It was in the same place without moving even an inch.
"Why are you still awake?" He asked. He was wearing thick glasses and there was a pen in his hand which he was tapping the armrest of his chair.
"I can't sleep."
"Why?"
"I don't know." I said as I went to the door."Goodnight" I closed the door behind.
I touched my chest. My heart was beating fast. What now? What was happening to me?

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