Forget About Her

{SoonHee's POV}

I walk around my house, trying to think of ways to get Jungkook and MinAh back together.

Another week has already passed and I'm trying to delay the process of putting MinAh and Jungkook together again.

Because to be honest I'm not sure I want to…

But I know I have to because why separate two people who are in love?

For the past week, Jungkook has been trying to get me to hang out with him more. Which I don't necessarily mind, but MinAh does.

So I try to decline a lot of his offers to hang out.

I already talked to Jimin about trying to get MinAh and Jungkook back together... He doesn't necessarily agree with me though…

And I don't blame him.

I'm only doing this because I want to see Jungkook.... Happy.

I mean, he seemed okay that one day... But I could tell he was still hurting inside.

Because every time I look into his eyes, it's as if they're empty, lifeless.

Just like how my best friend used to be.... Before she took her own life…

I shudder at the thought and dial MinAh's number. She picks up at the second ring with a nice "hello?"

"Hey MinAh, meet Jungkook at the amphitheater area on our college campus at 4 in the afternoon", I say, getting straight to the point.

"Are you finally going to try to get Jungkook and I together? Will you be there?" She asks and I shake my head, forgetting that she can't see me.

"Um no I won't be there.. I'm going to make it so that Jungkook thinks he's meeting up with me when in reality he's meeting up with you. All I'm going to do is make it so that you two can solve it yourselves. If it's solved, then it's solved. If not, then oh well...." I say and I hear her shriek in happiness.

"Thank you so much SoonHee!!! I owe you one!" She yells in happiness and I smile.

At least I made her happy... That's what counts.

And hopefully Jungkook will be happy too…

I want to see him fully smile…

We hang up the call and I dial Jungkook's number.

Should I do this to Jungkook?...

But he does still love her... So I'm sure he'll be happy with her..

I feel my chest ache and I sigh.

This is exactly what I was afraid of, crushing on someone and then having myself hurting in the end.

I hate feeling that ache in my chest...

I felt it a couple times in my life, and each time it was all from because of one emotion.

Love.

I sigh and stare at Jungkook's name on my phone screen. I press the green button and after the first ring, he answers.

"SoonHee?! Hey what's up?" Jungkook says and I smile.

"Nothin much, did you want to hang out in about..." I trail off as I check the time.

"In about 40 minutes? Meet me at the amphitheater on our college campus at 4?" I ask him.

"Why at our college campus?" He says and I shrug.

"I don't know, I'm in the mood to be in the college campus I guess", I say while biting my bottom lip.

I'm sorry for lying to you Jungkook...

"Sure! I'll see you there!" He says and we hang up. I sigh and toss my phone on the couch.

Now what?

... Should I spy on them?

No!!! No that's wrong!! Spying is wrong!

But what if Jungkook gets in an argument with MinAh and everything goes wrong... I need to be there for him if something goes wrong..

I pace around my house for about 20 minutes while chewing on my bottom lip.

Ah! I should call Jimin for advice!! Right?1

I run and toss myself on the couch as I press number 1.

Yes, Jimin's number is on speed dial.

He answers after a couple rings and says, "hi SoonHee, what's up?" I smile at his groggy voice because I probably just woke him up.

I tell him the situation I'm in and Jimin agrees that I should go see if anything goes wrong, just in case.

"You sure?" I ask and he answers, "yea. You never know? What if something bad happens? And I'll go with you too so that afterwards we can go shopping because I need food." I laugh and I hear him chuckle.

"Alright, I'll meet you at the campus", I say into the phone and he agrees. We hang up and I step out of my house with my phone and car keys in hand.

I get in my car and pull out of the driveway to drive to the college campus.

I park in the college parking lot with 5 minutes left to spare. I walk to the amphitheater and hide behind one of the big trees to conceal myself.

I look around and already see that Jungkook and MinAh have confronted..

Wow they both got here earlier then 4..

I squint my eyes to see that Jungkook is not yelling at MinAh, but looking as if he's aggravated. I can see MinAh trying to explain herself and I flash my eyes back to Jungkook to see him look at the floor with his shoulders shaking slightly.

He's... Crying...

I take a step away from the tree and I'm about to make my way towards them when I see MinAh take a step closer to him. She caresses the side of his face as she tries to peer at his face. He looks up at her as he sniffles and she leans in, kissing him gently on the lips. She wraps her arms around his neck to pull him closer and I cling back to the tree trunk as I hide behind it once again.

She... Kissed him..

I feel my chest ache as I put my hand over my mouth to avoid myself from shrieking.

I got them... Together again...

I should be happy... But why do I feel so sad inside?

Why?..

I move away from the tree and sprint out of the amphitheater.

I just need some air.. Some cold air.

All of a sudden I feel myself bump into someone and I fall backwards onto the floor.

"SoonHee? What happened? Why are you running-"

Jimin says but is cut off when I look up at his face.1

"SoonHee... Are you crying?.." Jimin says as he kneels in front of me.

I bring my hand towards my cheek and I realize that my face is wet with my own tears. I furiously shake my head and stand up.

"No.." I mutter and I look at the floor as I walk away from Jimin. We make it to the parking lot when I feel a hand grab my arm.

"SoonHee... Tell me what happened", Jimin says and I turn to face him.

"Nothing.... Except that I got MinAh and Jungkook back together again", I say as I clench my fists.

"But those aren't happy tears..." Jimin mutters and I shake my head. He sighs and wipes a tear from my cheek.10

"SoonHee... You started liking Jungkook... Didn't you?" Jimin asks and I nod my head slowly.

"I didn't want to", I say as I sniffle.

"I wish I didn't come here... If I didn't come here then I wouldn't have seen them kiss like that.." I say and Jimins eyes widen.

"They kissed?!" He exclaims and I nod my head.

"Oh SoonHee... I'm sorry", he says and more tears fall from my eyes.

I only cried once in front of Jimin, and that was when I told him about my best friend...

Last time he comforted me when I cried, he bought me ice cream and kept telling me things that would make me feel better.

Things like "don't worry, she's in a better place now. She's happier then she's ever been" and things like "she's going to watch over you and make sure that you'll always feel loved... That you'll never feel lonely."

Jimin always knew the right things to say.

"Aw SoonHee... Please don't cry" Jimin says as he continues to wipe my tears with his hand.

"I can't.." I sob and I pull him into a hug because I need one right now damnit.

Screw my promise to myself... I no longer care anymore.

I need Jimin right now.

I need a hug.

And I'm getting one from him, whether he likes it or not.

He stiffens and then quickly wraps his arms around me.

I sob into his chest as he places his hand on the back of my head.

"This is the first time you hugged me", Jimin says and I nod into his chest as another sob escapes my throat.

"I tried... So hard not to like others", I cry into his chest and he tightens his hold on me.

"I know... I know I'm sorry SoonHee... I hate seeing you like this", Jimin says in a shaky voice as he grits his teeth.

"I didn't... I didn't want to like Jungkook. I hate him", I say and he continues to hug me.

"I know you didn't... You have me so don't ever feel like you've lost everything over one stupid guy", Jimin says and I look up at him with a small smile.

"Thank you... Jimin", I say and he nods with a small smile as well.

"Of course", he says and he pulls me into another hug.

"It's nice to hug you. I've always wanted to hug you", Jimin says happily.

"But you never liked being touched... So I tried my hardest not to", Jimin says and I nod. I let go of his hug as I wipe my stray tears and look at him with a smile.

"Well... I will learn to adjust... So now you can touch me and I'll try not to push you away. You can hug me... Whenever you want", I say and Jimin smiles brightly.

"Really?" He says excitedly and I nod my head hesitantly.

I'm going to learn to open up to others more.

Let them in...

BUT only Jimin is allowed to hug me. Others can touch me, but no one is allowed to hug me except for Jimin.

"YES!" He yells and he ruffles my hair.

I chuckle and Jimins face turns serious when he looks at my face.

"Your laugh sounds like such a sad laugh", Jimin says and I shrug.

"Hey! I'm going to take you out for ice cream, just like old times. What do ya say?" Jimin says and I smile.

"You're paying", I say as I enter my car on the passenger side with him sitting on the drivers side.

He chuckles and nods, "of course. It's my treat."

I look out the window as Jimin drives towards one of our favorite ice cream shops.

I hope you're happy Jungkook..

I hope that the next time I look into your eyes, they'll be filled with love, passion, and happiness instead of lonely emptiness.

Even though it hurts a little now, I'll eventually get over it.

It was my first crush so of course it will sting a little.

But I know I'll get over it.

I know I'll get over him.

But.... Will he ever get over her?

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