Super Benji
Are You Ready?
I sat in my apartment rubbing my swollen stomach. I felt my daughter kick from inside. Any day now she was going to enter this world and I was going to hold her but there was one issue.
"What do you mean you may not be there?!" I said in panic staring at my boyfriend
He was Benji from B.I.G and a DJ on Arialong Radio. He ran a hand through his blue hair. "Only my bandmates and company know about you and her. If I go to the delivery room with you we may be found out."
"So? Why do we have to keep everything a secret?" I felt tears in my eyes.
For a year, the whole time we were dating we had to keep our relationship a secret to "avoid scandals". I personally didn't care if the fans found out or not. But Benji and his company seemed to care. But it got worse when I got pregnant. He couldn't go to any appointments.
Scandals happen. Fake ones. Real ones. Most don't ruin a person's career unless it was really bad. Dating an American, not so bad. Getting the said American pregnant within a few months of dating apparently was bad.
Happens all the time in America. But I wasn't in America anymore.
Benji sighed. "Babe."
I don't know if it was I had enough or if the hormones had enough. "'Don't babe me. Benji I'm pregnant with your child! Everyone will find out eventually about her, about me. You can't keep her a secret."
I paused. My eyes widened. "You wouldn't. Are you embarrassed by me? Because I'm not some pretty Korean idol?!"
Tears ran down my face. Through this damn pregnancy I did my best not to cry. I don't cry. But the thought of Benji not wanting to be with or worse, with her broke me. I struggled to get myself out of the chair to go hide somewhere, away from him.
Benji immediately ran to me. "Oh my god no! Andy I swear."
He attempted to help me up but instead of letting him I swatted him away.
"Why then?!" Finally standing up granted my 5'4 self was nothing to his 6ft figure. "Is this kind of scandal really going to destroy your career? I can name multiple idols involved in dating scandals. I don't want to destroy your career but I can't do the sneaky around! I feel like a mistress avoiding the wife. I feel like I'm not good enough. Not good enough to be with the idol."
"Andy you are enough! I love you." He said eyes beginning to water.
I walked away from him trying to calm my own tears. Well more like waddle. When a sharp pain from my stomach. It was only a few seconds but it made me stop and hold my stomach.
Benji was at my side in seconds. "Andy!"
"I'm fine." I quickly said. The contractions had started it seemed.
"Andy please." He begged.
"I'm fine and I will be fine without you in the delivery room." I said a little to harshly
I regretted the words the minute I said them. His eyes fell to the ground.
"Baby I'm sorry." He said walking towards the door. "Please call me if anything happens."
As the door shut there was a more deeper pain and it lasted longer. That's not good. I reached into my pocket grabbing my phone. I stared at it. Thinking about what I said to Benji I felt bad. I didn't want him to leave.
I called him.
He answered on the first ring. "Yeah."
Hearing his sad voice broke the dam. The dam that I had built up in the last 9 months. The dam that held back the tears everytime I couldn't see him, could only hear his voice on the radio, when he told me no to dates.
"Andy?" He said
I started crying sliding down the wall forgetting about being pregnant. Forgetting about the contractions. I heard him say something but I dropped my phone. I heard the click of my door opening and shutting. I felt him pulling at my hands that I didn't realize was covering my face. The second my eyes met his I pulled him to me wrapping my arms around him, crying into his chest.
"It's ok. I gotcha you." He said holding me closer
"Please don't leave." I whispered
"I'm not going anywhere." He said.
A sharp pain hit me again causing me to grasp and hold my stomach.
"Andy! You ok? Was that a contraction? How long have you been having them? What didn't you tell me?" He rambled
"It just started. And no." I said as he helped me up
"No?" He asked
"I'm not ok." Tears began again. "I'm scared and I can't have you with me. I need you."
"I'm here." Benji said. "I'm here"
He led me to my bed and helped me out of my clothes tucking me into bed. I cuddled up to the teddy bear Benji had bought. He took it away. I looked up to see him only in his boxers.
"Tonight you have the real thing."he said with his signature smile.
As the night went on Benji had fallen asleep. I had not the contractions were getting stronger. Finally I sat up seeing it was 3am. Benji was going to love me. I shook him awake.
"Benji." I said
I bent over in pain trying not to scream.
"Andy!" He was fully awake now
"She is coming." I said through another contraction
He jumped up getting dressed, getting my dressed. Grabbed the bag, my keys and helped me up. And before I knew it I was at the hospital. As they were taking me to the delivery room I figured Benji had already left.
"Sir you can't go with her unless you are the father." I heard a doctor say
I did my best to turn around in the wheelchair while I kept breathing. Benji stood in front of the doctor without a mask.
"I am the father. Please let me go with her." He pushed pasted him and came up to me.
"I'm here baby." He said
