Just A Number

2 days passed since the last time Jungkook called me if there was a panic button in my life it has already been pressed. I was off today and decided to sulk in my room, I don’t know what I did wrong to cause him to sound like that before he hung up. “Ugh, I’m still bad at this relationship thing!” I say mashing my pillow on my face. Should I call or text him? I don’t want to sound clingy or be annoying! He might be busy rehearsing still, I sigh looking at my phone, I’m almost 29 and still have so much to learn. Maybe I should take a nap. Taking a nap sounds amazing right now to drown my sadness, that’s all I ever did when my ex and I got into fights. As soon as I closed my eyes the doorbell ringed, “Ugh, who the hell could that be?” I struggled to get up almost tripping over my makeup box, the doorbell ranged again, “Hold on GEEZ!” I yelled, why can’t I be sad in peace?! As soon as I opened the door my heart almost stopped. It was Jungkook in his disguise, “Jung—kook?” I whispered, he pulled down his mask smiling, “Well aren’t ya going to let me in?”


Jungkook belly flopped on my bed hugging my pillows, “Ya! Don’t mess my bed up!” “Your bed is really comfy, better than mines,” he snickered, I sat on the end of the bed watching him snuggle up with my cat plushy. “Um, what are doing here Jungkook?” I asked trying not to sound too depressed, I mean it’s not like we didn’t speak for 2 days for some unknown reason(sarcasm). His smile fell and he deeply sighed sitting up, Oh no. “Yuna,” he sighed again, I felt my heart drop. Why does this seem like a break up was about to happen? Is this it? Is he going to break up with me?! I mean I wouldn’t know since my ex just took off with everything without saying anything! I started to panic, I felt tears forming, my lips slightly quivering, what did I do to for this to happen?

“Yuna? Are you okay?” Jungkook touched my shoulder, I closed my eyes letting my tears stream down my face, “W-why are you crying? What’s wrong?” he eyes grew wide with worry, “Y-You’re breaking u-up w-with me right?,” I tried to get out, my sobs slowly increasing, he scrunched his perfectly shaped eyebrows, “what? Yuna, no, I’m not breaking up with you!” I turned my head to look at him, only he was a little blurry from my tears, ‘Y-you’re not?”, he slightly chuckled and pulled me into his chest, hugging me, that hug just gave me reassurance, “No Jigaya,” he murmured, “I’m here to…apologize.”

I broke out from the hug looking at him confused, “Apologize?” he rubbed the back of his neck looking down at the floor, “Yeah, the reason I didn’t talk to you for the past 2 days was because of my stupid jealousy.” JEALOUSY?! Did I hear that correctly?! “When I called you the other night and heard all the music and that guy asking for you in the background I…I got jealous, because I’m not there with you. You’re so beautiful Yuna that just knowing a guy noticing you has me feeling…I don’t know, just going mad.” The tip of his ears turned red, “Jungkook you don’t need to be jealous, I’m not interested in anyone…besides you, you can trust me.” I say wiping my tears on my sleeve.

He half smiled still looking at floor, “Yeah, I know that, I just feel stupid, I was kind of mad at myself for acting that way towards you and making you feel this way. I mean we pretty much just started dating, I really don’t want to mess this up.” He twitched his lips. Oh my god, the hottest idol in Korea is jealous that guys possibly look at me?!?! No way! I smiled and put my hand on top of his, he looked up studying my face, his lips slightly parted,“Yuna?” “Yes Jungkook?” He gulped, “C-Can I…can I kiss you?” my eyebrows shot up, did he really just asked to kiss me? “Yes…I guess, I mean, you don’t have to ask m—,” he interrupted me by pulling my face into his, our lips finally meeting again.

It felt so nice, so sincere, our lips syncing, I was longing this for a while. His hands cupped my face, I was almost startled as I felt his tongue go inside my mouth, slowly swirling around, he then started sucking on my bottom lip gently. His kissing started to trail down on the side of my neck, I gasped in surprise as he found a sensitive spot. He began sucking on it, hard this time, I winced in slight pain but let him continue, I then felt his hand go up inside my sweater, his cold hands trailing my bare warm skin causing me to have goosebumps.

My body started feeling hot, a hot sensation that I haven’t felt in a very long time. Jungkook went back for my lips but this time being a bit aggressive, his hand moved up to my bra, squeezing my breast which caused me to moan in our kiss. He pushed me down on my bed hovering on top of me, I put my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me making our kisses deeper. I didn’t know I was craving this so bad, his hand trailed from my breast to under my pants, his hand above my sensitive area, my thin underwear the only thing separating it from his hand and I’m pretty sure my underwear was probably a bit damp from all this excitement.

He cupped my area with his hand which caused me to moan again, he slowly pulled away from my lips, looking down at me faintly smiling, “Sorry Yuna,” he said as he got off of me. What?! What just happened?! I sat up looking confused as he brushed his hair back, “I uh, didn’t mean to,” he cleared his throat. “Oh,” I said a bit disappointed, well actually no, A LOT disappointed. “I...don’t want you to get the wrong idea Yuna, I want to cherish this relationship, I need to…control myself,” he bit his bottom lip avoiding eye contact, I was in between of feeling my heart stopping from his cuteness and then feeling like he’s a fucking tease!

“Yeah, I get it.” I smiled. He looks back at me returning the smile, “Good,” he leaned in to kiss me on top of my forehead. His eyes then widen as he pulled back, he was looking down at my neck, “What?” “You um,” he snickered pointing at the side of my neck. I got up to look in the mirror to find a kiss mark he made, “Great, now I gotta conceal this,” I sighed. He came behind me wrapping his arms around my waist, “But I want people to know you’re taken” he whispered in my ear, yep, he’s such a tease.

“Yeah, and tell them what? It’s from my idol boyfriend Jungkook?” I scoffed. He kissed my cheek chuckling, “Seriously Jungkook, what will your agency or whatever say if they found out we’re dating?” He made a thinking face letting go of my waist, “Hm, don’t know.” He shrugged, “You don’t know?” “Yeah I mean when I started out I never thought nor considered dating.” “But you dated someone last year?” “I did…but it was sort of an accident.”

“Accident?” I questioned him. He sighed sitting back down on my bed, “She’s in the same agency as I am, I helped her out with a lot as she was getting started on becoming an idol but she pretty much mistook my kindness as for liking her, but I never saw her in that type of way.” “Then how did you guys end up dating?” I crossed my arms, “She confessed to me at my album release party and before I could turn her down I got pulled away to do something so I never told her I wasn’t interested. The agency wasn’t too happy about it when they found out but then decided it could help her career out more,” he rolled his eyes, “So I was stuck being her ‘boyfriend’, it was torture.”

All of this was news to me, as much as I admired Jungkook before I knew him I never knew anything about him, I just knew he was an idol, nothing about his personal life. I was never the type to dig up on idols personal lives or anything since I worked with a few and some of them seem to be assholes. “So she’s an idol, who is she?” Jungkook closed his eyes pinching the skin between his eyebrows, “Aimee…who used to be in the group Star Gals.”

Notes

I need to go back and fix typos on previous chapters since my stupid grammar app changed some words around. But please enjoy xD *throws shitty chapter 10*