Is that my life ?

Some weeks later !
I am living with my grandparents Life is very difficult here , It's true that this house is very large , and bigger than the house i used to live in with my parents , but I don't feel well, I don't want to live in such a house or in such conditions , the only thing I want is to be with my parents right now , But i can't :'( cause they are dead !
I didn't went to scool since the "ACCIDENT" , Yeah , that's accident who ruin my life , I've always had the first place in scool and I've always exceled in everything I was doing , studies, dance, sing, learning piano and guitar, Absolutly every thing, It's Because i was enjoying life , it was goood , but now , I don't want to live anymore . My life is a hell where I burn every time I wake up in the morning , and a nightmare that will probably never end up . Anyway My grandma said that i have to goo scoolll tomorrow morning , Cause it's gonna help me to see my friends ; Friend's o.O Witch friends ? " I don't have friends , I don't talk to a lot people , Cause they come to me just for their personal Interests . And i don't like to be used by people . Even if i go to scool , It's won't help me to forget what happened to me a while ago .

I spent the whole night thinking about my parents, why it is they the one who died in this accident ? Why not me ? I was in the same car ! so why iam still alive ? Why those people saved me ? I don't deserve to live, why should I continue to live while my parents are dead ? It was 6:30, I don't want to sleep, even though I know I have to go to the school tomorrow , I on't want to sleep , But oww My head hurts, Aww It really makes me feel very bad, I can't stand it, I can't see anything, it's as if someone is plunging a knife in my head, it's horrible !! AAAAAA
I was screaming really lowd , But no one can hear me .
I ran to the bathroom, I couldn't see anything, I couldn't think, I just wanted it to stop , I opened the medicine cupboard ; I took all the pillsss , i didn't know what i was doing
'' The pain stopped, I felt good, really good , But I suddenly felt nothing, absolutely nothing, as if ...... I i was not living anymore !

Notes

Guuuuuys ,, sorry it's been a long time xDD ! Butim back :D Hope you guys will like the rest of the story