~Roxanne's P.O.V~

A/N: This chapter does require some mature handling I guess.. Listen to this ^-^
I felt like I couldn't breathe. My head started hurting and so did my chest. Just at that moment, the door opened and Ray walked in ( Lol still remember him? xD) I could see people crowding outside the room but he abruptly shut the door. He walked up to me, made me stand up and pulled me outside the door. I didn't refuse but just hid behind him. Jaebum and En were walking behind me, as if protecting me. Ray suddenly stopped, causing me to bump into him. His voice was low when he spoke. " What do you want?"
"I was just checking on the students." came in an abrupt reply. By the sounds of it, it was the principal. I stood still, his tall figure blocking my small one. I heard some footsteps walk away and we resumed walking. We walked up some stairs and Ray moved from front of me to my side. We were at the roof top.
"Take as long as you need up here." He told me.
I shook my head. " I'll just go down. Thanks though." I said and turned back around to walk back where we came from. He grabbed my hand and pulled me back into him, pulling me into a hug. Before he could say anything, a figure appeared at the door.
"Kim Yugyeom."
Ray looked up and let go of me. He tensed up and started walking towards the principal. The principal slapped him across the cheek but Ray stayed silent. His hands were balled up in a fist and he looked at the ground while Mr Kim , the principal, scolded him.
"I didn't send you here to do whatever you like. At least try to keep my family reputation. it's a disgrace to have a son like you. Your older brother-"
"Yeah well I'm not like my older brother am I?!" Ray had lost it. "Stop comparing me to hyung! I'm sorry that I'll never be as good as him! If he was still alive-" Another slap.
"Don't talk about my son like that." Mr Kim said, his voice so low. "Get out!" He snapped and Yugyeom ( I'm just gonna say this now. I know I'm a bit confusing but basically, James is Jaebum/JB (GOT7)'s 'English' name and Ray is Yugyeom's (also GOT7 ) Sorry if it's a bit confusing >.< I hadn't thought about it before.) didn't need to be told twice. He stormed out of the rooftop, leaving me, En and Jaebum dumbfounded. When he looked towards our direction, all three of us bowed to him, flustered. He gave a tight smile and walked away.
En and Jaebum released their breaths. "Who knew he was the principal's son." En muttered.
We all stood quietly, not wanting to recall anything that happened so far.
"Let's go." I said quietly. "I don't want to miss the lesson."
"Roxy-" Jaebum began.
"I'm okay." I said and gave a small smile. Unknowingly a tear escaped my eye and I furiously wiped it away.
"No you're not." En said softly.
"Neither are you." I sniffed.
He gave a small smile and sighed. "I guess you're right."
We decided to skip one lesson so we laid down on our floor and stared at the sky. I couldn't get my mind off the picture. What happened to your promise Sehun? I thought as another tear escaped my eyes.
~Author's P.O.V~
Jaebum and En looked over to Roxanne as tears streamed down her face. They couldn't help that their hearts sank a little. She looked so lost, so fragile, so vunerable. En regretted showing her the picture but he wondered what would have happened to her if they weren't there when she saw it. He wasn't in the best mood either. The doctors had told him that his gran wasn't getting any better. She would gain consiousness once every blue moon but it never helped his situation as most of the times, she wouldn't even remember his name. Jaebum, as everyone thinks, is seeming to have a normal life. But that's wrong. His family was slowly breaking apart. His so called happy family. He never let anyone know about it though. He alwys kept it to himself and at times he would reach the point where he breaks down. He doesn't know what to do anymore and sometimes even has thoughts about giving up sompletely. And as for Roxanne, she's lost without the love of her life, her mothers and father. Yes, she's had 2 mothers. Her biological parents were killed in a car crash. Her brother and herself barely survived. Shortly, they were adopted by their parents' best friend. And later on her adoptive(?) mother was also killed in a car crash. She keeps wondering why the people she loves are leaving her. she wonders if it's a sign. She wants to help people but she can't do it because she's being judged on everything she does, yet she continues. She wants her brother to have a good education, a good family, a good childhood (what's remained of it because they're twins although she's the older one) and a good future. She doesn't want their past to affect his social life. She wants him to live life to the fullest. As all three of them reflect on their past silently, they hold hands. They want to support each other, help the other one forget about their bad days because all three of them deserve better days. And this also includes Yugyeom. Being the principal's son doesn't mean he can do what he wants. At home, he locks himself up in his own bedroom, listening to music. He loves music despite what his parents say. His parents don't like music. Sometimes he wonders what would have happened is his older brother was still alive. He was his best friend and when he dies of a terrible disease, he had lost everything. His brother, friend, hope. His parents changed. Him and his brother would listen to music secretly. His brother would teach him how to dance and also how to play the guitar. He still has the guitar at home, locked away in god knows where. He was forbidden to use it as soon as his brother left him all alone. But he always wants to do music because that's the one thing that keeps him happy. The friends he made (En, JB and Roxanne) don't know who he is and doesn't judge him. He's afraid that when they find out, they will treat him differently.
Finally after a few hours, when all three of them were tired of thinking of their past, they stood up and went to their classes. It was the last lesson of the day. All of them tried to focus on their work but they simply couldn't. As they parted to their different ways at the end of the day, they couldn't help but feel sorry for themselves.
~Roxanne's P.O.V~
I ignored the world and got lost in my music as I rode the bus home. When I went in our dorm, it was quiet. So it meant that they still hadn't came back. I texted CL unnie letting her know that i was back. She texted back immediately saying that they were going to stay at a friend's house overnight with Jessica. I asked her if she was going to be allright but she told me not to worry and eat something before i go to sleep. Just after, Jaebum called me.
"Hi." I said.
[You sound tired.] He said, his voice sounding equally tired.
"So do you." I told him and he gave a strangled laugh. "Where are you right now?" I asked him.
[ In the middle of some sort of street.]
"Why aren't you at home?" I asked him, releasing my hair from the ponytail.
[I don't want to go.] He said quietly. I instantly knew there was something wrong with him.
"Can you meet me at the bubble tea store? You know the one I used to work at before. I'm home alone right now and I want to talk to you."
[We can talk now.] I could hear him walking.
" Jaebum please. I need to talk to you face to face." I pleaded and he agreed. I went to freshen up in the bathroom before leaving. I wet my face with cold water when I saw something shiny at the corner of my eyes. I instinctively reached out and took it in my hands to see a blade. It was one of those blades to trim your bangs. It slipped out of my hands because they were wet, leaving a cut. But I didn't feel any pain, instead it felt good. As blood streamed down and me staring at it, it just became relieving.
Sehun, was I not good enough for you?
Was I not pretty enough?
Was I not skinny enough?
Was I just not enough?
Did you not love me?
Was everything you told me a lie?
With each thought also came a cut on the inside of my wrist. My hair fell off my shoulders, blocking my face. I touched it, remembering what Sehun told me.
"Have I told you how much I love your hair?"
I found a pair of scissors and started snipping my hair, crying my heart out with each snip. At last, I collapsed on the floor, my chest hurting so much I felt like I could die. When my phone pinged signalling me that I had a message, I unlocked it to see it was from Jaebum telling me to hurry up. With that, I stood up, washed my wrist, changed my clothes, making sure to put a huge sweater on top to cover my scars that now remained. I also put on a beanie on, making a mental note to self to go to the hair dressers to sort it out.

Notes

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