Insight

I watched her brows furrow as she grew frustrated trying to set up the lantern. It was hard trying to keep myself from laughing at her tiny angry self, ever since we started going to the lantern festival she always had trouble setting the lanterns up to float up into the sky.

“Y’know you could at least help me,” she looked up at me in annoyance.
“Ah, yes.” I lightly chuckled taking the lantern from her, she’s so cute when she’s aggravated.



It honestly feels like old times being here making more memories, old times as in me and her, but with me being Seokjin. However, only to her, it’s making memories with a stranger name...Jeongguk.

“There.” I said satisfied successfully setting our lantern up.
“You sure you never been to a lantern festival? You pretty much set it up like you’ve done it many times before,” she raised her brows examining the lantern in my hand.

Shit.



I started to stumble on my words trying to come up with some sort of an excuse without it sounding stupid but she cuts me off, “just hand it here there’s one more thing I have to do before we send it off.”

She gently takes the lantern out of my hand and pulls out a marker from her cardigan pocket. She’s..writing something on the paper material..but what?

I squint my eyes trying to make out her writing but she was already done, “okay, let’s light her up,” she stretched her hand out to me for the lighter with her eyes still focused on the lantern, “uh, yes,” I let her light the candle on the candle holder as I held the lantern frame making sure the balloon paper material was collecting air for takeoff.

“Okay...make a wish Jeongguk.” She lightly says staring at the flame. Oh yes, a wish before sending it into the sky.

What do I wish for?

I wish to...be myself again...to be in my time again, to live again, my old life...and to continue to be with Subin.

I began to hear cheers from people around us, as I opened my eyes I saw thousands of lanterns floating away into the night sky, the glow making the sky light up, they were like fireflies... I watched it in awe, it was beautiful, so beautiful. I remember the warm feeling when Subin and I set them off and taking in the beauty of it all, the main reason why we kept coming back every year



“ready?” Subin asked snapping me back into reality, I nodded smiling, “1”, she counted, “2, 3!”

We let go of our lantern watching it float away joining the other lanterns. It didn’t take long until we lost track of ours as it continues to float up into the sky. I turned my head looking at Subin who was still staring up, her face so serious but also kind of sad, like she was waiting for something, but what? Was is something she wished for?

I don’t want to ruin the mood and ask her what’s wrong so maybe I’ll just keep quie-,

“want to know what I wrote on the lantern?” She asked still looking up into the sky. It made me flinch, I didn’t have time to reply, “I wrote ‘I’ll see you when I get there’” she finally turns her attention towards me, “I lost someone very special to me 2 years ago, someone who I loved very much,”

I gulped.

“He was my fiancé, I lost him from a car accident,” she looks down at the ground her voice growing weak, “it’s been tough for me without him..I just..really miss him,” A wave of sadness hit me a hurricane hearing her saying this, and also because of this unexplainable circumstances. I wanted to grab her and to hug her telling her I’m right here, I’m here, I’m alive, that it’s me!..but I can’t, I can’t and it hurts so much, all I can do is stand there watching her trying not to cry in front of me.

“I hope our lanterns float up into heaven where he’s at, I just want him to see my message.” She lightly cleared her throat turning around quickly walking away, “let’s get home.”

Heaven she says...that's where I'm supposed to be at?

Notes

A/N: Hiii, long time no see! I' SORRY! xD But I'm back, I swear!
sorry if this chapter is shitty it's been awhile since I wrote