arranged marriage

I couldn’t help but look, even though it hurt in some kind of way. To be honest I started to grew feelings for Taehyung, but seeing him kiss another girl just says he didn’t feel the same way towards me. Without knowing it tears started to form in my eyes, and slowly rolled down my cheek. Why am I still looking? I went back to my room and locked to the door. He took my first kiss, I felt ashamed to have given my first kiss, to someone like him. But why didn’t he tell me, that he already had a girlfriend? Why did it hurt so much? I barely knew him, I’ve been staying for 3-4 days. How can I grow feelings for him already? I didn’t even want to talk to him, I didn’t even want to think about him. I walked over to my closet, and reached for a kaki green oversized hoodie. Once I wore it, I walked over to the door. I couldn’t hear voices anymore, so I guess she left. I opened the door and walked downstairs. I walked over to the kitchen, and grabbed an apple and walked out. Where am I even going? I have nowhere to go. I just walked straight, not knowing where I’ll end. There were couples everywhere, when I look left there’s a couple, same thing goes when I look right. I wish I had a partner like them, a partner who would truly love me for who I am, and not what he sees. Before I knew it, I was at Han River just staring at the water, as the cold embraced me. More tears escaped from my eyes. I looked around and saw a lady selling Soju. I never drank before, I guess I’m doing it today. I bought 3 bottles and took them home. I wiped my tears so it didn’t look like I cried, and stepped inside. Taehyung wasn’t there, neither were his parents. I walked up to my room and locked the door. I changed to my shorts and my white oversized shirt since the green was in the laundry. I took the bottle and opened it with my teeth, and just drank. The liquid burned my throat, my vision got blurred but went back to normal again, but the worst of all was I was drinking because of him. I finished the 3 bottles in no time, I got really drunk. I started crying again, and started cursing. I couldn’t help it. I heard someone knock on the door. I got up and stumbled towards the door. I opened it and saw Taehyung standing with a worried look, I was about to close the door but he already made it inside the room. he looked behind me and saw the bottles, his eyes widened.
“WHAT ARE LOOKING AT? GO BACK TO YOUR GIRLFRIEND!” I screamed while more tears escaped my eyes.
“what girlfriend?” he asked.
“THE GIRL YOU KISSED THIS MORNING!” I fell to the floor on my knees.
“you said that you loved me, you’re a liar. But I guess it was my mistake for believing those words. It was my fault. Everything. It was my fault for falling for you, for thinking that you felt the same for me, for giving my first kiss to you. It was my fault for loving you…but I couldn’t help it, I couldn’t help falling for you. When you smile, the whole world stops and stands for a while, when our shoulders touch I get butterflies in my stomach. Thinking of you keeps me awake, dreaming of you keeps me asleep, being with you keeps me alive. If I had to choose between you and someone else, I will choose you. And I choose you over and over and over. Without a pause, without a doubt, in a heartbeat. I’ll keep choosing you, because I love you” I said, sobbing.
I stood up and stumbled towards him. I wrapped my arms around him hugging him tightly.
“I know you have a girlfriend, but Wǒ ài nǐ ” (I love you) I whispered. I leaned back and planted and soft kiss on his lips. Before he got the time to respond I pulled back.
“But I understand she’s probably prettier, funnier, better at everything. And I was going to say that I’ll be better at loving you but she’s probably better at that, too right? I understand why you chose her and not me, because I wouldn’t choose me either” I walked back to my bed and sat down thinking.
I wanted to tell him that I saw her at Han river. She talked about how happy she was with him, and how long they been together and how much she already missed him. they probably been together in a long time. I didn’t want to be here, I want to be home. I stood up and headed for the door, my hand touch the cold doorknob. But before I got the time to leave, Taehyung held my wrist. He turned me around, so I was facing him.
“It’s true that we kissed, but she kissed me. I was too shocked and that’s why I didn’t do anything. She’s my ex, after she heard that I’m getting married to you, she wants me back. I swear to god, I don’t have feelings for her anymore. I love you too, and I mean it. You’re the only one I have my eyes for. And to be honest when I first met you I didn’t know you were gonna be this important to me. But now I know my feelings for you are real” I could hear that he was sincere and that it came from his heart.
I tip toed and connected my lips with his. It was a hot kiss, that lasted for a long time. We had part our lips, to get some air. I could feel the blood rush up to my cheeks. Maybe we’ll last long, since this is true love.

Notes

okay so I like had to exaggerate to make it less boring.