Your POV I turn on my TV in my room when I enter it to see something with Exo on it. I sit up straight when I see my best friend standing there looking neutral as he always does except when he’s around Luhan and me. That’s the thing Sehun has a problem with showing his emotions sometimes.
When we first met as kids he was the same way and its funny I had started crying because he had scared me. His face when I started to cry I still remember it went straight to worry and shocked.
Flashback My mother had brought me over to her friend’s house so that I could meet her son. I was afraid I was only 8 years old and I was horrible with meeting new people.
When I’m pulled to the house sitting there is a boy around my age with to me back then was a scary face.
I pulled my mom’s sleeve trying to hide behind her. She had pushed me in front of her and close to him. I looked at his angry looking face. His face stayed the same way until I started to cry.
“Umma, scary,” I go to hide behind her but my mother’s hands are behind my back so I can’t move.
I looked back at the boy to see that his face is shocked and worried for me.
He looks back at his mother, “I’m not that scary… Am I?”
His mother laughed and shook her head, “No, of course not.”
His face turned to a sad one making me worried for the boy. I leaned forward and made him look at me. When I see tears in his eyes I lean over and kiss his forehead like my mother would do when I would cry. The boy blushed but a smile appeared on his face, as he looked me in the eye.
End of Flashback I smile as I remember that and ever since then we’ve been close. Its hard to believe that Sehun and I have been close friends for a good 10 years.
Still I look at the TV watching my recording of the MAMA awards. I mostly watch the stuff with Exo. I smile when I see them. I touch my chest as I watch Sehun perform. Something that’s always been a bit hard for my heart. Whenever I see him perform my heartbeat becomes off set just by watching. I I sigh when I see how Luhan and Sehun are so attached to each other. I can’t make out what they are whispering… Why should I care? So what?!
I stand up and turn off my TV leaving the recording for later. I go to take a shower. I open my bathroom door when I’m done in nothing but a towel to come face to face with Sehun.
“What are you doing in my room?”
He starts stuttering and I hear the guys asking what was taking him so long to get me.
“We wanted to see if you wanted to eat with us tonight.”
I roll my eyes and push him out of my way walking to my walk in closet. I shut the door giving him a hint.
He calls out my name before he asks, “Did I do something wrong?”
I start moving around in my closet until I find my speakers. I hit play on my music player to ignore him. He starts knocking louder on the door. This isn’t the first time I’ve done this most of the time its out of embarrassment but today it feels different. I feel like I’m losing him to exo and Luhan. I feel jealous they seem to be taking up his time and even his free time.
I’m finally dressed and everything is silent. I open my closet door a crack to have it ripped open to see a seething Luhan.
“Luhan-ssi, what are you doing in my room?”
“Apologize to Sehun,” he growls out at me.
I’ve never seen Luhan angry in the short time that I’ve known him. To see him angry now scares me. I start crying because I feel scared. I hate it when i do this but its a force of habit that had always worked with Sehun.
“Crying isn’t going to work to make me feel bad like it does with Sehun,” I look up at him hurt, “You hurt him today, ___. He wanted to see you the very second we got off the plane but you weren’t’ there. Therefore, we brought him here and you push him away ignoring him, taking your sweet time getting dressed. You know you’ve been in there for a good hour.”
I look away from Luhan, “Leave my room this second Luhan.”
I don't want to hear what he has to say. Sehun is hurt what about me. I've been in love with Sehun for years and here standing in front of me is the main person taking him away from me telling me I hurt him.
He shakes his head, “I’m not going to listen to you. Now, listen here. I’m going to have Sehun come in and you guys are going to kiss,” I look down to hide my blush at the sound of the word, “and make up.”
I nod my head keeping it facing the floor as Luhan leaves and pushing Sehun into the room.
He says my name and I keep my head hanging low. I feel ashamed but I also don't want Sehun to see my face. It's not like my face is pretty or cute like Luhan's or any of the girls that seem to try and hang on him.
I keep it that way until he lifts my chin up, “Luhan made you cry.”
I shake my head wiping at my eyes to make sure I’m not still crying.
“He doesn’t know that angry looks make you scared. That’s why I always smile around you. Even though you are use to my blank looks. I’ll have to talk to him about that.”
I shake my head and pull my head out of his hand. I should just confess to him, but I cant’ I don’t want to ruin my friendship but I am now… aren’t I?
“What’s wrong? You know you can tell me anything. How long have we been friends?”
I hold up my hands showing him all 10 fingers. He laughs and hugs me tightly to his chest.
“I hate seeing you like this.” He mumbles, “How can I tell you how I feel if I make you feel like this?”
I look up at him surprised, but I don't answer him.
He stands up though and smiles at me, “I guess I’ll go. Bye, ____.”
He leaves my room and I simply sit there on the floor surprised by what I heard him mumble. I look up to see Xiumin coming to my room.
“Huh why did Sehun look like you tore out his heart?”
I look over at him confused by that.
What the hell does he mean?
I didnt' tear his heart out if anything he tore mine out.
I was in his arms again and then he leaves me like that.
I hear Luhan say, “Because she did.”
I shoot up standing on my feet in a second when I hear Luhan say that and I grab a hold of him and shake him, “What the heck do you mean Luhan? He’s the one that’s always breaking my heart. He has no idea what I feel towards him and he just keeps taking it and breaking it giving me the broken pieces. Every time I pull myself together he shows up again hurting me again. Sure he helps pull me together at times but he still hurts me so much. He keeps chosing all of you over me. Sure he wanted to see me but how can I face him feeling this way?"
I feel tears fall down my eyes as if my eyes are trying to put rain clouds to shame.
He smiles at me kindly, “It’s the same for him, ____. You have no idea what he feels for you. You have no idea why he really came here.”
I don't wait for him to say anything else I race out to my living room to see that Sehun isn’t there.
I remember where he would go when he was upset with me. I race up the stairs to the roof of my apartment building since I hate the elevator its much to slow. I trip and fall scrapping up my knees and hands. I reach the rooftop. I open the door to see that Sehun is looking over the city like he always does.
“Sehun,” I call out to him.
He looks back at me whispering my name. Seeing his eyes brimming with tears breaks my heart knowing that I’m the reason why.
I race over to him and hug him tightly, “I’m sorry Sehun. I shouldn’t have been so mean to you. Luhan was just mad at me because I hurt you.” I look up at him as I finally tell him my feelings, “I love you, Sehun. Every time I see, you dance or I hear you sing my heart does flips and butterflies appear in my stomach. Every time you smile at me I feel lighter. We’ve known each other for 10 years and I know I’ve loved you like this for the last 5 years. You are more than my best friend. You are the one I love more than my parents more than my brother and sister. You are the most important person in my life to me, Sehun. Its just I keep feeling like you are ripping my heart from my chest and stomping on it. I hate that you’re famous because now everyone else gets to see your different expressions. Expressions that used to be just for me. I love you, Sehun. I’m sorry I never told you. If you are disgusted with me, I understand. I know I’m just a sister to you. Still I don’t care as long as you never leave my side. that's all I wish for. i wish that we'll always be together.”
I look up to see his face the normal blank angry look. He looks down at me wiping away my tears that are still falling.
“I’m sorry that can’t happen.”
I nod my head and turn away from him, “That’s okay at least I finally got to tell you my feelings.”
I go to leave but he takes a hold of my hand.
“That can’t happen because I love you as well.”
I look up at him surprised, “Really? You're not just saying that to make me feel better.”
He nods his head, “I’ve loved you for the last 10 years of my life. When I first say you cry then you had calmed down and kissed my forehead to make me feel better. These years I’ve gotten to know you I know that I’ve loved you. Sure statics are against us, but I don’t care. As long as I have as many happy years with you as possible I’m perfectly happy with that. I remember when a guy had tried to kiss you. You punched him in the face, ran straight to me burying your head into my chest, and said, ‘the only one allowed to kiss me is you.’ I held you to my chest and kissed you on the lips. You ran away from me and I thought you’d hated me. Still the next day you were outside waiting for me with a flower in your hand as an apology. Every time we got in a fight, you’d do the same thing. I have so many of these expressions because of you. Sure others may see them now but they all belong to you. I was talking with Luhan through out the mama awards talking to him about how I was finally going to tell you. I love you, ___. I love you so much. You could never be just a sister to me. You could never disgust me. Because you are you and that’s all I ever will want.”
I start crying and his face becomes the same when we first met as kids. His face turns to a shocked and worried one. He starts apologizing to me.
I laugh and take his face in my hands even if it’s a bit hard since he’s a tad bit taller than me. I pull his head down and kiss him.
I pull away and smile, “So what does this mean now?”
“Well first off I should ask,” he takes a deep breathe and leans down, “Do you want to be my girlfriend?”
I smile and kiss him again, “Of course, pabo. You don’t even have to ask.”
He laughs at me and kisses me back, “It’s a natural thing to ask to be sure of your self.”
“We should go tell the guys.”
“They can wait a little longer. I want to stay like this with you for a little bit longer.”
We sit down and look out at the city and simply enjoy being by each other’s side like every other day.
After the sun decides to set we take the elevator down since Sehun doesn’t’ want me to hurt myself more. Its even worse since he told me to climb on his back.
So now, I’m sitting on his back in an elevator for all to see. Luckily no one gets on the elevator or in the halls.
He carries me into my apartment where Exo must have been waiting, because when they see us they rush over asking questions.
Sehun ignores them and walks over to my kitchen island and sets me down on a stool and goes to get the first aid kit from the kitchen. He walks back over to me ignoring the pestering members.
Luhan comes out of the bathroom and sees me.
When he sees Sehun he smiles, “So did you two kiss and make-up?”
I blush and look down and Sehun starts to focus more on wrapping my ankle.
Luhan giggles, “Do we need to know something?”
I shake my head and Sehun is silent focusing on my ankle but I see a light blush sprinkled on his cheeks.
He wraps up my ankle he checks my other one to make sure its not hurt.
He stands up and looks me in the eyes as he cleans and puts band-aids on my arms and then he looks down at my knees.
“You should be more careful. You are to accident prone to be running up stairs.”
I glare down at him, “What the heck is that supposed to mean?”
I see the guys back up from the corner of my eye. Sehun straighten himself up as he leans down so that we are eye to eye.
“You always hurt yourself why do you think I made you put first aid kits all over the place?”
I spot everyone backing away from us a little bit holding their breathes.
Yet I simply nod my head and smile at him, “I know but you are just to fun to tease.”
They let go the breeathe they were holding.
I laugh and he smiles at me as he leans down and gives me a quick kiss on the lips.
I hear gasps and we both look over at Exo who are surprised by what they saw. I hide my chest in Sehun’s chest as he laughs. Luhan claps his hands.
“Yay are you two finally together? Wait that's a stupid question dont' answer that... What the hell am I saying? So are you?"
I nod my head into Sehun’s chest but they cant’ see that so Sehun answers them, “Yup.”
Luhan laughs and walks over giving the two of us a hug.
“I’m so proud of you two, but no more fighting like this.”
I nod my head and feel someone pat my back. I look up and glare at Luhan. He laughs and soon I’m laughing with him.
Sehun gasps, “Someone else got you to laugh. Ahh…”
He hugs me and I laugh at him, “Ya, don’t squeeze me like that.”
“You know you like me hugging you.”
I hit his chest and smile as I hold onto the front of his shirt.
I hear a cough and look over Sehun’s shoulder to see Suho.
“Yes?”
“Can you two stop acting so lovey?”
“Ahh you’re just jealous,” Luhan teases him.
“Ahh but I’m going to be keeping Sehun from you Luhan.”
He pouts but laughs, “Oh well as long as you keep him happy, okay?”
I nod my head, “Of course.”
The rest of the night was perfect and I cant’ say that I was an idiot to be jealous of that HanHun bull.
He loves me just as I love him and no one is going to take that away.