I LoVE YOU//SEVENTEENFF

(Yu P.O.V)

I got out of bed and took my clothes for the day and headed to the bathroom to take a shower i got in and locked the door you know living in a house with 13 guys + their managers it is needed

I took a shower and got dressed i then headed back to my room and did my hair i then went down stairs to see that all the guys were up i waved at them not feeling like talking

I headed to the kitchen and grabbed banana milk and headed to the living room i took a seat on one of the couches and started drinking my milk i felt when someone came and sat next to me i looked to my side and saw Dino smiling at me

I smiled back he then said "Noona there is breakfast if you want some" i smiled at him and said "ah thank you but i won't be eating now" he frowned and said "but noona it's not good to skip meals" then oppa came and said "Dino-ah she gets sick when she cries and if she eats now she might throw up in the van later"

He just nodded but then said "but hyung why will she cry?" My brother just smiledat him and left he looked to me and i just shook my head and said "Don't worry so much okay everything is okay it's just going to be a long day for me" he just nodded without asking more questions

After everyone ate we got into the vans and headed to the flower shop i got Meirin's favorite flowers and headed back to the van we then headed to our destination i was sitting between Hoshi and Jeonghan oppa

As we got closer my brother took my hand and squeezed it lightly as if to give me strength when you could see the place clearly Vernon broke the silence by saying "Hyung why are we at a graveyard" i just gave him a straight smile same with oppa and he just kept quite after that

We all got out when we were close to her resting place i walked in front of them i know they are wondering why we are here but i don't feel like explaining it and if they find out what happened will they be angry at me disappointed maybe i don't know and don't really want to find out

When i got to her grave i knelt down and placed the flowers by her tombstone i took the picture of us all just before she died and oppa was there to i smiled and whipped off the dust that gathered om it

Memories started to play in my head from when we were really young until the accident i felt someone hug me i looked to the side to see Jeonghan oppa

"It's been a long time Mei we miss you i hope you are doing well up there" his voice cracking was evident but he was trying to be strong for me i know but sadly i can't be him i can't be strong it's my fault

I put my head in his chest and start banging my fists on the ground with tears running down my face "it was my fault my fault if i wasn't there she would be here and she would be happily dancing around why why couldn't she just let the car hit me why did she have to jump to save me why"

I felt my brother hugging me and rubbing circles on my back while saying "shhh Yu it's okay she did it to save you she was fated to save you we are both sad but you have to stop blaming yourself"

(Jeonghan P.O.V)

When she calmed down she slowly fell asleep i sighed and tried to get up without waking her as if seeing me struggle Hoshi came running over and slowly picked her up without waking her he smiled at me as i mouthed "thank you"

We headed over and put her in the van so she can rest i felt like maybe i need to explain what was going on so i closed the van door and told the guys to follow me to Meirin's grave
We sat down and i started "i guess your wondering why she had that outburt and why we are here right?"

All of them nodded i sighed and started to explain "you see when i went to train i didn't hear much from Yu but one day i got a call and it was not what i wanted to hear my parents work abroad in Japan a lot so i was the only contact i got a call from the local hospital saying that my sister and her friend are in critical condition and i was needed her as fast as possible i left on that exact day as well when i got here one of the eyewitness told me what happened my sister and her friend were returning home from school and some idiot pushed past everyone on the sidewalk and pushed my sister into the street she fell and hurted herself she couldn't get up and there was a car speeding down the road my sister tried to get out of the way but she wasn't fast enough"

I took a breath and continued "Meirin jumped and covered her and she got hit with most impact she fractured her skull broke ribs which penetrated her lungs she broke her spine as well my sister had a broken arm and head injury sadly Meirin died a few days after the accident on the exact day my sister woke up from her coma since that day she has been really quite she doesn't talk to anyone really or laugh much she has been blaming herself for what happened when my parents come home they contact me and tell me how she is doing like i know she pushes people away and she gets bullied at school for not talking as well as her bad eating habit she doesn't eat much that is why she is so small I'm taking her back to Seoul in the hopes of seeing her smile again"

I looked at them and they all seemed sad i then added "the reason I'm saying this is because i know she wouldn't talk about it because she is scared you will feel disappointed with her"
"We would never be disappointed with her hyung she seems like a nice person i want to help you hyung you know to make her smile again i think she might have the most beautiful smile ever" Hoshi stated half dreamily

I chuckled and said "Hoshi why do you have dreamy eyes if this was a anime it would probably be hearts" he blushed and hid his face in his hands which caused us all to laugh a bit
Then i remembered "aishhh she is going to be sick again" as i ruffled my hair and sighed

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