DADDY

I woke up feeling tired and achy. The sunlight was streaming through an opening in the blinds directly into my eyes. That was unusual I sleepily thought. I have curtains on my windows not blinds. Languidly I stretched out like a cat before I turned over to burrow deeper under the covers. My eyes shot open, suddenly all my senses kicked in. I realized two things simultaneously. First, I am totally naked under the covers, and second, there was an unconscious male radiating warmth beside me, his arms draped around my waist limply. I went still, holding in my breath, afraid to wake him up. OTTOKE?

I recall attending a party. Whose party I don't quite remember at this time. I was feeling lonely even though I was in the middle of revelry and dancing. I was moving but not feeling it. I remember he smiled at me, I remember the sudden attraction, the hot kisses, the sudden flaring of passion. How the hell did I end up waking up in bed with him? I'm a good girl. A boring girl. My life revolved around studies, home and movies.

He groaned and rolled over. With his arm suddenly removed, I took the opportunity to slowly edge out of the bed. As quietly as possible I left the bed, looking around wildly for my clothes. I found my panties on the floor, my bra on the side table, my dress near the door. I picked them up one by one and started putting them on.

I was pulling the dress down over my head when I felt his presence. His smiling face was the first thing I saw when my dress went past my eyes. "Good Morning." He said before tugging my dress down and capturing my lips for a kiss. Oh hell NO! Not again.

Jongin. Kim Jongin. That's what he told me his name was. He danced with me last night. Both on the dance floor and between the sheets. He danced like sin. If my parents were still here, they'd be telling me to stay away from guys like him. At this thought, my face clouded. It's been a year, but I still miss them. The car accident took them from me too early in life.

"Hey, why the frown?" Jongin asked as he bent his head to look me in the eyes.

"I...I...I need to go home now" I muttered as I bent my head. I can't quite look him in the eyes. I started remembering the things we did last night, i'm pretty sure my cheeks are turning red. I certainly feel rather warm.

"Alright. Let me put on some clothes and I'll take you home." He chuckled as he stepped slightly back.

I gasped as I suddenly realized that here I am essentially covered while Jongin was standing in front of me kissing me and naked. I quickly turned around and averted my eyes. He laughed outright and hugged me from behind. He dropped a kiss on top of my head before moving towards the bathroom, or I presume that's the bathroom. I waited to hear the bathroom door close before I bolted out of the room, I stumbled on my purse and heels on my way out. I grabbed it before I ran out the door.

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I stood under the shower for the last half hour. What started out as a warm, comforting blanket on my aching body is rapidly cooling as the tank emptied itself of the hot contents, leaving only the chilled water that remained. My teeth are chattering from the cold or from the shock I don't know. I stared unseeing at the shower wall in front of me, my mind trapped in a kaleidoscope of images. What the hell did I just do? I just slept with a guy for the first time in my life and I barely even know his name. I should be feeling ashamed of myself right about now. But all I feel when I think of him is excitement. Why?

I heard soft knocking on my bathroom door. "Hey, you've been there awhile. You okay?" Its my roommate Mijung.

"I'm okay" I quickly replied. I turned off the shower quickly and reached for a towel. "Okay, I'm heading out! Call me if you need me!" Mijung replied through the door.

I just noticed the bruises. Handprints really. They are on both sides of my hips. I wiped the bathroom mirror to look at my body closely. I have hickeys peppering my neck and shoulder, my lips are bruised and swollen, my thighs achy and my lady parts sore. Nobody ever told me sex would have this much physical effect on me. A romantic at heart, i only ever saw the tender kisses and loving touches when I watched movies and TV dramas. Nobody told me that sex was heart pounding exciting, dirty and also slightly painful.

What have I done?

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Where the hell did she go?

"Jin?" Jongin asked the now empty room. Surely she didn't just leave?

"Jin? Are you here?" He asked as he stepped out of the bedroom.

The living room was empty. He didn't need to turn his head to check the kitchen to know that he is now standing alone in his empty apartment. His first lover, the girl of his dream just disappeared on him. Why? What did he do wrong?

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