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One Thing After Another

Reunion

The problem was never about what I was doing wrong, or what other people had done wrong to me.
It was always about what was wrong with me.
So uptight and worried over who I was and what other people thought of me, I never stood back and realised that my needs were just as important as other people’s.
Chan understood that better than anyone else. He was the one person who knew letting me go my separate way was going to benefit me, even though it didn’t benefit him or his heart.

It was harder than I thought to look for my birth family, and the longer it took to find strands of their whereabouts, the more I was consumed with living my own life. Being an amazing organiser, I became a sort of freelancing event manager. I had my own business card and everything. My two younger brothers constantly asking for jobs.

As for Seventeen, well they became worldwide stars. They’ve done multiple world tours and I always see news of them on any social media platform I check. I couldn’t be prouder (even though I’m not their manager anymore).

Jaehwa sunbae kept in touch with me, and we even meet up occasionally as friends now. She throws jobs at me, and I decline them for my little business.
“You know they’re looking for a new manager for NCT right?” She took a bit of a side dish and put it into her bowl. Just as I put a mouthful of food into my mouth, I pause and glare over at her as she continues to eat. I sigh at her hundredth attempt to get me back into the idol industry. I stuff the spoonful of rice into my mouth.
“I’m not keen on managing boys,” I spoke as clearly as possible through a full mouth, "especially after we had thirteen boys to organise.” As I spoke, I tried to find her eyes.
“Well I heard the manager for Red Velvet is taking paternity leave, they’re girls,” her eyes scanning the numerous plates on our table. My sigh grew louder as my patience grew thinner. I set down my bowl and chopsticks with a clink. Though in the bustling restaurant, it didn’t compare.
“With all my respect and love for you eonni, I’m good how I am,” I said in my best assertive voice. Finally Jaehwa looked up from the food on the table. It was her turn to sigh.
“Have you got a boyfriend yet?” She plainly asked me, setting down her chopsticks with her eyes fully set of me. As we held eyes, my assertive look seemed to fade away.
“No,” I certainly said, my gaze flickering down to the food.
“Thinking of getting one?” I grabbed some meat from a dish and placed on my spoon of rice.
“No.”
“This is because of Chan still, isn’t it?” My spoon full of food, stopped right in front of my mouth when I heard that name. I place the food back on my place and sigh as I start to play with my food.
“Eonni, it’s taken me too long to move on, I don’t need a reminder of him,” my appetite has gone, my stomach occupied with twists as a result of hearing his name. Only his name, “plus I saw the news… about his girlfriend.” A defeated smile played on my lips.
“That’s a rumour and you know it,” now leaning forward towards me, she made sure to look into my eyes as she spoke, “he’s still not over you yet. If that encourages you.” I glared at her once again.
It doesn’t encourage me or my success I’ve gained while I haven’t seen him.
It did encourage me, because I did want to see him.

I wanted to go back to Chan. There’s no denying the heart’s true desire, but he was all over the world doing amazing things. I didn’t want to hold him back. He didn’t hold me back from leaving, why should I do the same to him?

“Jaehwa Noona!” A voice called out from within the restaurant.
“Oh yeah, I never even asked, who are you managing nowadays?” I gulped down my drink and spoke.
“Seventeen.” She said with a little smirk. My heart dropped as I stared at her. Face frozen, I realised who’s voice that was. I twisted in my seat to see the huge group of good looking boys wander in. Hoshi heading in our direction to greet Jaehwa, but stopped in his tracks as his jaw fell loose.
“Ha-HAEUNNIE?!” He almost yelled, turning heads from around the restaurant. He sprinted over to the table, so I stood up.
“Hi,” I said with a shy smile, my hand waving awkwardly. He swung his arms around me and squeezed me, causing the air to leave me for a second.
“It’s been so long!” He said as he let go, a wide grin upon his face.
“It’s only been a year Hoshi,” I tell him.
“Haeun manager?” Jun appeared from behind Hoshi, blinking at me.
Before I knew it every member of Seventeen had arrived and crowded around our small two-person table. I didn’t think of Dino but I didn’t notice him either.
“What are you all even doing here?” I asked with a smile. It was different seeing all their smiling faces together again.
“Dinner! Our CEO, I mean your uncle is letting us eat out in celebration of our win!” Dogyeom danced as he spoke, producing some laughs and displeasing reactions from the others.

Still chattering away, the boys made their way to the large table set up in the middle of the restaurant, and Jaehwa and I went back to our food. I sighed as I sat down again. I was sort of glad I didn’t see him, but I wondered where he was.
“I found your phone, Noona!” I didn’t need to turn around to know who’s voice that was. My heart picking up pace immediately and my movements slowing down in anxiety of his reaction to seeing me after so long. I fumbled stupidly with the food in my bowl, head angled downward in hopes of avoiding contact. I didn’t need the temptation.
“Thank you Dino. Can you sit here for a bit while I go to the toilet?” Jaehwa shoved the question at Dino, pulling him into her seat as she stood up.
“Why would I nee-,” I looked up to him which caused him to stop speaking. A small smile slowly grew on my face as I could see the energy surge through his eyes.
“To keep my seat warm! I hate cold seats,” she escaped quickly, dashing towards the back of the restaurant, leaving us alone with the sound of plates and voices as a background noise.
This was different from the last time we saw each other, at the bus stop. Setting down my chopsticks I lent over my elbows to look at him properly.
Without having asked, I could see how well Dino was doing.
“It’s been a while, hasn’t it?” He spoke first, as I was busy admiring his state.
“Almost a year now,” I smiled out my words. I felt so comfortable. Nothing felt like it changed.
“You’re beautiful,” the words came out instinctively from him, causing my smile to drop for a second before growing even bigger. Letting out a laugh he let out a chuckle too.
“Was I not before?” I teased him as I looked offended.
“No, I just mean… you seem different from last time. More you,” as he spoke his eyes never left mine, sending my heart to the ceiling and back. I loved it.
“So do you. You suit the pink,” I gesture to his pastel pink hair with a head nod. Laughing in response, his teeth were revealed. “I never got to thank you.” I scooted my seat in so I could sit up straighter to see him more properly.
“For what?” He looked at me inquisitively. I blinked slowly at him.
“For helping me find me, better than anyone else, even myself.” I rested my chin on my hand.
“We could still patch what we had together,” the desire in his eyes strong, just like the day he kissed me before I left. A smile grew on my face before I shook my head slowly. I’m sure the desire was evident on my face too.
“Tempting,” I almost laughed out in fear of sounding depressing, "but Seventeen is huge now and I’ve got my own business that’s finally standing up on it’s own. We both have our own lives to lead now.” My heart moved back to its spot as I spoke, regaining a somewhat normal speed. I guess because I really did like how things were turning out for me lately that I became calmer.
“YA CHAN! Get your butt over here!” Jeonghan’s voice grabbing both our attention as we turned out heads to see the full table of boys beginning to get their dishes served.
“In case we don’t see each other again, you have my heart” I flicked my head to Chan. The warmest smile filled his face as he stood up form Jaehwa’s seat and leaned over the table. His hand caressing my cheek softly, you always will.” Chan and I locked eyes, knowing this was the last time we’d see each other.

Dino and I were always a thing and never a thing. We were what we wanted to be. Our desires and burning passions for our interests and talents drove us to love it more than we could for others. And I only ever saw the boys rarely. Soonyoung talking to me about his problems and letting of his steam with me. Seungkwan offering me managing jobs that didn’t exist, just so he could get Chan and I closer. It was a couple years later, when I was lying on my bed tired from a day’s organising that I remembered how I had been looking for my real parents. And in remembering forgetting them, I remembered how that didn’t matter to me anymore. Korea was my home, and I was my own person, with or without them. I didn’t need to define myself by them.
I was me. Dino was Chan.

I would see his on TV and watch their performances. Never going to fan meetings, but supporting them non the less. And that was enough for me. To see him on television and online doing what he did best. He is an amazing dancer, choreographer and person. To hold him back from that, would be stupid. For him to hold me back from something that I felt successful about as an individual would be selfish on his part.


The sizzle and pop sent a hot spark landing on my arm. I winced a little but returned to flipping the bacon over it its pan.
Ding-dong~
My head reacting to the sound of my doorbell. I pulled the pan off its element, and waddled over to the door.
“Parcel for Kim Haeun?” The delivery man asked.
“That’s me."
“Sign here please,” he handed me a paper and pen to which I quickly signed and gave in exchange for the small box with my address on it. I hadn’t ordered anything online. Curious about the contents of the box, I stared at it as I walked past the kitchen and into the lounge. Plonking myself on the couch, I eagerly ripped the tape off top of the box. Pulling all four flaps up I grabbed the note sitting on top. It read:
You never let us reply Haeun!” - Seventeen
The small box was filled with letters, and as I counted them, there were thirteen. From each boy of Seventeen. I smiled down at the carefully crafty envelopes, picking them up and searching through them for a name. Finding his, I carefully opened it, unfolded it and read it:

My muse,
You now inspire my work, how crazy is that?
Two years later and you still play in my memories. I’d love to hear from you and how your business is going.
In case you forgot, I still love you.
In case you have a boyfriend, I never said that.
Channie.

I read it thrice, a smile playing on my face as I laughed each time at the last line.
In case you forgot, I still love you.
Somehow it didn’t surprise me that Chan still held something of us close by. Probably because I did too.
Slowly I made my way through each letter, laughing at all their jokes. As I finished the thirteenth letter I placed them back in the box, folding the flaps back over and finding a spot by my bed for it to sit. Sitting back on my bed, I looked at the box, reminiscing what I can remember from my short time managing the boys.
In case you have a boyfriend, I never said that.
My phone buzzed in my pocket; a text from Sohwa. Replying to her, I paused.
In case you have a boyfriend, I never said that.
I bite my lip as I scrolled down my contacts finding ‘Chan’. I tapped the screen’s keyboard smiling.

Eunnie: In case you wanted an answer, I don’t have a boyfriend.

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Channie: In case you didn’t, I meant every word I said.

Notes

AHAHA its the last chapter!
this has taken waaaaay longer than I thought to finish this story and I'm terrible at ending just as I'm terrible at goodbyes #tooreal
hope someone out there enjoyed it
i always have too many stories going on in my head so what i'll do it create a chapter for each and see which one y'all like
SO BE VOCAL ABOUT WHAT U LIKE OR DONT LIKE WE APPRECIATE ALL FEEDBACK

Comments

@Idontknowmollayo
You're welcome^^

minsiina minsiina
7/30/17

@minsiina
awww that message just made me feel ten times better thank you ^3^

Take as much time as you need;). I am writing stories myself and I know how it is to have no time but soooo many ideas or the other way around, so all I can say is take your time amd your fanfiction will turn out great at some point^^

minsiina minsiina
7/24/17

@Cilajaeyoung
고맙다 ^-^

Idontknowmollayo Idontknowmollayo
12/11/16

♡Cute 이야기

Cilajaeyoung Cilajaeyoung
12/9/16