Look upon the stars

~YOUR P.O.V~

You were nervous. You looked at Chanyeol wondering what he would say, he once again, swayed his arms around you. His arms went through you as if you were a hologram. “L..Luhan.. did you know that…. you..your friend here is a.. ghost..?” You looked at Luhan nervously what you should do. “Y-yeah.. I sorta did… but I didn’t knew she was a ghost to be honest. All I know is that she found me one day, and she told me she is a ghost. But don’t worry, she’s harmless.” You looked at Luhan smiling, thanking him that he took care of the problem. “Then, I should leave hu.. just pretend that I was never here.. haha..” You slowly walked away. When you got outside, it was pretty dark. You stared to the sky, there were thousands of stars. You remembered that you and Luhan used to always go down the stream and lay down to look at the stars. You liked Luhan for a while, he was always there for you. You walked to where you and Luhan always looked towards the stars, and laid down at the exact same spot. The spot where you kissed him without him knowing. You thought the time where you both tried to find the constellations. “Ah! There’s the big dipper!” You said. Then started to cry, you missed the times where you and Luhan always used to meet everyday. You looked towards the stars again, then looked next to you. You imagined Luhan laying besides you. You felt safe, around him. You stood up, and walked around. Then a thought came to your mind. ‘Why can Luhan’s friends see me?’ You went to Luhan’s house, but didn’t went in. You went on his roof, and decided to wait till his friend leaves.
“Bye Luhan!” “C’ya tomorrow!” “Help me on homework when i get home!!” You heard the boys get outside. You hid so they can’t see you. When they officially left, you went through Luhan’s door, and greeted him. “Thank god they were calm, I was panicking.” You said in a relief. You looked at Luhan, he had his back turned towards you. “W-what's wrong.. d..don’t be mad at me…” you said while holding up the tears. Luhan finally turned back, and looked at you. “_____, can you stay away from me for a while..?” You were shocked, “Why?! I didn’t do anything bad! I was trying my best for this 4 years!” The tears that you were holding up fell down to your cheeks. “It’s not for permanent, just, temporally. I.. I just need to get my mind straight..” “You always says that. You changed since I… died… Yeah, right now I’m just a spirit, but, I .. me too.. I too have feelings.. won’t you look at my feelings? You.. you don’t know how I feel… I don’t even know why I’m even in this world. Maybe, they sent me back here just to see Soeun succeed in her dreams, but not me.” You started to cry. This was your greatest fear, arguing with Luhan. Luhan just looked at you with sorrowful eyes. “I’m.. sorry.. ______. I don’t know my feelings anymore… I just need the time to think this..” You noticed Luhan was crying a little, so you nodded. “Al..alright.. Get your answer soon as possible.. okay? I’ll think my situation too… It’s.. goodbye… For now.” You managed to smile at him. Luhan also managed to smile, “yeah… goodbye.. for now..”

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