Just A Number

The sun was peaking inside the room, morning came way too fast. I felt some crust in my eyes and realized I must had falling asleep crying. I looked down at the floor and saw that Jungkook didn’t sleep here last night. I got dressed and went out into the living room and found Mr. Jeon meditating. “Good morning Yuna,” his eyes were still closed, “Um, good morning sir, uh, where’s Jungkook?” he slowly opens his eyes, rotating his neck and then attempts to get up, but struggling, I quickly walked over to him to help him up off the floor, “Ah thank you my dear,” he chuckles, “I made some tea earlier, won’t you have some with me?” I guess I should since I didn’t last night, I pretty much felt bad. “Yes, I would love to,”

Mr. Jeon came back with the tea and carefully sat down in front of me, “Thank you,” I say taking the tea from him, I honestly didn’t feel good due to morning sickness, I felt like I was going to puke. “Ah, drink drink,” he motions me to sip the tea, I gave him a nervous smile and gulped down the tea. “Jeongguk went out on a walk this morning, he said he shall be back soon, not really sure where he went to exactly,”

“Oh…” I said in a dejected tone, “Did you 2 have a fight?” I sigh, “Kind of...” “Ah, I see,” Mr. Jeon rubs his beard nodding his head, “Whatever you 2 are going through I know you will look past it,” “I-I guess...” “Always keep in mind that you both are humans who are working through your past, whatever it may be. There will times where you will occasionally project your past traumas on each other, but forgive. Relationships are a part of growth, and growth takes time, and learning to be a pair is more work than just being on your own, it makes you stronger.” I looked up at Mr. Jeon and half smiled, for some reason every word he says stuck to me and comforted me, it’s something I never grew up with, he’s a father I never really had.

“Whoa, I feel…amazing.” I say looking down at my tea, I don’t feel nauseous anymore!! It’s like it’s been wiped out, “What’s in this tea?” Mr. Jeon took a sip of his tea before answering, “Ginger tea, with a pinch of lemon,” he says, “Ooohh, nice,” I gulped some more, “Yuna..?” “Yes Mr. Jeon?” “That baby inside is going to give you trouble during the first few months,” he smiles at me. I nearly spat the tea out, “W-WHAT??” Mr. Jeon lightly chuckled, “Oh you kids think you can hide things from me, I grew up with 3 sisters, I know pregnancy when I see it.”

Oh my god, this whole time he knew!!?

After that audition, my life was slowly changing. With my dad’s permission, they signed me as one of their singers. Almost every day the agency has been calling me, emailing, or video chatting with me about my scheduled leave for Seoul in a month right after I graduate middle school. It’s pretty scary when I think about it, I’ll be alone in a city I have never been to. My dad told me to go for it, I know he wants me to live a happy life and to live out my dreams but I’m just so hesitant, can I really leave my hometown and my dad? Can I really leave Hayoon?



“You’ll love it Jeongguk,” Hayoon squished my face making my lips pucker. We were both in her room studying for our last exams before we graduate middle school in a few weeks. “You have an open door to get out of here unlike some of us,” “I guess.” “I know it’s scary, but experiencing new things is supposed to be scary, but that’s what makes life beautiful.” She sighs, I guess she’s right I mean how many chances do I get to travel and become a star. I held onto her hands caressing it, “I see your point,” Maybe leaving will be a good thing…I hope.

“Jeongguk,” she looks at me, her eyes were on mine, “Yes Hayoon?” she licks her lips trying hard to let out what she wants to say, “I um…i…” I raised my brows waiting for her to spit it out, “I…I think…I love you.” She dropped her gaze and her face turned red. She…loves me? Me?? She pulled back a piece of her hair behind her ears and continued to look down at the floor, I can’t believe she said that. I should…tell her I feel the same…right?

“Hayoon I-,” She quickly looks back up at me again, her eyes were searching for me to say it back, “I uh…I,” I cleared my throat, wow this is hard, I sigh, I can do this, “Hayoon…I love you…I love you too.”

Finally.



For some reason she wasn’t smiling, was I not supposed to say it back? “I’m really going to miss you Jeongguk, you’re leaving and you’re going to forget about me…” A tear fell from her eye, I pulled her into me hugging her, “there’s no way I could,” I whispered, she looks up at me and slightly smiled, I stiffen because she’s so…beautiful…and I’m…so close to her. I pulled back scooting away, “What? What’s wrong?” “No uh, nothing,” I can’t tell her it’s hard for me to be close to her, to touch her, it’s like I lose my mind. She grabs my face with her hands studying my face, “Prove to me you won’t forget me,” Prove? I don’t know what she means,

“Be my first time.”

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