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Lost on the road of the heart

Chapter 5



Your POV:

This was the Twentieth time I try to call him, and I already sent him around thirty messages, but he just totally ignored me. I didn’t do anything to him but he still didn’t want to talk to me the least. I recalled all what happened today, but nothing seemed off to me, that was just one of our usual days. Worried and clueless to my bones, I ended up calling Hyo Joon, maybe he talked to her.

“HYO JOON!” I screamed at the phone.
“Hey, hey, calm down! What’s wrong?” she worriedly answered.
“Did Minho talk to you? Text you? Visit you?” I asked impatiently.
“Anyo! Why? Did something happen?”
“Kind of, it’s just that he doesn’t answer any of my calls nor my messages!”
“Don’t worry a lot he is a grown up boy, he probably need sometime on his own, so let him be. Tomorrow he’ll go back to normal I guess!”
“But, he never acted that way!” I protested.
“Just do as I told you!”
That was the end of the call. I couldn’t stop worrying, but I just kept it to myself and started to do my homework before going to sleep.

Hyo Joon’s POV:


I just went back to the dorm and put my stuff when I heard the bell ring.
As I opened the door, I was surprised to see Minho standing in the porch and I could feel my heart pounding fast in my chest.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” I asked, making a great effort to control my emotions.
“Can you let me in?”
“Deh, of course, come on in!”

I closed the door behind him; then we both sat on the couch.

“So what is it? You rarely come to see me”
“I need someone to talk to, I’m in a mess right now and I couldn’t think of anyone else but you!”

Hearing those words I felt myself blushing. The happiness that I felt at that right moment can’t be described by any word. I was crushing on him since ____ introduced him to me in high school, but I could feel something going on between the two of them and that made me shut my mouth until now. I was afraid of getting rejected and living with the awkwardness till forever. I wasn’t ready to lose them as my friends.

“You know I’ll be here for you whenever you need to talk, so? What’s bothering you?”
“I actually have a confession to make… It has been long years now, and I couldn’t talk about it to anyone, and now things are getting complicated so I need to spit it out!”

His talk made me anticipate so much, what was he going to confess? Does it have anything to do with me? What if he actually wants to … No, no that’s not even imaginable.

“I … I…”
“Just say it, I won’t eat you, you know!”

He sighed before conceding. “I love ____-ah!”

It was like if I was stroke with lightening. My eyes widening, and my jaw dropping as a whole formed in my chest. I was right, I was just right. It’s not like I didn’t know it, but hearing him saying the words made my world go upside down. Every little hope in me just crushed down, and I couldn’t open my mouth to answer him. What was I supposed to say in this situation, how was I supposed to help him when, I, myself needed help. I wanted to run away before starting to cry. I could already feel tears form in my eyes, but I did my best to shove them away.
As I didn’t speak, he just continued his talking while I was lost in my own dilemma. What should I do?

“I know I may be stupid to be saying this now, but I have always thought that I was the only one for her even if she never showed anything. I mean no boy has ever interrupted our relation; it had always been me and her… But now there is that Taemin guy… I think she is into him from a while now… And I don’t know what to do about it!”

I could see his eyes getting teary as he talked, and I knew that he was as broken as I am. I couldn’t stand seeing him like that even if I was going to be the one in lost at the end of the day, but I felt the urge to help him, and shave away my feelings. How I wished I could be a little bit selfish and discourage him, but I didn’t have the heart to break him even more.
He stared at me with his teary eyes as I kept watching him not totally awake from my shock, before he broke the eye contact and put his head between his hands and started sobbing. I patted his back, fighting the itch to hug him.

“Listen Minho-ah, she never said that she liked Taemin, I mean I’m her best friend and she never talked about him, so why do you think so?! In addition to that, nothing happened nor is happening between the two of them, so why are you making all this fuss while you didn’t even try to get to her? Make her know first that you want her to stop being your best friend and become your GIRLFRIEND! Why are you making a big deal out of it?”
“I saw her in the afternoon outside the practice room watching him dance, then he walked outside and they were chatting, and just before I came here she got off of his car or his friend’s car, in any case he was there, and that just pissed me off!”
“And what if? Since when chatting with someone or getting in their car made people lovers? I mean, they may be friends, he may be helping her with something, or I don’t know… I can’t understand why you are jumping so soon to conclusions!”
“It didn’t start today, neither this year, it was like this since years, but I ignored it, I thought it was just a foolish crush of her, and that after graduation she will forget about him, but then he was at the same school again.”
“Well then if you think about it some more you’ll understand that it is still nothing! If she had crushed on him for years and that nothing happened, then nothing will happen either! Moreover, you know her better, you are like two halves, you grew up together, there isn’t better than you for her! So work your ass up, and show her little by little your love, show her how much you want her to be yours instead of crying your heart out as if there is no tomorrow, while you didn’t even move a finger to catch her!!”

As I ended my lecture, he stood up, and walked around the room for about two times before exclaiming.

“Right, you are right, NOTHING happened between them, I still have my chance… But I screamed at her earlier… And I don’t really want to talk to her today… I really want to think on my own… Can you please not tell her that I came? If she asks about me, feign ignorance, you never saw me today, I didn’t call you or anything, you just have no news… deal?”
“Arasso, as you wish… I just wish you are alighting Minho-ah!” I answered as I forced a smile; he smiled back then left.

As I closed the door, I run toward my room before any of my roommates arrive, before setting my tears free. I cried a river as my heart was bleeding. It has been hours now and the tears were still flowing, and then I heard my phone ringing … ____-ah! I answered the phone and was taken off by surprise as she screamed.

“HYO JOON!”

Minho’s POV:


As I exited Hyo Joon’s dorm, I checked my phone to find about twenty missed calls, and thirty five messages, all from ____.

She was totally worried, but I couldn’t bring myself to talk to her now. I need to put myself together before dealing with her. She was probably as angry as worried. Thinking of an angry cherry made me stick even more to my decision.
I was really foolish for what I did to her earlier, but then I was as angry as that, and the idea of her slipping away from me was torturing the sh*t out of me.

The best thing to do now is to buy her a box of dark chocolate… She loves dark chocolate.

Notes



So, yes, Minho loves her ... Hope I'm not that much of boring and that you enjoyed it :3

Comments

Ewh. I don't like two faced people.

AmyWtsn AmyWtsn
7/28/14

can't wait for the next chapter!! o.O :D

mylachae mylachae
7/5/14

I'm in love with this fan fiction. Keep up the good work author-nim

Sparkles Sparkles
5/5/14

love this fan fiction, the story is so captivating and well written , keep going ^ ^ waiting for the next chapters

shineelover shineelover
3/27/14