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Just A Number

Chapter 61

“Long time no see kid,” he took out a cigarette and lit it, I couldn’t believe it was him, standing right in front of me. “Yuna just left a few minutes ago.” He sat in a desk continuing to smoke. “It’s…you. You’re Yoongi?”

He lightly chuckled inhaling, “My old name.” “You’re…Yuna’s ex..”, She was the girl he kept referring to in his stories, “Yeah kid.” “Hyung…why, why’d you hurt her..? Why’d you…never contacted me..? I want to know everything hyung, I deserve to know it all.”

He exhaled smoke looking down at the floor, he slightly smiled, “You remind me of my little brother, Donguk. He was always nosy and asking many questions,” he chuckled, “He…would have been your age this year.”


*Flashback *

“How much longer hyung?” “Just a bit more, we’re almost to the top Guk,” I looked back and saw him putting his hand on his chest breathing a bit hard, “Donguk!” I ran back down to him, “Are you okay!?”

“Yeah hyung, I’m fine, just need to rest for a bit,” he breathes, I sat him down on a rock and got him some water from my bag, “We gotta take it easy,” I said really worried. He took a sip of water and looks at me, “I just hope they can fix my heart,” then looks down at his hands, “They will Guk, don’t worry, you’re going to brand as new you hear me?”



He nodded but still wasn’t smiling, “What is it?” “If I get better will you and dad ever stop fighting?” I sigh and sat next to him on the rock, “Dad and I are different Guk, he doesn’t appreciate what I love, which is music,” “why?” “Because he wants me to take over the family business and that’s not what I want to do with my life. I want to make music and I’ll do whatever it takes for it to happen. I don’t want you to ever be afraid of chasing after your dream, no matter what it is. Do what you love to do”

He nodded his head again, “okay kid, let’s hurry up and get up top of this mountain before we hit 100,” He laughs and got up, “Want me to carry you?” “Hyung I’m 7, that means I’m an adult, I don’t need you to carry me like a baby,” he sassed, “Okay okay,” I chuckled.

[A few months later]

“Hyung please don’t leave,” Donguk cried watching me pack my belongings, “Dad didn’t mean it,” “I got to,” I said not looking at him, as I knew my father he gave the choice either stop with the ‘music crap’ or get out, luckily, I saved enough money to move to Seoul. “But you promised to take me to Seoul with you,” he sobbed, it was hard trying to contain myself from crying, I really didn’t want to leave him but he’s still sick, I deeply sighed and put my backpack over my shoulder, “I’ll come back for you,” I said walking to the door, “I’m such a burden to you hyung, you’re always taking care of me and watching me, you never had time to be happy, I’m sorry I’m always sick, I’ll be stronger if you stay I promise!” he cried, I froze halfway out the door, tears falling out of my eyes, ‘you’re far from a burden’ is what I wanted to tell him but I choked up, “I’ll come back for you,” I rushed out the door, I need to make it, is all I said to myself as I ran to the train station, I need to make it for the both of us.

[3 years later]

“Whaaa you have gotten taller kid,” I laughed greeting my brother at the café back in Daegu. “Don’t call me kid,” he sassed, “Oh yea you’re 10 so that means you’re a young adult,” I teased ruffling his hair, “10 and a half!,” he said fixing his hair back, “How is everything, how’s home?”



“It’s okay, dad’s never really home he’s always busy working and mom is always praying for you to come back home.” He sighed playing with the menu, “I see.” He kept his head down fidgeting, “Well I’m done with High school,” I said to lighten the mood, he looks up, “Is it really different in Seoul hyung?” “Yeah, I got used to the dialect and everything,” He smirked nodding his head, “And…your girllllfrieenndd?” He teased, I threw my napkin at him,

“I really like Yuna, I think you would too when you meet her soon,” I smiled, “I hope so,” he says, “Well how’s school?” He shrugged his shoulders, “Don’t know,” “What you mean you don’t know?” I raised my brow, “I miss too many days because I don’t really feel good most times, kids think I’m weird since I’m the only one not allowed to do physical activities,” he frowned. I felt so bad for him, I wish I could just take it all away from him,

“But it’s no biggie, because in 3 years when I’m old enough they said this big operation will definitely help me, I’ll be normal like you,” he gleamed, “Once you get better Guk, I’ll…ask dad if you can live with Yuna and I back in Seoul,” “You mean it?!?!” His eyes sparkled,

“Yes…I mean it.”


*Jk’s POV *

“…After the operation, he was fine for…a few months, then had to go back to the hospital for a few more tests. He had to stay there for a while, but I was always so busy with the studio to visit him, I thought he was getting better since that’s what he was telling me over the phone…but he wasn’t.” He paused licking his lips, “He died 2 months after being in the hospital and I didn’t get to see him,” he choked covering his mouth, I…never saw him like this.



He got up pacing around the room with his hand behind his head, he cleared his throat, “After that, my life just went downhill, I was just so angry at the world, taking my anger out on Yuna, and deep down I knew what I was doing because it was most of the reasons why I slept at the studio for several days. I hated myself, how can you hate yourself and love someone at the same time?

I wasn’t thinking straight when I up and left her, it was like I wanted to prove something, I had to do whatever it took to make it, thinking it would bring Donguk back and bring me closer to Yuna but all it did was left me alone. I only came back to Seoul because your label begged me to work on your record, and then I met you and….you pretty much made me feel like my old self again,” he sigh looking out the window,





“But why’d you leave hyung?” He was silence for a minute, “Guilt.” Guilt? “Being in Seoul just made me feel guilty, I hurt Yuna and probably my brother when really I wanted them to be happy, I was scared I was going to end up hurting you too…which I most likely did, I just wish I did things differently.” He turned around looking at me,

“Hyung, we can still be friends again like back then, you, me, Namjoon, Hoseok, Jimin,..” “I can’t kid,” he smirked, “You being with Yuna and having a family, I couldn’t be around that…back then I knew I wanted to marry Yuna and have a family with her one day…” He spaced off, “But I’m happy for you both, she really loves you Jeongguk.”

“Yeah, but she’s always thinking about you…” I twitched my lips feeling embarrassed, “Yeah because of the negative things I put her through, when we were talking about you she talked about you like you’re the reason why stars are in the sky, I know…because she used to talk about me like that to people. I envy you kid, I just hope you won’t mess it all up like me.”

Notes

I find it crazy about the whole Hyuna and Edawn thing, it's almost like this story I wrote xD
anyways we all should support Idols in relationships, they're just as human as we are, we got to stop being bitter about it!
with that being said thank you to everyone who keeps reading this story xxoooxox!

Comments

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Cilajaeyoung Cilajaeyoung
10/5/18

Aiishhh this getting dramtic !! Yoongi why???

CasanovaDreams CasanovaDreams
8/16/18

What?

@CasanovaDreams
yes it's Suga sorry I forgot to write it in the notes xD
but thank you stay tuned! xD

charx2 charx2
7/6/18

What the fuck? Is that Suga? Or is it someone else I'm freaking out can't wait for the update!!!