Suga looked at me.
He sat down in front of me, looking me in the eye.

When his hand touched my cheek, I knew he was real, and not an image in my head.

I could feel the tears well up in my eyes again. I closed my eyes, and just felt the warmth on my cheek. At that moment, I knew that I was myself again. Just being with Suga made me come to my senses again.

"What happened??" He asked.
I opened my eyes, and met his gaze.

"I haven't been myself lately" I tried to avoiding the question.

"Well, I can see that. I did see the books last time, but... I guess you got tired of reading?"

Was that suppose to be a joke, if it was, it was a really bad one... just to be honest.

I looked at my room. It was filled with ripped pages all over the place. Some of my things were broken, and not because I destroyed it, but because I threw some of the books that made it fall.

"I heard that you locked yourself in this room since last time we met each other"

I looked at him while he was talking. His eyes was on the ground, but I could still see his deep brown eyes. I couldn't look away, but I wanted to. I felt I lost the right to be with him, touch him or look at him.

"I feel kind of responsibility for this incident. Was it something I did, or did I say something that made you this upset?"
His gaze met mine, and we were staring in each others eyes for a while.

I snapped to reality when Suga broke the eye-contact between us.

I shook my head.
"Nothing of this is your fault, everything is mine, and I hate myself for it. You just tried to live a life, and I was in your way. I was just a burden to you, and didn't realize it. "

"How could you be a burden?!" he answered me, almost scolding me.

I looked at him shocked. Suga never raised his voice at me, I guess it came as a little shock.

"Sorry, but where did you get that stupid thought??"
"From watching you and that actor, made me think that you have others to care of. I have been selfish, wanted you to look only at me and help me out of this situation. I never thought about your life and that you had other responsibility."

His hands were on my shoulder as he turned me around, me facing him.

He gently pulled me close to a close embrace.

"I am so sorry for letting you go through something like this. If I had just been able to do stuff myself, or didn't bring her along with me, you wouldn't be like this."

I hugged him back. His hands was around my waist. I could feel his hands shaking. I thought maybe he was crying.

"Can I really be by his side again?"

Without thinking, I had said those words out loud.

"Of course, If someone had lost the right to be with you, it was me. I let you down, and I didn't even tell you."

He let go of me and stared into my eyes.

I felt my tears run down my cheeks, not of sadness, but of happiness and relief.

Suga looked at me, it felt like he knew what my thoughts were. Then he opened his mouth to speak up.

"Will you be by my side again?"

I could a smile burn inside me, but the anxiety grew.

"But.. I can't let you help me.. you have more than enough to do yourself."

"Please let me help! I would never forgive myself for marry a stranger! Everyone has problems they have to face, We can find a way out of it! I want to find a solution to be with you.

We can get past this, Together"

The burning smile finally bloomed on my face as i threw my arms around Suga's neck.

My words got choked up by my sobs, and all I could manage to do is nod.

I could feel his arms around my body.

When my sobs calmed down, we broke the hug.

Suga looked at me and I met his gaze.

Embarrassed, I looked away. The fact that I could maybe be with him, and meeting the eyes that was filled with love made me so happy that I couldn't stand it anymore.

His gentle finger lifted my chin up, making me facing him.

I had no way to escape his gaze anymore.

His face came closer to mine.
I slowly closed my eyes and felt his lips on mine.
It was a warm kiss filled with love.

He gently pulled away and looked at me with a smile.

"The first kiss as a couple"
I smiled at his comment, and he gently put his forehead against mine.

"I have never been this happy (Y/N)" Suga said.
"Not even when you debuted?" I commented, trying to tease him.

"Not even when we debuted." He answered, giving a peck to my nose.

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