Throughout a few years, I've realized what I've been doing was a regular thing for me I'd Usually wait behind the bushes next to the front gate, all too see him
But that all changed when I Confessed what I was feeling all those times waiting for that special moment each time just to make my day better then before hoping I had that 1% chance at he's attention.
I should of never done that I should of never told him, why did he have to be so mean about it, why did he have to walk away like if I was some bug that was gonna bite him anytime soon if he didn't get away, Why did he have to Say "Why" when I'm the one who was asking all the questions.

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Ever since that day he's words kept replaying in my head, "Why are you standing there, your in my way", did he not hear I had a letter to give him and asking if I liked him he could of at least said who I was. . .

"Kotomi, Kotomi KOTOMI"

"Hm, Joy what's up?", I said as Joy woke me up we were in class but it seemed that I dazed off.
"How are you feeling?, I heard that jerk rejected you" said joy
"How do you know?" I said
"Kotomi, the whole school heard about your confession" said joy
"I'm done for" I said
as I slammed my head on my desk
Suddenly the flashback coming back to me
*There he is its now or never
Excuse me, umm if you don't mind I was wondering if you could accept my Letter and as well as accept my feel- Before I could finish what I was saying
he spoke up and said, Why are you standing there you're in my way and oh I don't accept Love letters. He said.
after that he walked away not even looking back* (End of flashback)

"Kotomi, Let's forget about him and let's go for karaoke after school Okay?" said joy as she patted my back
All I could do was lift my head and look out to the window, why must he be different then what I imagined him to be

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Later on when it was time to go home, me and joy gathered together to head out and before we headed out of school, there he was
It was like the whole world Stopped and the sunlight casted on him and made him shine
"Kotomi, Let's go" said joy as she pushed me to walk ahead
I think she noticed me starring but maybe it's best to forget about it for now
but how can I just walk away and pretend my feelings for him never existed after all he is My first love Yoo Oh Sehun.

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