So Much For Being Siblings

“Suga”

I blinked a few times. Then my brain caught on to what she said. She liked Suga. I also liked Suga…
“I really love Suga. We actually talked quite a bit. He’s really nice. Understanding. He seems cold. But he’s actually not. I really like him. His hair. His eyes. His smile. His laugh. HIM.” Sadako told us. “I don’t think I’ve ever felt like this before…”

As I was deep in thought my friends started congratulating Sadako for finally learning how to love someone.

What do I do? I still loved Suga. But Sadako now loves him too. I didn't want to cause conflict between Sadako and I. After all, Sadako is one of my best friends. She had never loved a guy in her life. So she must've loved Suga a lot. I want her to be with a person she really loves. But I loved Suga.
Was this the situation Sadako had feared?
‘Should I have told them that I had liked Suga?’ I asked myself.
I looked over to Sadako, who was now surrounded by my friends. They were talking and laughing. I sighed. All of my friends seem to support the idea of Sadako and Suga. After all, what could go wrong with those two?

As much as it pained me, I told myself that I had to let Suga go. I loved Suga. But Sadako was also a very important person to me. I couldn’t hurt Sadako. If I told Sadako that I liked Suga, she might say something like, “Why didn’t you tell me earlier? And see? This is what I’m talking about. Liking a guy always ends up like this.” Knowing Sadako, she would never forgive herself for having feelings for someone I loved first. Who knew what she would do. Even if she loved Suga, friends came first for her.

No. I couldn’t let that happen. I had to give up on Suga, no matter how much I loved him.
‘Even though I really love Suga, I can let go of my feelings for him right?’ I asked myself.

His hair. His eyes. His smile. His laugh. HIM.
I’ll have to let go of everything. All of it. For the sake of Sadako.

Why did it end up like this?

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