Saved (Suga x reader)

As we walked in the dark empty street, the cold wind rushed through my hair.

Before Mina left, she bought a lot of clothes to me, I am going to send something back to her as a thanks. I was wearing black pants with a grey hoodie, but she let me borrow her jacket, that made her save money. Right now, I was just wearing my hoodie, and asked J-hope to give the jacket back to her. Suga took off his own jacket and put it around me.

"Thank you Suga" I said putting my arms in the sleeves.

He soon stopped walking and I turned around to face him.
"What's wrong Suga?"

I walked towards me and his hand grabbed my arm.

"I can't let you go back, not knowing what may happened to you"

"I won't be in any danger"
"I know that, but if you are getting married to a stranger just for a company. Isn't that a little too much?"

"Well, if my father say so, it is for the best I guess."

"But this is your father, shouldn't he think about the best for you?"

"Haha, this is his plan... of course he thinks this is for the best."

"But do you?"
"Huh?"

I looked at Suga, his eyes were staring right in mine.

"What do you mean?"
"I mean, what do you want?"
I had never thought about my own feelings or my opinion. I always thought they didn't matter.

"I want to make my father happy"

"By making yourself unhappy?"

"..."

"What is your true feelings (Y/N)?
"Suga...."

I felt tears in my eyes.

Could I really say my selfish wish to him?
Could I really say my wish, my feelings?
Can I turn weak for him? Do I have to be strong now?
What if I ruin everything by my feelings?

I could never burden him with my feelings, but right now, I want to tell him everything.

"I want to.... stay with you Suga, I don't want to go back!"

Suga hugged me and I could hear him whisper in my ear.
"Then don't go back, stay with me"

Could I just be in dreamland and go with him.

Could I be with Suga?

When I was about to answer Suga.

NARI!

My eyes flew open and I pushed Suga away.

He looked shocked at me.
"I can't be with you."
"What? I thought you just said you wanted to..."
"I can't let Nari take more responsibility for my action than this."

He looked at me disappointed.
"I understand."

I looked at Suga. His expression made me want to do everything for him, even give up my life.

I never wanted him to make that face ever again, but I couldn't be there with him.

"Please don't push me away (Y/N)"
"I love you, I really do love you. Even if we have been 10 days together, seeing you laugh made my day. Knowing that you waited for us to come back from a busy day, made me wanted to work harder. Just looking at your crying face make me want to protect you from anything."

"This wouldn't work. You are an idol and I am just the daughter of some famous people. How could we have time?"

Suga went silent of my harsh tone.

"This is just not going to work..."

"(Y/N)..... But..."

"Sorry! I walk alone from here! Goodbye Suga!!"
I said before running from him.

I could feel tears in my eyes as I feel regret from running away from Suga.
I wanted to be with him so much, but the weigh of responsibility is just too much.

And, I would soon be married too.
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Notes

I guess most of you is hating me for ending the chapter like this?
Well.. this is the most exiting way to end it right?
Don't worry, I hate myself for writing it like this.

But this has been the most difficult chapter to write, and I blushed too much in the confession part...