JONGIN'S P.O.V.

It's been a couple of hours, I had been walking and swaying with little Jae asleep in my arms. Every time I try to lay him back down on his bed, he would whimper and cling more tightly. Sleepily he would crack his eyes open to look at me as if to reassure himself that I am still there. Just when I thought my arms would fall off from his weight, I managed to finally put him back in his own bed. I kept the night light by the foot of his bed turned on and left a small crack in the door open so that I could hear him should he wake up again.

Being a father is exhausting and yet it also feels rewarding. I'm still new to this whole parenting thing. It's only been three days and yet I feel so many mixed emotions. I look at my son, see how much he looks like me and feel a sense of pride.

(Jongin yawns and rubs his eyes. He sleepwalks back to bed and gets under the covers. He smiles just before he gathers a sleeping Jin into his arms. Jin curves herself naturally into his embrace.)

Now that feels like heaven. I have my "wife" in my bed and my son next door. Life is fucking perfect.

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I feel like I just closed my eyes, and I hear a loud cry from next room. "DADDY!"

I sat up a little dazed wondering where I am and what's going on. I hear the same cry again. Jin was stirring awake.

"I got him, go back to sleep." I whispered to Jin as I kissed her. Tiredly, I rolled out of bed and went to my son's room. Jae was sitting up in bed crying and sniffling.

"Hey, had a nightmare buddy?" I asked as I picked him up. He clung tighter and stuck his little nose on my neck. He started drifting off to sleep immediately. I rubbed his back and started dancing around the room slowly. I did a small turn and ended facing the doorway where Jin was sleepily smiling at us.

"He's been clingy lately. You must be exhausted. Bring him to bed with us." She whispered to me. She held out a hand to me, lacing her fingers with mine as soon as we touched. Jin led the way back to bed. She climbed in first, helped lay down Jae in the middle, and I climbed in last. I reached over to drape one of my arms around my family before falling back to sleep.

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"You don't have to do it right now, but sooner or later you still will have to do it." I tucked a lock of hair behind Jin's ear surreptitiously kissing her. I've been trying to persuade Jin to come with me to introduce Jae to my mother and sister. She's been running around the small apartment pretending not to hear me until I finally just tugged her down to sit on my lap.

" Jongin I'm scared your mother will hate me. I left without a word three years ago and I comeback with a son and engaged to you." Jin was nibbling worriedly on her bottom lip.

"She will forgive you. I'm sure she will understand. Besides, credit my mother with some intelligence. I'm sure she knows that the one week we were together last time, that we were not just playing kawi-bai-bo." I grinned at her just before she started pinching my sides. I kissed her instead.

FLASHBACK JIN'S POV

I hate to admit it, but I do miss Jongin so much. I love waking up in the morning in his arms, I love it when I leave work exhausted and just walk into his arms, I love listening to him sing, I love watching him dance.

" Jin, just give up and admit you miss my brother." Jungah unnie was laughing at me as she watch me pout while looking at my phone. It had been a couple of weeks since I spoke with Jongin. He called to congratulate me for finishing my internship. The background noise was overwhelming and I could hardly hear him but I felt his sincerity in congratulating me.

"Look, I know you need to go to Seoul for some of your graduation stuff, and I know Jongin will have a performance at Music Bank. Why don't you go and see him?" Unnie was blatantly trying to push me and Jongin together. Imo wasn't any better, she kept calling me daughter-in-law. She kept showing me baby pictures of Jongin, teaching me how to cook his favorite foods, off handle mentioning his little quirks and habits.

I bit my lower lip. I'm tempted. I want to see him. I finally admitted to myself what I feel for him.
I love Kim Jongin.

And that's why a couple of days later, I was standing in a crowd watching him perform with his group. He was mesmerizing. He was born to shine on that stage. I felt a little inferior next to his obvious stardom and fame.

"It's Jongin. It's Jongin." I kept muttering to myself as I went back to my hotel. I didn't tell Unnie or Imo but I also went to see the doctor since I have been sick and throwing up for several days now.

I picked up my cellphone distractedly when it rang. I got excited when I thought it was Jongin. It was the doctor. He congratulated me. I was about a couple of months pregnant. I put down the phone and laughed hysterically until I ended up crying on the bed. I got pregnant on our first time.

WHAT DO I DO NOW?

I washed my face and went out. I have to see Jongin and talk to him. I went to the venue Jungah unnie told me EXO will be. I stood at the very front so that I would not miss him and he could see me. Moments later, the crowd erupted in screams and shouts as EXO left the building smiling and waiving on their way to their vehicles. Everyone was taking pictures and waiving excitedly at them. EXO's Xiumin passed by me first, followed by Suho, Lay, Baekhyun, Chen, DO, Sehun and lastly Jongin. Today he is EXO's Kai.

He was smiling as he looked right at me without any change in expression. No sign of recognition. I felt my heart breaking. Swiftly I turned around and left.

It took me a week, but with one phone call to Mijung in America, I was able to leave Seoul and never looked back.

FLASHBACK, JONGIN'S P.O.V.

I am exhausted and slightly antsy. I haven't spoken to Jin in a couple of weeks. I miss her. Jungah Noona told me that Jin will be coming to Seoul soon for her graduation. I want to see her, embrace her, whisper I love her.

I smiled as I once again waived and did fan service. The flash on several cameras left blind spots in my vision. I'm used to it and just professionally kept on smiling and posing. Nobody could tell that I am half blinded and could barely see my own hands.

I saw a girl leaving the crowd when my vision started clearing a bit. That's unusual I thought but continued smiling and waiving.

A week later, I was frantic. Noona called to tell me that Jin never returned after coming to Seoul to see me. She gave up her rental place by phone. I never saw her. She never contacted me. I called her phone non-stop for weeks, then everyday for months. I hired a private investigator to find her after a year.

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JONGIN's P.O.V.

I woke up this morning with a small foot sticking on my neck. Jae was asleep and laying crosswise on the bed. Jin was not in bed but I can hear someone in the kitchen. I smiled and kissed my son's foot before carefully moving him and tucking him back under the covers. I left the bed slowly careful not to wake him up.

I padded slowly to the kitchen, and enveloped Jin in my arms. I bent my head to stick my nose in her neck and inhaled deeply. "Good Morning!" I mumbled sleepily. How I love waking up home.

Jin blushed but didn't leave my embrace. Instead, she surprised me by planting a quick peck on my cheek. Surprised, I lifted my head to look down on her eyes. Jin is not the type to initiate skinship or affection. She smiled back at me before turning around to wrap her arms around my waist. She tilted her back, clearly asking for a kiss. I'm not turning that down. I kissed her and felt her responding.

"DADDY! MAMA!!!!" Jae started crying from the bedroom. I broke off our kiss reluctantly and leaned my forehead on Jin's before sighing. I felt her shoulders shaking with laughter.
"It's okay, I'll go. Why don't you sit down and eat breakfast?" Jin replied, leading me to sit down where she had breakfast ready. She went to the bedroom and later came out holding our sleepy son. Jae crawled onto my lap and started poking at my breakfast.

I smiled as I helped him eat off my plate. This days I seem to smile a lot. I looked over to Jin and saw her taking a picture of me and Jae. I motioned for her to come over. When she was near enough, I tugged her down to sit closely to me and used my phone instead to take our first family picture. I took lots of pictures.

My phone rang as Jin was looking at our pictures. Startled she threw back the phone at me.

"Yeoboseo?" I greeted as I was laughing.

"Jongin, where the hell are you?" It's Noona and she seems mad.

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