When Jennie woke up, it was past 9, as she somewhat felt disappointed at the loss of heat from Jungkook when she got out of bed to stretch. She had a great night’s sleep thanks to him. She planned to spoon more often if he was okay with it. He was comfortable to sleep with and not to mention, warm.

Glancing at the bed, she smiles at the cute sight of the puppy curled up in a ball, next to him. Gently picking up the sleeping puppy in her arms, she places the covers on Jungkook before setting the puppy back to sleep next to him.

When she went out her room, she was met by Jin, Yoongi, and Jimin eating breakfast. “Morning!” She takes a seat next to Jimin as she was greeted back.

“Where’s Kookie?” Jimin asks.

“He’s in my room.”

Her statement caused Jin to stop eating and immediately turn to her. “And what is he doing in your room?” He asks with his voice filled with panic.

“Here we fuckin’ go…” Yoongi puts his headphones in, blasting music so he wouldn’t hear another freak out of his.

“What is he doing in your room, Jennie?” He repeats.

Confused at his sudden questioning, she replies in a calm tone, “Jin, relax-“

“JEON JUNGKOOK!” He screams, standing up from his seat.

“H-hey! He’s sleeping!” She jumps on her feet, trying to stop him, but ends up getting picked up over his shoulder and placed on the couch. “Jin!”

“You might as well just leave him, Ennie.” Jimin laughs as they hear Jin’s shouts and Jungkook’s yells of confusion. The puppy ends up running out of the room until it finds Jennie. She picks it up and holds it in her arms.

She felt the puppy shaking in fear as she began to soothe it by gently petting its head. “Jin! You scared him!” She scolds as he drags Jungkook out of the room by the ear.

“How heartless.” Yoongi comments after taking off his headphones.

Jungkook sat on the couch with her, rubbing his ear, lowkey annoyed at how his sleep was interrupted. “Hyung, was that really necessary?” He complains. “And you scared Tony.” He frowns and turns his head to the shaking puppy in Jen’s arms.

“It’s okay.” She coos as the puppy whines. “Hey, hey. Shh.” She hugs it close as it starts to calm down.

“Let me see the little guy.” He requests as she places the puppy in his hands. Jungkook picks him up and turns the puppy to face him. “Jin is mean, isn’t he, Tony?”

“A big meanie for scaring you.” She adds as she smiles at the puppy.

“Don’t be scared, you’re safe with Kookie and Jennie. We’ll protect you.” He whispers gently.
“We won’t let anyone hurt you.”

“Yeah, so have no fear, little guy.”

Jimin watches them both with the puppy. It was like they were taking care of a baby. It was cute to watch them together like this as a smile came across his face.

“Was that your Christmas gift, smartie?” Yoongi asks.

“Yes. We’re taking care of him together.” She answers.

“We’re just in a disagreement about if it should be a Captain America based name or Iron Man based.” Jungkook playfully narrows his eyes at her as she rolls her eyes.

“I didn’t mean to scare the puppy.” Jin tries to explain.

“Too late, you already scared the poor puppy! How dare you?” Jimin calls him out. “At least his parents are there to calm him down.”

After the puppy calmed down, it began to act hyper and happy again, putting smiles on its owners’ faces.

“I don’t feel comfortable with you two in the same bed together, all right? No more going in each other’s rooms.” Jin orders.

“Oh, you have got to be kidding me!” Jennie complains. “We’re just sleeping!”

Jimin giggles at her statement. “Yes, friends sleep with each other, I don’t see anything wrong with that.”

“Thank you! We sleep with each other a lot.”

“What-what-WHAT!?” Jin shouts.

Jimin couldn’t hold in his laughter as he began to giggle out loud, banging his fist on the table. Yoongi smirks in amusement and shakes his head.

“What is so funny!?” She exclaims, turning to Jimin.

“Nothing, nothing. You can carry on.” He gestures.

“I think you two need to write a report of the things you do together. Should I get hidden cameras?” Jin suggests.

Glancing at Jungkook, him and her stare at Jin, unamused. “All right now you’re outta pocket.” She declares.

“What does that mean!?”

“It means you’re getting old…” Yoongi bluntly replies.

“I am not old!” Jin shouts, as his ears began to get red.

“Jin, you really need to calm down. Let the kids live.”

---

At the KBS Song Festival, Jen was already dressed for the It’s Tricky stage with the rest of the members.

Leaving the dressing room, she found herself in the mix of all the busyness of the show and various groups preparing for their stages. She didn’t want to be stuck with the members, she was always with them. She wanted to find some familiar faces and if not, make a few new friends.

“Hey, hey.” She hears a familiar voice and turns to see Taeil from Block B.

“Taeil! It’s been a while.” She pulls him in for a hug. Last time she saw him was at the MAMA Awards. She was pleased to see him doing well.

“It has. Good job performing Danger earlier.”

“Thanks, I’m looking forward to your stage, tonight.”

“It’s gonna be a fun one. I’m surprised you’re not with the members, right now.”

“I’m trying to make some friends here.” She sighs.

“I think I see Bora, from Sistar is over there.” He points out to her at the refreshment table.

“I see her. All righty. I’ll see you before the show is over, all right? Tell the guys I said hey.”

“You got it.”

Turning her attention to Bora, Jen makes her way to her. “Excuse me.”

“Yes?” Bora turns around with a smile.

“Bora, right? From Sistar?”

“That’s me. You’re from America, right? BTS’ Bangtan girl?”

“Yeah, it’s nice to meet you. I was wondering if we could hang out or something. I’m trying to meet new people.”

“And get away from the boys?” She teases.

“That too!” She shares a laugh with her.

“Well, of course, we can hang out. Dasom, she can speak English too.”

“Oh really? Nice.”

“Yeah, I’m sure she’ll love to talk to you. I was on my way back to the girls. Follow me, I’ll introduce you to them.”

Meeting Bora and the rest of the Sistar members went smoothly for Jennie. They were extremely sweet and Dasom was eager to speak with her. After hanging with them, she had bumped into AOA’s Jimin, Mina and Choa. Jen thought that Jimin’s voice was unique and complimented her and even found out that some of the members played the guitar, eagerly suggesting that they should play together something and can possibly learn a few things from them. Networking was always a great thing.

Walking around backstage, she goes back to the refreshment table, to grab a small plate of two cookies.

“Hey, Jennie!” A deep voice filled her ears.

She turns to see a guy smiling brightly at her. Her lips curl into a friendly smile. “Hi. You look really familiar…you wouldn’t happen to be a part of GOT7, would you?”

“You’re correct. I’m Jackson Wang. It’s nice to meet Miss Bangtan.”

“It’s nice to meet you too! I have been trying to get to know some new people. Get away from the guys.”

“Hahah, I wonder how they’ll feel about that. You know, I have a friend who’s really infatuated with you. He talks about you all the time. Now I see what he means about you having a cute smile.” He blurts out before getting smacked in the head by Mark who stood behind him. “Ow!”

“You are so gonna get killed now. You blab too much.” He scolds and turns to her. “Sorry about that. Ignore him. I’m Mark.”

“Jennie. Nice to meet you. Well, Jackson whoever your friend is that’s infatuated with me, I’m flattered.”

“Friend? What friend? I said too much, ignore what I just said.” Jackson laughs nervously. ‘Oh, he is gonna kill me.’ He thought to himself.

---

Back to the boys in the BTS dressing room, Namjoon was on his phone, as usual, scrolling through Twitter until he found photos posted by Jennie, with the caption, ‘Friends!! Having a great time tonight! #Jen’

The photos consisted of her posing with Sistar, the AOA members she’s met, and Block B. ARMY was already tweeting how awesome it was that she was with them and how happy they were that she met them.

“Unbelievable…” He lets out a chuckle. “This little girl is friggin’ everywhere. She’s gonna end up knowing everyone if she keeps this up.”

“She’s trying to get away from us.” Jimin pouts as he checks out the photos on his phone.

“Well we’re all guys, I’m sure she wants to be around females.” Jin reassures.

“She was just with Block B, hyung.” Jungkook informs.

“Oh.” Jin pauses. “Never mind then. She’s trying to get away from us.”

As the night continued, the boys were on standby, getting ready to perform. Jungkook adjusts his USA hoodie, and turns his head, only to frown at who Jennie was talking to.

The sound engineer guy? Again? Now, what did he want?

Jimin and Tae were joking around, while Jungkook continues to stare, watching his every move. “Hyung.” Jungkook speaks, catching their attention.

“What’s up, Kookie?” Jimin asks.

“Isn’t it that guy?” The Maknae points out bitterly. Tae and Jimin look his way to find the guy getting a little too cozy with her.

“Unfortunately…” Jimin lets out an annoyed sigh. “Now what does he want?”

Jennie stood with Shin as they caught up on how they were doing in their lives.

“I’d like to take you out on a date.”
Shin’s sudden statement almost made her choke on her spit as she stares at him in disbelief.

“Date? Me? Uh, I dunno.” She nervously laughs it off.

“I’m serious. I really want to get to know you better. You’re really cute.”

“Ah, um, well, I think it’s best if we remain friends.”

“For now?” He smiles.

“Jennie. We gotta go.” Jungkook suddenly pops up and grabs her by the hand, staring right at Shin, unable to hide his irritation. Shin glances at their hands and back at Jungkook as his smile goes away.

“Okay. Well, I’ll see you.”

Regrouping with BTS, Jen and Jungkook stood by each other. All that was on his mind was Shin and he couldn’t stop the urge from asking Jennie, “Are you…interested in him?”

“I mean, he’s cute. But I only think of him as a friend.” She shrugs. “You think I should give him a chance?”

Jungkook looks down at his feet, pausing before answering. “If the guy you’re with makes you happy, then I’m happy.” He smiles softly. She stares at him.

Chuckling to herself, she shakes her head. “You don’t want me to date him, do you.” She declares.

“I-I just…” He looks down at his feet. “I…”

“Hey.” She places a hand on his shoulder as he meets her stare. “I trust your judgement. If you think there’s someone better out there for me, well I’ll go with your judgement and wait for the guy. I’ll turn Shin down gently.” She turns to see Ailee performing on the screen as he stares at her.

She watches Ailee perform with admiration and love in her eyes. “Oh mah God, this woman is a goddess. I would love to perform with her one day.”

Her statement made Jungkook smile. “You are such a fangirl.” He teases.

“Do you hear how beautiful she sings? How amazing she is? Do you know what an honor it would be, to be on the same stage as her? Singing with her? Think of IU. You’ll understand.” She reminds as he nods.

“Why don’t you introduce yourself?”

“Oh no, I’m nowhere near ready for that big step. I’m not worthy.”

“Oh stop.” He laughs and lightly pushes her.

“That’s like me meeting Beyoncé. I’m not prepared to be slayed. One day. For now, I want to try to cover one of her songs. But my vocals need extreme improvement to be able to be on her level. I bet it’ll take me a few years”

“Hey, don’t be discouraged. Whatever song you choose to sing of hers, just make the song your own. Don’t try to sound just like her.”

“Yeah, you’re right Kook.”

---

2015 started off pleasant as Jen stood backstage at KBS Music Bank, walking around to find GFriend’s dressing room. It was January 16th, the day of their debut. When she finally got to the room, she opened it, while saying, “Hey, hey!”

“Jennie! You’re here!” Hayoon rushes over to her.

“You bet I am!” She laughs and returns the hug.

“Jennie! Glad, you could make it!” Eunha happily greets as she goes to hug her with SinB. Jen was well acquainted with the two of them because they were former Big Hit trainees. She was elated to finally see them debuting.

“How’re the guys?” SinB asks.

“They always wonder how you two are doing. They’ll be thrilled to see you.”

The other members stared at Jennie, smiling politely. “Oh, I’m sorry. I’m Jennie from BTS. I wanted to support Hayoon, Eunha and SinB in GFriend’s debut. It’s nice to meet you. I came here with some goodies. You can eat them after the show.” She hands them small goodie bags.

“Aw, you didn’t have to do this.”

“I was bored so I decided to go shopping and make small goodie bags. No big deal.” She shrugs with a smile. GFriend was already dressed up and ready to go. They were nervous, but with Jen there for encouraging words, it made them happier.

As Jen was backstage, she watched GFriend’s interview as they were in the waiting room. Hayoon stood in the back, looking adorable as ever with her hair in a high ponytail. She had high hopes for GFriend and hope the members’ careers in the group would be nothing but successful.

When they finally performed Glass Bead, Jen was blown away at how in unison they were with the dance moves. “Oh, I sure as hell am not gonna be able to dance like that. Hayoon, what the hell?” She chuckles to herself.

“Yas, girl, get your lines!” She soon said as Hayoon began to sing.

After they head backstage, Jen met up with them, gleefully celebrating with them on their successful debut. “Now that is what I’m talking about! Amazing job. You ladies did well.”

“Thank you so much for being here. You have no idea how much this means to me, to have your support.” Hayoon hugs her tightly.

“Of course, Yoon. How do you feel?”

She pulls away. “The butterflies are gone. I’m so happy. I feel good.”

“I was nervous during my debut as a member of BTS. You’ll get used to performing. Now, about this dance though…okay, Hayoon, there is no way I can dance that dance.”

“Hahah, Yes you can. I’ll teach you soon.”

“Eh heh heh, no, I’m gonna look like an awkward person. Like how the heck did you do those kicks? And act all cute like that? Ya’ll did that. That was a great debut.”

---

Next Wednesday, at SOPA, Jen sat in her seat, waiting to see what her score was on the English test she took last week. As the teacher handed the papers out to the students in her row, she looks up, surprised at the frown on the teacher’s features.

“I’m surprised at your test score, Ms.Walker. You’re usually our A student in this class. Is everything all right?”

Confused, Jennie takes the paper but automatically groans in disappointment at the failing grade she received. “I’m fine, I guess I didn’t study enough. I’ll do well next time. It’s not the end of the world. It’s just one bad grade.”

As the teacher nods at her response and continues to give out the rest of the tests. Jen looks back at her score. A 33%? What went wrong? She studied.

For lunch, sitting with her group of friends, Jen sat across from Hayoon while the rest of the students, including Eunha and SinB, were engaged in their individual conversations, studying for a test during the next period and getting their homework out the way.

Hayoon stares at Jennie with concern as she plays on her phone. “You are not okay. You’re getting faint dark circles. Are you all right?”

Looking up, Jen shrugs, bluntly replying, “Nothing but a little bit of insomnia.”

Hayoon frowns at her response. “Why aren’t you sleeping? And aren’t you going to eat?”

“Eh, I’m not that hungry.” She replies nonchalantly.

“Jennie, you haven’t eaten all day. You should eat something. Don’t do this to your body like that. Especially as an idol with constant scheduling.”

“Yoon, I’m fine.”

“How many hours of sleep did you get?”

“I guess two hours? I don’t remember.”

Hayoon gapes at her in disbelief. “You’re overworking yourself for your next comeback?” She declares. It sounded more like a statement than a question.

“I don’t call it overworking. I call it pushing myself.”

“And where exactly did you get this pushing from?”

“I…people’s expectations.” She admits with a sigh.

“Jennie, you’re good at what you do, don’t overwork yourself because of some ‘fans’ expectations.”

“It’s not just that, the hate is getting a little worse, unfortunately.”

“Didn’t Rapmon tell you to ignore it?”

“Easier said than done.” She snaps, taking Hayoon by surprise.

“Insomnia? Irritation? Lack of appetite? You’re stressed and you’re exhausted but you don’t want to admit it. Your body can’t run 24/7, Jen.”

“I’m not stressed… I just have a lot on my mind…”

“The hate is on your mind.” She declares.

“I just…I’m really getting targeted these days, ever since that Instagram dispute.”

“I hope you know that none of what they say is true.” She hands Jennie the rest of her lunch. “I had a big breakfast, so I’m not that hungry. Please eat.”

“Hayoon, I’m not-“

“EAT.” She demands in a stern tone.

Letting out a sigh, Jen takes her chopsticks and pops a dumpling in her mouth. “Happy?” She asks with her mouth full.

“Manners.” She reminds her. “I’m glad to see you finally eating. Let’s talk about something more positive. How was the Wake Up Tour?”

Recently BTS has a small Japan tour. Although she had no idea how to speak in Japanese, there was a translator for her and she spoke in English apologizing for the language barrier. She promised the fans that she will try her best to learn more Japanese so she could be prepared the next time BTS goes to Japan. The Japanese fans were respectful and supportive of them, and she had a blast.

---

As soon as the opening beats came on for Wake Up, Jen swayed side to side to the beat, in her groove. Looking at the crowd, who waved their light sticks side to side, she smiles. Their Japanese tracks were fun to perform.

“Aye!” Rapmon shouts.

“Wake up!” She sings with Jungkook as they all wave their hands’ side to side with the audience. “Wake up. Wake up. Wake up.”

“Let’s go!” She heard Rapmon say as he began his rap. She danced along to the groovy beat, having the time of her life with the rest of the members as she stood in between V and Jimin

Bankan ga tsutsumu asa o
Subete owareba yoi to sura omoi
Mata michi hazushisou ni natta sono toki
Kikoeru oya no koe “okinasai, mou!”

Singing under his rap, Jen harmonizes, “AIGHT MOM saa, ima tatsuze MA FAM, MA FRIENDS sore ni MA FANS.”

As Rapmon continued his rap, Jen looks around. All those fans that came to see them perform. She’ll never get used to it. Their energy was infectious.

Karawanai asa JUSS KEEP ON & ON & ON &
Juss keep ON & ON & ON &
Juss keep ON & ON & ON &
Juss keep ON & ON & ON & ON & ON & ON & ON, let’s go!

“Wake up.” She sings, waving her hand side to side with the rest of the members.

Me o samashite, hora
“WAKE UP”
Minna ga matteru no sa
“WAKE UP.”
Jikan wa naikara.
“WAKE UP.”

Hitasura hashiru no sa
GOTTA LIVE MY LIFE
GOTTA TAKE MY PRIDE
GOTTA SHINE MY LIGHT

“WAKE UP! WAKE UP!” She sings with the rest of the members.

GOTTA LIVE MY LIFE
WOAH OH
GOTTA TAKE MY PRIDE
WOAH OH
GOTTA SHINE MY LIGHT
WOAH OH
“WAKE UP! WAKE UP!”

As Suga rapped, Jen continued to nod her head to the beat of the song. She was sweating just like the rest of them from the previous performances. Some of her hair stuck to her face, but the smile never left.

WAKE UP
Me o samashite, hora
WAKE UP
Minna ga matteru no sa
WAKE UP
Jikan wa naikara
WAKE UP
Hitasura hashiru no sa

With the smile never leaving her face, she waves her hand side to side again with the members, singing in a low, smooth voice, “Gotta live my life.”
“Life~” She hears Rapmon in the background
“Gotta take my pride.”
“Pride~”
“Gotta shine my light.”
“Light~”

WAKE UP
WAKE UP
“Gotta live my life.”
WOAH OH
“Gotta take my pride.”
WOAH OH
“Gotta shine my light.”

WOAH OH
WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP hi, nobotte
Odoroku ryou kyou no yotei
Shinshin tomoni mou kakousen
BUT, itsu no ma ni ka ishou matotte
GO MAKE UP, NO BREAK UP

Getting into J-Hope’s rap, Jen continued to dance around. It was nothing like having fun while performing.

Tsukare sae kakushite shimau kono MAKE UP
Puro rashiku butai ni agaru WE ARE THE PLAYER
Abiru minna no kansei mata miseru!
Maiku nara BALL kawari moyasu doriburu
Dare mo tomerarenai shuuto o sureba isshuu
Ase no shizuku ochiru oto made rizumu
Mizu to abura sa marude asagata no jibun
I’M ILL, I’M REAL
Jikan wa sugite ikukedo THRILL
Wakaru youde wakaranai hi ikiru
Demo tomaranai sa ikuze STILL AY..
Douse yasumenai naraba isso habataku
Koerarenai sa dare mo migaku suniikaa
Hikari de kagayaku WO

As the chorus came on again, Jen sings with Jungkook for the rest of the song as their voices clash for a harmonizing sound,

“WAKE UP.”
Me o samashite, hora
“WAKE UP”
Minna ga matteru no sa
“WAKE UP”
Jikan wa naikara
“WAKE UP”
Hitasura hashiru no sa

“Gotta live my life. Gotta take my pride. Gotta shine my light.”

WAKE UP
WAKE UP
“Gotta live my life.”
WOAH OH
“Gotta take my pride.”
WOAH OH
“Gotta shine my light.”
WOAH OH
WAKE UP
WAKE UP

As the song began to end, Jen and Jungkook spend the last of the song harmonizing again together, “Ooooooohhhhhhhhh.”
Juss keep on and on and on and
“Ooooohhhhhhhhhhhh~”
Juss keep on and on and on
“Oooohhhhh~”
Juss keep on and on and on
“Oooohhhhhh~”
Juss keep on and on and on and

---

Smiling at the memories, she puts another dumpling in her mouth. “The concert was everything.” She answers.

---

After school, Jen found herself in an unoccupied practice room, alone at the Big Hit building. She was panting, sweaty and exhausted at overworking herself once again with the I Need U choreography. Her whole body ached, begging for her to stop and rest.

Punching the dance floor with the side of her fist, she lets out a sigh of frustration. “Why am I not getting this right?” She sits up pretzel style, running her hands through her hair that was tied in a bun.

She was frustrated at herself because she couldn’t get the emotion of the dance, while the rest of the guys seemed just fine. Hobi helped her and she even stayed with Mr.Son for more help but she felt like she was a lost cause. Maybe she should sit out of this comeback while the boys take over.

She had a lot on her mind for the past few weeks. Maybe she wasn’t getting it because her mind wasn’t on the dance, it was on other things.

‘She’s so slutty for dancing like that. Like really? That’s not cute, she can’t even dance. Why is she in the group? So tacky. She’s nothing without Amity’

She shook the negative thought out of her head. That fan comment made her want to change her War of Hormone lyrics to say her and she instead of I and my. And why she didn’t’ want to dance with Jungkook anymore. She’ll never get over the disappointment on his face. She felt so bad. She couldn’t help but notice a hint of sadness in his voice when he murmured, “You don’t want to dance with me, anymore?”

Mr. Son was genuinely surprised that she didn’t want to go through with the dance with Jungkook as well. He enjoyed watching them dance together because their chemistry was something he hadn’t seen from anyone in a long time and they both had a blast together.

Ever since the Instagram fight, it looked like the Hailey and other bitter Amity fans were coming after her, calling both Angelina and her angry black women who are jealous that they aren’t apart of the group anymore and of Amity’s success without them. They even went on a full rant on how unprofessional they acted and what example they’re showing for younger girls.

To see fans say she’s nothing without her old group pushed her to work harder because she felt like she wasn’t at the level she should be. That she was more than just the cute baby of Amity. She had a lot of talent up her sleeves, and Big Hit was the company for her to showcase them in the future when she’s good and ready.

‘All those pretty female K-Pop stars and then there’s Jennie…’
‘I swear this girl tries too hard. She’s really forgettable in the group’
‘Every time I hear her sing, I lose brain cells. And she wants to rap? Please just no. Stop while you can.‘
‘Where does she get her confidence from if she’s the ugliest member in BTS?’
‘Oh wow, so Jennie can apparently, DJ now? So boring. Next thing you know, she can fly.’
‘Can she be kicked out of BTS?’
‘Why does her hair look so nappy? Does she have a comb? Like ew, unattractive’
‘She’s so annoying. Her laugh is annoying. Her smile isn’t cute at all. Why are we supporting this troll?’
‘She’s the least pretty of the group. Maybe she should get plastic surgery and fix her face’
‘I guess they’re just putting anybody in K-Pop groups these days…’
‘She’s a wannabe K-pop idol. Why is she even here?’
‘When are BTS going to disband? They’re a flop. Having that stupid girl in the group isn’t going to help them either. Did they make her a member for publicity since she’s black?’

“Why am I even here…?” She murmurs as she looks at herself in the mirrors in front of her.
It was overwhelming. She never dealt with any of this stuff before until recently and it was starting to become hard to handle. It was getting hard to ignore because everywhere she went, she would see it on social media.

There will always be haters. But why did these anti-fans have to be so harsh and waste their time writing hateful things? Didn’t they have anything better to do?

Jen knew she wasn’t the only member dealing with hate. It broke her heart to hear that people called Hobi and Namjoon ugly. And even wanted Hobi to be kicked out of the group.

“And I guess I’m the next victim.”

It was harder than she thought to be an idol. But something told her to keep going.
She snaps a photo of herself, in the mirror and tweets,
‘I feel like I should push myself harder…I’m lacking. Please bear with me. #JEN’

Not even five minutes later, she looks back at the Twitter account to see that the members had replied, along with the spam of ARMY giving her encouraging tweets and I love yous.

‘Fighting Jennie! #JIN’
‘I have smarties waiting for you back at the dorm. I’m always proud of you. #SUGA’
‘Have strength, Ennie! ChimChim loves you! You’re important and valued. #Jimin’
‘I love her more! I met her first! Go Jennie! I’ll always support you my Nike loving friend! #V’
‘Don’t be discouraged, just keep swimming. #JK’
‘Munchkin! Don’t give up! Keep going. #JHOPE’
‘Even during our darkest moments, we must find the light. Stay strong, JW. #RM’

Jen smiles at their sudden responses and exhales. “I’ll be okay.” She reassures herself.

---

Back at the dorm, Jen was greeted by the members who were watching TV in the living room. “Munchkin! You want your smarties?” Hobi beams.

“Ah, no thanks.” She smiles apologetically as the members sat there dumbfounded at her response.

“Something is up. She never dismisses smarties.” Yoongi murmurs as she heads into her room.

After taking a shower, Jen laid on her bed and hears a hard combination of knocks on her door. “Come in!”

There stood Jimin with a bright grin on his face as he shuts the door and takes a seat on her bed. “Now you know we’re gonna have a conversation after you rejected smarties. You’re stressed.”

“No, I’m not.” She lets out a sigh.

He suddenly places a hand on her cheek, examining her face. “Developing dark circles.” He observes. “Are you sleeping?”

“Kind of. I nap.” She shrugs.

“You’re not sleeping.” He declares. “What’s going on, Ennie?”

“Okay, I’m a little stressed.” She admits.

“When’s the last time you ate a full meal?”

“I don’t recall-“

“That’s not good.”

“I’m okay. I’m not hungry. I can’t force myself to eat.”

“Come on, Ennie. Please, you gotta eat. I don’t like seeing you like this. It makes me sad. I want you to be happy.” He pouts.

Suddenly, she feels her eyes start to sting as she attempts to wipe the developing tears. “I just…” She trails off.

“Please tell me. Vent to me. I don’t want you to be sad.”

“Everything is starting to get overwhelming. I have too much stuff on my mind. I want to make sure I’m at my best for this comeback, but all this fan hate coming at me left and right recently is starting to distract me. I don’t understand why I’m getting all this heat from these antis. People said they want me beaten, hanged, even worse. Why? What have I done? Cause I know damn well if I was lighter, they wouldn’t say half the things. And maybe if I didn’t leave Amity on bad terms, maybe some of the fans wouldn’t be so resentful towards me. I understand racism is gonna be everywhere, unfortunately. But my God, hanged? Next thing you know I’m gonna get even more death threats. What have I done? What have I done wrong to deserve that?”

“We are definitely gonna talk to Bang PD about this. Threats are not okay. None of this is okay.” He responds in a serious tone as he holds her hand, giving it a tight squeeze.

“I just wish I was mentally stronger. I don’t like to surround myself with negativity like that. That’s why I took a break from social media. I haven’t updated since my video of getting followed by EXO.” She goes on. “It’s like every time I go online, it’s oh how much I hate you, people creating photos of me getting hanged, like that is truly disgusting. It is 2015, why are we still at this level of hatred? I just have so much to prove, I’m working as hard as I can but it’s always underappreciated. It makes me think that I’m lacking.”

“Do you feel like you’re lacking? Or do you feel like you’re lacking because of some haters saying you’re lacking?” He suddenly asks, which got her to ponder.

"Was this all worth it?”

“Jennie, don’t say things like that. Everything you went through, got you here. To be a member of BTS. You wanted to do this. Don’t give up now just because of a handful of bad seeds trying to discourage you. You didn’t join BTS as a publicity stunt. You’re just as important as the rest of us. Just like when Hobi went through with the hate, you will get through this just like he did. Me, the members, Big Hit and ARMY will be there to protect you from anything. Trust in ARMY and believe in their love for you.”

She nods and takes his words in. Jimin was always such a sweetheart. His selflessness was always appreciated.

“Thank you, Chim.”

“Always. Now, enjoy these smarties with me.” He lets her go and takes them out of his pocket, handing her a roll.

“It’s been a while.” She grins and pops three in her mouth.

“There’s that smile. Now come on, you have to eat something.” He grabs her hand and takes her out of her room.

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Next Monday, waking up earlier than the others, Jen heads to practice early for a head start on cleaning up the I Need U chorography. Her insomnia seemed to get worse because she hardly slept last night as she kept thinking about what she needed to work on for the next comeback.
She just wanted to be on the go 24/7, but failed the realize how much of a toll it was taking on her body.

Today she would learn her lesson.

An hour later, the rest of the members came in as they began their long practice for their upcoming comeback. Throughout the whole morning, she began to have a headache. It was irritating but she chose to endure it and dance through it.

“Jennie, you’re getting a little sloppy with your movement. You all right?” Mr. Son calls her out.

“Sorry. I’m good.” She reassures, trying to shake off the sudden dizziness.

As they all get back in position, they begin the dance once again, starting from the chorus.

I need you girl
Wae honja saranghago honjaseoman ibyeolhae
I need you girl
Wae dachil geol almyeonseo jakku niga piryohae
Neon areumdawo
I need you girl Neomu chagawo

Holding her head, the dizziness and pain began to be too much for Jen’s body to handle as it shuts down. She ends up falling head first on the dance floor. Her head connects to the ground hard, as she began to feel herself going unconscious.

Meanwhile, the boys heard a loud thump over the music and turn around to see Jen knocked out on the floor as they scramble up to her in panic.

“Jennie!”

“Is she okay!?”

“Let her breathe!”

“What happened!?”

“Give her space!”

“Call 911!”

“Shit! Jennie! Hey! Stay with me!” She faintly hears Namjoon shout as she blacks out.

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