Just A Number
Chapter 24
*Flashback *
“Seriously Yuna, you don’t need to put up with his bullshit,” Minyong shook her head at me as I was sipping on my tea. “I know,” “No you don’t know. I’ve been watching you like this for a while now, you’re not happy like you used to be, I’m your best friend Yuna, I just want what’s right for you.”
I look down at my hands not knowing what to say, I invited her over since I was tired of feeling so lonely. Yoongi hasn’t come home for almost a week again, we’ve been arguing a lot lately again and I guess he just needed some space from me. “You’ve been with him for how many years now? 6? And he still hasn’t’ put a ring on it yet?? Is he even trying to get married to you? What’s the point of being with a person for that long and he hasn’t done squat? You’re still young and beautiful, go find yourself another man! A man that isn’t married to a studio.”
I bit my lip as I was thinking about the time him and I was talking about starting a family, how he wanted to have kids of his own but that was a long time ago, back when he was old Yoongi. The apartment door opened and Yoongi walks in, he looked like a zombie with the dark circles under his eyes. He looks over at us in the kitchen and said nothing, I already knew it was going to be a bad night. “I’m going to go,” Minyong stood up from the table glancing over at Yoongi who was sitting on the couch looking at his phone.
“Call me if you need anything,” she walks to the door, leaving me behind. “Yuna,” he called out to me, I walked over to the living room watching him put his phone away, “Come over here,” he pats the cushion next to him, I sigh walking over to him, sitting, “What is it?” He licked his bottom lip looking down at his feet, “I’ve been…horrible to you for a while now,” he paused,
“And I’m sorry.” I glanced over at him, “I don’t want to lose you, I don’t. I want to work things out with you, I want us to be like what we were before.” He looks up looking into my eyes, “Why are you saying all of this now?” “I was just doing a lot of reflecting by myself and I’m just done fighting, being horrible, I’m done with the studio.”
My eyebrows raised as I was trying to process what he said to me, “You’re what now?” He sighs, “I’m done going to the studio, it’s…just so stressful, I know I haven’t been myself for the past few years being with you, and yet you still stayed with me. I don’t know how you put up with me but, I’m here to change, honestly. I love you Yuna.”
It’s been a year and so far, our relationship is finally back on track. Yoongi works for a company here in Seoul and seems to be doing fine with it. I’ve been doing well too, I’ve been hired as one of the makeup artists for a movie that’s shooting here, everything seems to be falling into place.
I finally got off of work late since we did a late-night scene, I was already expecting Yoongi to be asleep but surprisingly he was still awake as I walked into the apartment, “I didn’t think you would be up,” I said slipping my slippers on, he looks up from his laptop with his emotionless face, “I was just finishing some paperwork,” he said monotone. “Ah, okay, have you eaten?” “Ramen,” “That’s not healthy,” I chuckled walking over to him, he closed the lid on his laptop and pulled me into his lap kissing my cheeks,
“Quit it, what’s up with you?” I giggled fighting him off, he didn’t say anything, he was just looking down at me. “What?” “How about we start a family,” he smiles, I grabbed his glasses off his face looking him in the eyes, “Family?” “Yeah, a baby.” A baby, and me?? I was thinking about being a mother and all the hard work it was going to be and then also thinking about the career I just started, how will I be able to balance that?
“You don’t want to, right?” his face went back to being emotionless, “No it’s not that it’s just, I love my job, I don’t think I want to be a mom yet,” he was quiet his face look slightly disappointed, “Yeah, you’re right,” “We can try in a few years,” I say optimistically, he still looks down at the floor, a small smirk entered his face and his eyes shifted towards me, “
You love me, real or not real?”
I grabbed his face and kissed him on the lips,
“real, always.”
It was the end of January the start of a new year and I have been really busy working on different sets on TV shows, I just arrived home exhausted, “Hey love,” I greeted Yoongi as he was sitting at the kitchen table on his laptop, he didn’t answer me, he seems frustrated. “…did you eat? How’s work?” He deeply sighs turning to me, “It’s the end of the day just, please, leave me be.” He furrowed his eyebrows turning back to his screen, he’s been acting strange lately as in almost every little thing that I do he gets upset over, work must have been really stressing him.
After I finished showering I laid down on my bed getting ready to sleep, Yoongi comes walking in with his tie undone, “Yuna?” he breathes out, I gave him an upset look turning my back towards him trying to sleep, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be upset with you,” “mmhm,” I hummed still having my back facing him.
He sat on the edge of the bed on my side touching my back, “I’ve been stressed lately and not paying any attention to you lately but, I promise to make it up to you.” He murmurs, I turned my head over to him looking at him looking down at his feet, “Valentine’s day,” he says, “We’ll do something fun, so, look forward to that,” he gently smiles, “What are we doing?” “I’ll plan it out don’t worry, you just get some sleep okay?” he leans in and kissed me on my lips, cutting off the light.
It’s valentine’s day and I had to work which sucks because I know Yoongi is actually off today. He didn’t seem to be mad that I had to work, he said we’ll go out tonight which I’m excited for.
I tried to call him to let him know what time I will be off but no answer, he must be asleep.
I was growing concerned about Yoongi, he hasn’t returned any of my calls from today, it was going straight to voicemail as I was walking home. “I better buy some chocolates for him,” I thought walking into the convenience store, “Hopefully he likes white chocolate,” I brought the items to the cashier, she scans the chocolates, “That will be 11,186 won ($10).” I handed her my card and she swipes it, “Ah, do you have another card?”
“Why, what’s wrong with it?” “It declined,” That’s funny that never happened before, “Uh, here I have cash,” I handed her the money and left walking home. I punched in the key code and walked into the apartment, “Yoongi?” I called out to him, no answer, he better not still be asleep! I walked into our room and he wasn’t there, where the hell could he be?
I looked on his desk to see if there was a note but there was nothing, as in nothing on his desk, his laptops, books, everything was gone. My heart began to beat faster, I looked into our closets and saw only my clothes hanging up, I looked in the bathroom and only saw my toiletries, I looked in the shoe compartments and saw only my shoes, what is going on?
I quickly got on my phone and tried to call him, “We're sorry; you have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer in service. If you feel you have reached this recording in error, please check the number and try your call again.” My hands began to shake, where is he?? Did he…did he leave??? My brain clicked, I got on my banking app to check on my accounts to see why my card declined,
Checking & Savings: 0.00W
What?? This has got to be a mistake!! Where is all my money?? Yoongi was the only one that has my banking information. I started hyperventilating trying to process all of this, did he really…leave? To where? Without me?? I ran down the complex stairs running into people who were walking up the stairs, I ran outside running towards a direction hoping to find Yoongi, “YOONGI!” I called out running out like mad, “YOONGI!!!” I called again, I was running all over the place, I was getting tired, it was late out and very cold,
I collapsed on my knees looking down at the ground, tears falling uncontrollably, this can’t be happening, this can’t happen to me. WHY?! I sobbed on the ground not knowing what to do. Snow started to fall, the first snow of the year. The first snowfall of my new life.
“Seriously Yuna, you don’t need to put up with his bullshit,” Minyong shook her head at me as I was sipping on my tea. “I know,” “No you don’t know. I’ve been watching you like this for a while now, you’re not happy like you used to be, I’m your best friend Yuna, I just want what’s right for you.”
I look down at my hands not knowing what to say, I invited her over since I was tired of feeling so lonely. Yoongi hasn’t come home for almost a week again, we’ve been arguing a lot lately again and I guess he just needed some space from me. “You’ve been with him for how many years now? 6? And he still hasn’t’ put a ring on it yet?? Is he even trying to get married to you? What’s the point of being with a person for that long and he hasn’t done squat? You’re still young and beautiful, go find yourself another man! A man that isn’t married to a studio.”
I bit my lip as I was thinking about the time him and I was talking about starting a family, how he wanted to have kids of his own but that was a long time ago, back when he was old Yoongi. The apartment door opened and Yoongi walks in, he looked like a zombie with the dark circles under his eyes. He looks over at us in the kitchen and said nothing, I already knew it was going to be a bad night. “I’m going to go,” Minyong stood up from the table glancing over at Yoongi who was sitting on the couch looking at his phone.
“Call me if you need anything,” she walks to the door, leaving me behind. “Yuna,” he called out to me, I walked over to the living room watching him put his phone away, “Come over here,” he pats the cushion next to him, I sigh walking over to him, sitting, “What is it?” He licked his bottom lip looking down at his feet, “I’ve been…horrible to you for a while now,” he paused,
“And I’m sorry.” I glanced over at him, “I don’t want to lose you, I don’t. I want to work things out with you, I want us to be like what we were before.” He looks up looking into my eyes, “Why are you saying all of this now?” “I was just doing a lot of reflecting by myself and I’m just done fighting, being horrible, I’m done with the studio.”
My eyebrows raised as I was trying to process what he said to me, “You’re what now?” He sighs, “I’m done going to the studio, it’s…just so stressful, I know I haven’t been myself for the past few years being with you, and yet you still stayed with me. I don’t know how you put up with me but, I’m here to change, honestly. I love you Yuna.”
It’s been a year and so far, our relationship is finally back on track. Yoongi works for a company here in Seoul and seems to be doing fine with it. I’ve been doing well too, I’ve been hired as one of the makeup artists for a movie that’s shooting here, everything seems to be falling into place.
I finally got off of work late since we did a late-night scene, I was already expecting Yoongi to be asleep but surprisingly he was still awake as I walked into the apartment, “I didn’t think you would be up,” I said slipping my slippers on, he looks up from his laptop with his emotionless face, “I was just finishing some paperwork,” he said monotone. “Ah, okay, have you eaten?” “Ramen,” “That’s not healthy,” I chuckled walking over to him, he closed the lid on his laptop and pulled me into his lap kissing my cheeks,
“Quit it, what’s up with you?” I giggled fighting him off, he didn’t say anything, he was just looking down at me. “What?” “How about we start a family,” he smiles, I grabbed his glasses off his face looking him in the eyes, “Family?” “Yeah, a baby.” A baby, and me?? I was thinking about being a mother and all the hard work it was going to be and then also thinking about the career I just started, how will I be able to balance that?
“You don’t want to, right?” his face went back to being emotionless, “No it’s not that it’s just, I love my job, I don’t think I want to be a mom yet,” he was quiet his face look slightly disappointed, “Yeah, you’re right,” “We can try in a few years,” I say optimistically, he still looks down at the floor, a small smirk entered his face and his eyes shifted towards me, “
You love me, real or not real?”
I grabbed his face and kissed him on the lips,
“real, always.”
It was the end of January the start of a new year and I have been really busy working on different sets on TV shows, I just arrived home exhausted, “Hey love,” I greeted Yoongi as he was sitting at the kitchen table on his laptop, he didn’t answer me, he seems frustrated. “…did you eat? How’s work?” He deeply sighs turning to me, “It’s the end of the day just, please, leave me be.” He furrowed his eyebrows turning back to his screen, he’s been acting strange lately as in almost every little thing that I do he gets upset over, work must have been really stressing him.
After I finished showering I laid down on my bed getting ready to sleep, Yoongi comes walking in with his tie undone, “Yuna?” he breathes out, I gave him an upset look turning my back towards him trying to sleep, “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be upset with you,” “mmhm,” I hummed still having my back facing him.
He sat on the edge of the bed on my side touching my back, “I’ve been stressed lately and not paying any attention to you lately but, I promise to make it up to you.” He murmurs, I turned my head over to him looking at him looking down at his feet, “Valentine’s day,” he says, “We’ll do something fun, so, look forward to that,” he gently smiles, “What are we doing?” “I’ll plan it out don’t worry, you just get some sleep okay?” he leans in and kissed me on my lips, cutting off the light.
It’s valentine’s day and I had to work which sucks because I know Yoongi is actually off today. He didn’t seem to be mad that I had to work, he said we’ll go out tonight which I’m excited for.
I tried to call him to let him know what time I will be off but no answer, he must be asleep.
I was growing concerned about Yoongi, he hasn’t returned any of my calls from today, it was going straight to voicemail as I was walking home. “I better buy some chocolates for him,” I thought walking into the convenience store, “Hopefully he likes white chocolate,” I brought the items to the cashier, she scans the chocolates, “That will be 11,186 won ($10).” I handed her my card and she swipes it, “Ah, do you have another card?”
“Why, what’s wrong with it?” “It declined,” That’s funny that never happened before, “Uh, here I have cash,” I handed her the money and left walking home. I punched in the key code and walked into the apartment, “Yoongi?” I called out to him, no answer, he better not still be asleep! I walked into our room and he wasn’t there, where the hell could he be?
I looked on his desk to see if there was a note but there was nothing, as in nothing on his desk, his laptops, books, everything was gone. My heart began to beat faster, I looked into our closets and saw only my clothes hanging up, I looked in the bathroom and only saw my toiletries, I looked in the shoe compartments and saw only my shoes, what is going on?
I quickly got on my phone and tried to call him, “We're sorry; you have reached a number that has been disconnected or is no longer in service. If you feel you have reached this recording in error, please check the number and try your call again.” My hands began to shake, where is he?? Did he…did he leave??? My brain clicked, I got on my banking app to check on my accounts to see why my card declined,
Checking & Savings: 0.00W
What?? This has got to be a mistake!! Where is all my money?? Yoongi was the only one that has my banking information. I started hyperventilating trying to process all of this, did he really…leave? To where? Without me?? I ran down the complex stairs running into people who were walking up the stairs, I ran outside running towards a direction hoping to find Yoongi, “YOONGI!” I called out running out like mad, “YOONGI!!!” I called again, I was running all over the place, I was getting tired, it was late out and very cold,
I collapsed on my knees looking down at the ground, tears falling uncontrollably, this can’t be happening, this can’t happen to me. WHY?! I sobbed on the ground not knowing what to do. Snow started to fall, the first snow of the year. The first snowfall of my new life.
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10/5/18