Kana’s P.O.V.
I froze as I was still leaning against my bedroom door.
“I knew you didn’t love me. But I adored you anyways.” I heard Jimin whisper. I bit my lips. So Jimin still had feelings for me? But why did I feel something else? Something else more than pity and guilt for him? Was it possible that I-

No, I told myself. I shook my head and snapped out of it. As I tried hard to ignore and not complete that thought, I finally fell asleep.

*Hours Later*

I woke up early in the morning. It was around 4:30 in the morning but I couldn’t fall asleep, so I decided to watch some videos on my phone. But when I turned on my phone I saw that my ex, Lucas has messaged me once again. I didn’t want to answer. What if he was messaging me to tell me more bad news? Last time Lucas messaged me and it wasn’t for a good thing. But I decided to read Lucas’s message anyways.

‘Kana. I need to talk to you.’ He texted.

Since I saw he was active, I responded back. ‘What do u want to talk about?’

A few moments later I received another message from Lucas. ‘It’s important and I need you to hear me out.’

I rolled my eyes. Why was he trying to sound nice and polite now? What was the point? I already knew about the bitchy-ness and the pathetic liar inside him.

But I replied, ‘Sure...what is it.’

Moments later he texted, ‘I’m outside your house. I want to speak to you in person.’

I immediately sat up from my bed and looked out the window. Why the HECK was he outside my house this early in the morning? What could’ve been so important? I looked out my window, which was huge and took up one whole wall. It was so big, anyone could get a perfect view into my room at the right angle. But I had huge curtains, so I didn’t need to worry about that. There was a balcony which gave me a view of what was happening in front of the main gate since my room was right above the entrance to my house. I opened the balcony door thingy (sorry, I really don’t know) and looked down.
And there was Lucas. I looked down and asked “What?” with an obviously annoyed voice.

Lucas, seeing that my expression told him I wanted him to go away ASAP, had the nerve to smile and wave at me. I rolled my eyes again. “Ugh. What do you want. If you don’t have any business, then leave. I want to go back to sleep. It’s still like…four in the morning, Lucas.” I complained and groaned.

“Okay. Okay. I do have actual business to talk to you about. But can you come down here?” He requested.

I made a face of disgust. He wanted to bother me four in the morning and he thinks he has the right to randomly show up in front of my house to talk to him? Hell naw.

I shook my head and replied, “Hell no, Lucas. Say what you wanted to say like this. I don’t feel like going down. And if you can’t talk to me like this, then I’m going back to sleep. So hurry the fuck up.”
Lucas took a deep breath and stated quickly, “ I want us to get back together. Please.”

It took me a while to process his request. When I did, I was trying to refrain myself from laughing from pure disbelief. Did he ask for me to get back together with him? Was he out of his mind? Did he honestly think I’ll ever forgive him for using me, for tricking me into loving him, for fucking other girls, for cheating on me when he was all that I saw? I would never forgive a liar like him. Ever.

“No.” I stated simply.

Lucas, to my surprise, smirked. “Kana, are you sure you have no feelings for me?”

I was seriously impressed with how OVERLY confident he was. How could one be so full of themselves. “Yes. I can swear on that. In fact, I would love it if we went back to how we started as. STRANGERS.”

Then I went back into my bed not even bothering to close my curtains and I ignored his calls.

Then I heard a knock on my door.
I opened the door slowly and saw Jimin. My face flushed.

“Um...Is something wrong?” I asked and tried not to stutter. I mentally slapped myself.

‘Stop it Kana.’ I thought. ‘He’s going to be your step-brother. If you’re this awkward around him, how are you going to live you life later on?’

Jimin looked around then turned back to me. “Who was that outside?” He asked.

I tilted my head in confusion. “What are you talking about, Jimin?” I asked.

“I was heading into the kitchen for water and I saw through the window and saw a dude standing in front of the gate.”, Jimin explained.

I made an ‘oh’ face and explained, “That was my ex. Lucas. Don’t you recognize him? He’s our classmate.”

Jimin shook his head. “Nah. He wasn’t worth paying attention to.”

I laughed and asked, “Well then, Park Jimin, who IS worth paying attention to?”

“You.” He said.

I held an awkward smile and said, “Oh. Um..that’s nice to know.” That was all I knew to put into my reply. After all, what can one say when their soon-to-be step-sibling said something so cheesy yet so sweet about them, AND you knew they had feelings for you? You don’t know? Exactly!

After a while he asked me, “Why did you break up with him?”

“He cheated on me.” I stated simply. “And he wants me to get back together with him.”

“Will you?” Jimin asked.

I shook my head. “No. He cheated on me. He kept apologizing and saying sorry. But he’s not sorry about what he did. He was sorry that I found out. I don’t ever want to look at him anymore. All I see is a liar that once meant everything to me.”

“Do you trust me then?” Jimin asked me.

I looked at him and hesitated. Did I trust him? I didn’t trust many guys after what happened with Lucas. My trust for people has been hard to obtain after that incident. “I don’t know.” I told him.

Jimin sighed and asked me, “Well, what do I do to gain your trust?”

I raised an eyebrow. “Why are you acting so weird? I liked it when you were more ‘mochi’-like.”

“Like this?” Jimin asked as he puffed his cheeks out and poked both of them with his smol fingers. (Just imagine that. OMFG. That is SO cute. Ahem. Sorry. Back to fanfic.)

I laughed and nodded. “Yes. Like that. I like you like that better. Stay as mochi, Chimchim.”

“Chimchim?” He repeated, confused. “Is that my new nickname?”

I smiled and nodded. “Yep. Like it or not, I’m calling you that.”

He gave a wide smile and said, “Don’t worry. I love that nickname.” Then he gave me a huge tight hug. I hugged back. After all, this hug felt more of a friendly hug, so I didn’t feel awkward.

And then somehow it became a tickle battle and Jimin and I started tickling each other like crazy. And OF COURSE, circumstances like these HAD to end up on the bed right? Right.

And so, I found myself sitting on top of Jimin’s abs as he was laying on my bed looking up at me. “Well this is awkward.” I said, hoping and praying that I wasn’t blushing or doing anything of that sort.

Jimin’s expression turned from ‘mochi’ back to ‘international playboy’. “Really? Well if it’s awkward maybe we should move on to the next stage. It’ll be so fun, you’ll forget about the awkwardness.”

I was taken back and Jimin smirked at my shook expression. Then he left out a whole-hearted laugh and turned back to ‘mochi’. I swear this person had multiple personalities.

He gently gave me a friendly smack on my back and said, “I was kidding. Your reaction was priceless. What were you thinking? PERVERT.”

He had the nerve to emphasize on the word pervert.

“You’re the perv here.” I said with a pout.

Jimin raised an eyebrow. “Says the one that is sitting on my and in the position that looks like someone is going to ride me. Yep. Honestly, Kana, why do you try so hard to make guys get boners?”

I made a disgusted face and got off him. “Not my problem. And do you really have a -”

I stopped as I noticed that he had a semi.

“EEEEW.” I said, pushing him off my bed. “You’re disgusting. Go away.”

Jimin made a ‘bruh’ face and said. “Well, it’s not my problem that a person of the opposite gender was sitting inches away form my dick! I am a guy at the age of 16 and I have needs, okay?!”

I blinked a few times and I realized what Jimin had just said. Jimin seemed to realize too and he seemed to be really embarrassed because it was either the sun was already rising and shining red light into my room, OR, Jimin was blushing.
“ERM...Forget what I said.” Jimin said quickly as he rushed out of my bedroom.

“Okay then…” I said to myself after Jimin left. “That was...unexpected.”

*Later at school’s lunch period*

Everyone was chatting as Hee-Young came up to me and suddenly asked, “Kana. Do you have a boyfriend?”

I looked at her and then replied, “If I had one, do you really expect that I would keep it away from you guys? Of course I don’t!”

Hee-Young smiled and wagged her eyebrow. “I see then. Then are you crushing?”

I hesitated and stayed quiet.

Hee-Young covered her mouth then said, “OH MY GOD!!! You are! Who is it? You HAVE to tell me. After all, friends don’t keep things and situations like this a secret from each other. Come on, Kana. Tell me. Tell me. Tell me.”

“Um...I’m not exactly sure WHO I like.” I confessed. After all, that wasn’t really a lie.

Hee-Young tapped her chin and said, “Hmmm. So that’s the case. Okay then. Listen closely. He’s young. He nice. He’s cute. He’s caring. He’s handsome. He’s hot. He can act mean but is actually very sweet. He may be weird at times, but you still love him.”

Hee-Young paused for a second then asked, “Okay, Kana. Who is the guy that popped into your head first?”

My eyes widened as I looked down at to the ground, not wanting to look at Hee-Young into her eyes. The person that popped into my mind first. It...it wasn’t Suga. He came in second. The person that came to mind first…..

Was Park Jimin.

Hee-Young was great at reading expressions and body behavior. So from the way I was reacting, she knew I must’ve liked a guy and that someone HAD popped into my head. “So, Kana, who came to mind?”

I shook my head.

“Oh, COME ON, Kana. I’m your friend. Why won’t you tell me?” She asked.

“Because, because it’s just WRONG.” I told her.

Hee-Young sighed and said, “Well then, it’s fine. I won’t force you into telling me. Don’t tell me if you don’t feel comfortable. But if you ever change your mind and need to talk about it with someone, remember I’m always available.”

I gave a faint smile and nodded. “Okay. I know, Hee-Young. Thanks for being a great friend and not forcing me to tell you.”

Hee-Young chuckled. “It’s nothing. What friend is it if she or her keeps forcing the other to do something? If you want to tell me, you tell me. But if you feel uncomfortable and don’t want to tell me, there is a reasonable cause behind it. So obviously I don’t want to be a brat and force you to answer me when you are obviously very bothered by it. Now we have to get lunch. What do you want?”

I shook my head. “Nah. I don’t feel like eating today.” I told Hee-Young.

“Okay then. I’ll still bring you some green tea.” She told me as she left to buy some lunch.

I took a seat in the usual table where my friends were already busily eating. Linda noticed something off immediately and she asked, “Kana? Are you alright? You look a little pale. Do you feel weird? Are you sick?”
I waved my hand and replied, “No, Linda. I don’t feel sick.”

A-yeon and Sadako also looked over and their expression also immediately filled with concern.

“Are you sure though? After all, you do seem pale,” A-Yeon told me.

Sadako agreed and said, “And you do realize your whole face is sweating a ton right?”

“Oh. I am?” I asked and felt my skin on my. I was sweating. “Oh. Never mind. I am.”

“Exactly. It’s kind of chilly in here. It makes no sense that you’ll be sweating. Are you one hundred percent sure that you are fine?” A-Yeon asked.

I nodded and told my friends, “Yes. I am one hundred percent sure that I am fine. I’ll just go get some water. I’m fine.”

As I headed towards a vending machine, I whispered, “I’m definitely NOT fine.”

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