Is that my life ?

I'd never really though about it , Even if people are saying that's death is not the end , but right now , i'm just wishing that it was , I remenber absolutly every single moment of my existence , every piece of me is missing my parents , and wishing that's never happen ! . My life was just ..............WAW !!, How this turned to hell ? and when all this began exactly , I really wished that we'd never gon to that dinner , I hat my grandpa , It's all because of them , because of thatt " DINNER " , But how can i hate the only parents i have ?
Anyway , this is life , I have to accept it , and stop blmeming people ,, I pased the 7 past months thinking about that , thinking " Hoow will i live ? What's i'm going to do about my father entertement ? " Right now my uncle is on chart of it , but he said that when i will be more mature , I have to take care of it
Today nn i'm living this psy center , i'm going out of it , It was fine , I learned how to live without depending on the other , how to comunnicate with people and hos to accept thhe fact that my parents are not with me ;I'm ready , I will start a new life .
Before coming to this center , My lawyer called me and told me that he will lig me all kind of stuff that my parents left to me , He said that some months before dying , they wrote me a letter in case something bad happento them , He said that right now i can have it , but when i will be eighteen i have to read it and too do what they said to me , Itt's something kdjhgfh It's a ritual innn our family , every parents right a letter to someone of his choice anddd we have to accomplish they last volonties , Seriously , I'd always though that it's something totally absurd and insane , How can someone Die , and after that , someone of his family reserve a letter telling him to do all kind of stuf , Like those people will spend the rest of there life realising someone else wishes and volonties , Any way , it's my parents , they spended all there life working hard and loving me , they gived me everything , I'd never was in mess of something , so if i can do somethiing to thank them , It's with doing that ,
Some days ago , it was my birthday , but i didn't reserve that "LETTER " It's because i'm in this center , But now that i will go out today , My lawyer told me that he will come to pick me up from here , so we can talk about it .
I'm trying to guess what's my parents want me to do , Anyway , I just have some hours in froint of me , I will take a shower , put my clothes and go talk to my doctor until my lawyer comes
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Okay , So now , I will go visit my doctor and thank him for what he did for me .
I gone to his room and knocked at the door ,
_ Come in
_ Hello :)
_ Oww ..!! Krystal , Come in :) How are you ?
_ yeah fine ^_^ thank you ,How about you ?!
_ Good too , So ... you're going out today ?
_Yoop
_ Okay , so .. Do you feel better ?
_ Yes , really thank u ; without your help i don't know what i was going to do on myself , being here helped me a lot , all that's people and this environment , it's just wonderful , I didn't knew that it's will be that's good when i first come here
_ Haha x)) You know , helpin people in need that's my joob , and I really hope that you will life happily inthe futur , you will see , everything will be fing , when god close a door he open another one
_ I really hope that will happen .
_ Well i think that it's tiime to say goodbye , So take care of yourself ,, and you know that i will be always here for you .
_ ^^ I will go now :)

Notes

AGHHHHHHHH sorry it's been a loooooooooooong lonnnnnnnnnnnnnnng time ii didn't uptad xDD I know that's my storry is jkfegezf,j x)) Sorry for that english :p Hope u like it