In regret and determinate, I jerked up from my bus seat and sat my foot in the new town that was going to be my new home.
I love this town. The flowers were amazing in spring.
This is where me and Nari met for the first time. When father and uncle would meet up every now and then, they would bring us along.
When we were about 5 years old, father decided to let Nari live with us, because of uncle's hard time with money.
I heard that Hani and Jin has been here too, on a date I think.
My eyes went around the street. It was dark and cold. I decided to live in this town, but where do I go??
My head was practical in the clouds.
Wait, clouds?
I looked up to the starren sky.
Maybe I have to go further, further away.
My head turned the way I came from.
Next town is probably too close.
As I took a big breath, I nodded for myself, deciding my next goal. But for now, I should get a place to rest for the night.
Maybe I should stay at the usual hotel?
Thats the only thing I know about this town, beside the beautiful flowers they got in spring.
On my way to the hotel, I started to think about the past.
What did I do? Didn't I approciate his love? Did I forget his birthday? Or maybe I broke a promise??
No matter what I thought of, I got no answer for my question.
I could feel the frustrated feelings boil inside me, and tears threathen my eyes.
But I refused.
If I am going to forget Suga, I have to get stronger.
Crying won't help me anything.
That night, I didn't get much sleep.
I spent most of the time thinking, about what I should do, and where I should go.
Right before sunrise, I found my new goal.
Father told me that he wanted to expand the company to other countries.
Father thought about a country close by, but Uncle suggested a country in the other side of the world. Europe.
That was going to be my next goal.
Maybe Norway, they have a rich culture and very popular in the oil industry.
If we could get a deal with them, it would be a great start.
I can see where Nari is getting her crazy thinking.
I managed to get some food in me. Even though I didn't want to eat, I had to learn how to take care of myself.
After breakfast, I decided for visiting the beautiful flower garden again.
But to my surprise, everything was covered in frost.
The sun shined bright at the flowers, making them sparkle with help of the ice.
A smiles appeared on my face as I leaned down to watch the flowers more closely.
"(Y/n)?!" i heard a panting voice.
My eyes widen in shock to see the familiar figure.
"N-Nari?! How did you find me??"

"I used my nose... duuh! Did you underestimate my smelling skills? I am like the god of..."

"You left a note remember?" Hani commented, with a smile on her face.

"HANI?!"
"You ruined my cool speech here.. "
I stood in shock when suddenly Hani walked up to me and grabbed my arm.

Before I could say anything, I suddenly felt pain on my cheek.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HANI?!" Nari screamed at her.

"Slapping her." She looked at me, mad as hell.

"Thats for disappearing without letting us know"

My head fell down, and I could feel how stupid I was.

"Why are you running away again?!" Nari suddenly screamed at my face, shaking my body.

"I- i cant take it anymore, Suga is just too cold towards me, I can't handle it anymore" I broke down.

"Wait, what is going on?" Hani asked calm as Nari was shocked to see me break down.

I shaked my head, just trying to avoid the question.

"Tell me (Y/N)" Hani said, sitting beside me.

I sighted and showed them my phone with the text Suga sent me.

My eyes were on the ground, just feeling ashamed and embarrassed.

"HOW DARE HE?!" Nari suddenly snapped.

"Wait... is this why?" Hani commented, touching her neck.

"I-i decided that I want to do something for me this time. I want to stay here like a independent woman. Right now, I am only relying on everyone around me, both you Nari and Hani, Suga, The BTS boys, father and mother. Not to mention Suzu.

I decided to go to Norway. Helping the company to expand."

"Oh lovely, Norway!" Nari smiled.
"Where is Norway?" She suddenly whispered to Hani.
"It's on the other side of the world, in Europe" She sighted.
"WAIT?!?!WHAT?! BUT (Y/N)! You can't! I mean..." Nari yelled shocked, with her eyes widen in shock of my sudden annousment.

"We understand (Y/N), I think you are doing the right thing" Hani said, standing up and putting a hand on Nari's shoulder.

"BUT IT'S NORWAY!!"

"Nari, I really need time to think, alone, away from people I know. Please understand" I begged, knowing that Nari would be hard to convince at this point.

"Don't worry (Y/N) I will talk to her, just do it" Hani tried calmed me down.

I nodded, still worried as I stood on my feet again. Trying to walk towards Nari for a goodbye hug.

She just stood still. Slowly I put my arms around her and gave her a hug.

"I kill you if you disappear" she whispered in my ear, making me laugh of relive.

"I am not saying I am accepting it, but I can't really make you stay can I" she smiled sad.

I nodded.

"Well... I can honestly say that I feel superduperultramega frustrated."

"Superduperultramega is not a word Nari..." I commented.

"Now it is" she smiled.

I broke the hug and looked over to Hani.

She gave me a sweet smile as she gave me a big hug.

"Take care of yourself" She hinted.

"Please, just be there for Nari. And, when the right time has come, tell the boys that I am sorry and that I still think about them. They don't have to be worried about me, I will follow them through TV."

"I will"

She suddenly broke the hug and slapped my head.

"Don't do anything stupid now" Hani joked.

"I won't"

I looked over and saw Nari's worried expression.

"What is wrong?" I asked.

"What should we tell Suga?"

"Tell him whatever you want too, if he wants to tell me then he just have to get a hold of me. But I don't want to face him until I feel satisfied with myself. Suga deserve someone better than me"

They nodded and looked at each other.

A sad smile appeared on their faces before they turned their back and walked away.

I turned my back to them and walked away, ready to start my new life.

I looked at my phone.

Maybe I should go to Norway sooner than I thought.

A sight escaped my lips as I prepared myself for the departure.

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