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I was again late to my first class.After that trip with Luhan,I've been late for my classes.I don't know why but I can't sleep well at nights from then on.although it is my own room and I'm sleepy,but I can't sleep!
I have not seen Luhan for a week now.he is in china and he is not likely to come back soon.This thought of not seeing luhan soon gives me an intersting feeling.as if I'm missing him.But I can't miss him because I don't like him!It is just strange.
And I found a new friEned this week.he is a nice lovely boy called Kim Jong In!Let me tell you the story of our first meeting.
I was sitting on bench in the univercity yard waiting for my second class to start.I ditched my first class!
"You must be Moon Ri."A boy said as he sat beside me.
"Yeah"I looked at him strangely."Do I know you?"
"Probebly not."He said.
"But you seem so familiar."I looked at his face deeply.Yes he looked familiar and at the same time,he was so handsome."Are you my childhood friend?"I asked.
"No,I'm not."He laughed."I'm Kim Jong in but you can call me Kai."
"Kai?"I asked.I felt as if I have heard that too.
"Yeah"he smiled.
"I'm Moon Ri."I grinned."by the way,How did you know my name?"
"I had heard your name.You are studing graphic and you graduated from school 2 months ago,right?"he asked.
"I don't know myself this well!Who are you?Are you a student of here?"
"Yes.My major is acting."he said.
"That's cool"I smiled and he smiled back.
His smile made my heart beat faster.
Not that I fell in love or else.A feeling of a frindship made it beat fast and the feeling was right.We got so close during a week.As if we've been friends for a long time.

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"Moon Ri,Where are you?"Mom yelled angrily on the phone.
"You are hurting my ear!"I yelled back as I made space between my ear and my cell phone.the whole bus looked at me.All I did was smiling.
"I told you not to disappear suddenly.Are you a kid?Why should I look for you everywhere?"She said.
"I'm not a kid and you don't need to look for me.I'm 18 mom.I can go out without permision I think!"I said.I was the one who is right.Why should I tell mom where I am going?Am I a kid?
"Whatever.Just tell me where you are"
I inhaled deeply.It has always been useless!"I'm in the bus going out of the city.We are camping out this afternoon.With Sam and some of her friends and some of mine.Is it okay now?"
"That's too bad.I don't want to ruin your day."She seemed to be saying her thoughts.
"Why are you asking?"I asked curiously.
"Luhan's mother invited us for tea this afternoon"
"How come?"that was strange.Mrs.lu was not the type of people who invite their guests.Their guests go to her house just themselves.But she was inviting this time.
"That is clear.We must set things for your marriage."she said simply.
That was partly right."Oh.I'd forgot that.But I don't know why she invited me too.I don't need to be there."
"You must be there when Luhun is too."she said.
"What?"I screamed."Luhan is there too?He must be in China now!"The thought of seeing Luhan killed my heart in shock.that was shocking!
"You don't know he's comeback yesterday?"She asked confused.
"No.how must I know?"
"So are you coming or not?"she asked bored.I hesitated.My heart was dying to see Luhan but logically,I'd rather go to the camp.
"I think I'll be coming"I said finally.
"It is up to you to come or not anyway.I'll hang up first"
That was just so hard to decide but I had decided to go to the Lus'.
I called sam to tell her that I'm not going to go to the camp with them but her statement changed my mind.
"I can't come to the camp but you have to go there.Just don't go to Luhans' to see his reaction.Does he even care if you go or not after almost 10 days?"
I looked at the sky still thinking about what is happening there in the tea party.I compeletly regret not going there.Just the thought of Luahn sitting in his favorite sofa which he always sits in,in their huge living room was making me feel I need to be there.I was feeling empty inside and my heart was still beating fast.Hell,I must have gone there.
"Hey angel,What are you thinking about?"Jongin asked and sat beside me on the grass.he says he calls people whom he likes angel.
"Just randomly thinking."I said as I moved alittle. he was just sitting too close to me.
"You said they told you to marry the younger son of the Lu company?"he asked after a short silence suddenly.
"Yeah,why are you asking this suddenly?"
"You must have refused to marry him"he said.
"Why?"
He took a deep breath."You won't have a chance to be with somebody whom you love."
"I don't love anybody"I said simply"I don't believe in love"
"You do."
"I do believe or love?"I asked confused.
"I have lost my chance once before,I'm not sure I will have a second chance."he liad down on the grass."You must not lose your chance."
"You loved someone?"I asked curiously."What was that lucky girl like?"
He put his arm under his neck"Well,she was so pretty.She was as kind and lovely as an angel.Just like you."he inaheld "She was mine but I was too young to know who I have."
"What do you mean?"
"She was one and I knew it so I just wanted to have her.she loved me but I didn't.She left when she knew I was with another girl."
"Really you did that?"my eyes widened."You don't seem to be such a person!"
"I was.I tried to get her back but all I did was to hurt her."
"What happened finally?"
"I let go of her.I was too guilty to do anything else."
"But you said you didn't love her?"I said confused.
"I did.I have been loving her since the first time I saw her in the liberary of the school.She bumped to me and all her books fell on the ground."I could see the sunset picture in his eyes.he was looking at the sky.
"That is like a k-drama."I thought loudly."Do you know what she is doing now?"
"Hell,I see her everyday!"
"That hurts.By the way Do I happen to know her?"
"Not as well as I do."He smiled.
"That is mystrious"I laid down on the grass."Why don't you go and ask her to forgive you?You said she is like an angel."
"Do you think she'll forgive all I did?"he asked.
"Sure."I said and looked at the beautiful red sky.
"Angel,Do you forgive me?"he whispered.

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I was lucky.Mom decided to stay with the Lus' for dinner too and I was invited.That is what I call Luck.I could both see Luhan and go to the camp.
I rang the door(I know a door can't be rung!).A maid opened the door and lead me to the living room and to my disappointment,Luhan was not there.Mom and Mrs.Lu were siting on the couch and talking.I felt empty for a moment.I went to them and after answering their question about my day,I listened to their boring conversation.
Hell,I was waiting to see him.That is not fair.
"Moon Ri-ah,Luhan is in his room.Go and see him.He didn't like that you prefered your frieneds to him."Mom said.that sounded fair enough.But did he really not like that?
"I didn't prefer anybody to anybody.I had no choice because I had promised them to go."I lied.Of course I had a choice!
"Just go and apologize!"She said.
"Mom!"I moaned.that was just acting!Of course I would love to go and see him with the excuse of apologizing.
She glared at me.I looked at Mrs.Lu .She smiled.
I stood up after alittle hestation and went to Luhan's room.I stood infront of his room and took a deep breath.my heart was beating fast and i didn't know what to do when I see him but finally I knocked on his door.
"Come in"his familiar voice said.my heart beat went even faster.I turned the knob and went in.
He was sitting behind his desk and his back was facing me.he was wearing a white T-shirt and his hair was lighter due to the direct light of his desk lamp.
I cleared my throat.
he turned and looked at me."You are here?"he asked.
I was too busy with staring at his face to answer him.Hell,I missed him so much.
"Why are you satring at me?"he asked.
"Yo-You have grown up."I lied.I was just looking for something to say.
"What?"He turned his chair to see me better."I have grown up?"he touched his face.
"Yeah!"
"You are the same ugly girl."He smirked.
"I was wrong,You are still the child."I said.
"Come on sit here."He pointed to his bed."I've missed our arguments"
I sat down on his bed."I was doing fine without arguing with you."I lied.I had missed everything relating to him.
"Let's imagine I care how you've been doing."he smirked.
"Whatever"I looked around his room."They said you were waiting for me."
"I just missed teasing you."He sat on his bed beside me"Unlike you who couldn't even sleep well without me."
"What?"I scoffed.how does he know that?"I have been sleeping so well these 10 days!"
"You have even counted for how many days I was gone.You must have missed me so badly."
I stood up."I'm going if you're done teasing."
He made me sit down on his bed again."I'm not done."
"What now?"I asked bored.He looked at me and came closer to my face afterward afterward."what do-"he leaned his lips to mine and cut me off.everyhing went silent as my eyes widened.Is he just kissing me?

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