We were just about to debut with my group. Personally it was just about time! Waiting annoys the hell out of me ...

I just know ... because I've been waiting forever for being loved ... my group is my family, my friends and supporters. Our love is sure real ,but the love I was forever craving for is just not that kind of love ...

Don't ask me. I don't understand. I just feel the way I do. And I feel like I'm going crazy. It's not that I don't look good ... I'm pretty fit thanks to all the training and makeup artists ... Halelujah! ... BUT I JUST DON'T SEEM TO GET CLOSE TO GUYS!!! ... I'm probably cursed ...

Pfft, too bad 'cause now I'm an Ice Queen. My heart is so cold that sometimes even I get chills ... *brrrr* ... Exactly.

Or at least I'm trying to be that ...

But then ...

... this happened ...



"JI NA!!"

!! Holy crap. I almost had a heart attack!

"WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING RIGHT NEXT TO ME HA YOON??" I shouted at her sudden screaming ... What is wrong with her ... again? We've been members since when? ... 3 years now! And she still scares the sh*t out of me sometimes!

"*laughs* Sorry I thought you couldn't hear me because of your headphones ... I just had a talk with our PDnim and he said there's this boy group in the company we'll be involved with."

... Aish, not boys again ...

"Hey, don't make that face again!" She pouted "I know you're not lucky with boys ,but there's seven of them! One might be interested in y..."

"// Yeah, yeah I know ..." They all use the same lines to try to cheer me up ...

"I didn't finish. Don't you care why? Or who they are? Or why we just know about it now?"

"No, I don't care." I got up ... "Let's just meet at practice, okay?" And with that I left ... I need to take a quick nap or at least eat before practice ...


LATER


I was walking down the corridor.

Why boys? Why me? ... Hayoon won't let me live until I hear her out ... again *sights*

*opens door*

!!!

WHY IS THERE SO MANY GUYS IN OUR PRACTICE ROOM?

... I looked at my group and Hayoon who was waving at me ... THAT LITTLE...!

I sat down next to them coolly ... I can't freak out while they're here.

"What is this?" I asked annoyed ,but still calmly

"You said you don't care so I wasn't gonna bother you." ... yoouuu ... "Oh by the way they're gonna show us their choreography." ... That's it, you'll get it later!

"They're older than us so don't be too rude." Minha was trying to calm me down ...

"Right ..."

"Cheer up Jin Na-yah!" ... even Sohyun ...

Oh, PDnim came in the room.

We all bowed and greeted him.

"Alright, so now as most of you know this group will help you out from now on and vise versa. They've been here longer so they're experienced. You were probably thinking why ..."

And from this point I just blanked out ... I really don't care. Point is that from now on we'll see each other ... I can't wait ... *note sarcasm*

Okay! What? ... He finished his pep talk. I gotta make sure to at least look like I don't sleep.
"Nice to meet you. We're Bangtan!" They got up from the floor excited ... good for you ...

They introduced themselves.

Hoseok, Yoongi, Taehyung, Namjoon, Jin, Jungkook and ... Jimin?

"So we're gonna dance to our song Danger. Please don't judge so hard." That Hoseok guy smiled at us ... You wish ... Imma judge the holy lemon out of you!

*dancing* Okay they're actually good ... ! ... What's with the smirk Taehyung? Imma quize Hoseok's lost holy lemons into your eyes! ... Hoseok keeps looking at me ... someone throw a watermelon at him or I will! ... That Jungkook isn't even really looking at us. Good. You better be scared! ... Okay. Jimin. Stop smiling and hip thrusting or I'll shoot you ... WITH POPSICLES! ... Fine. The others don't bother me at least ... *done*

The others started cheering for them. I just blended in silently.

We left shortly ...


LATER


I'm hungry. I need food. Now.

I started walking up the stairs with the ramen I bought for today ... 'cause the others ate it all again!

! *running and screaming from upstairs* !

What is this guy running from ... *he trips on the stares and I hold onto him suddenly*

What am I doing??? I just saved this guy! ... When i looked at his face that was a few inches away from mine I realised ... Holy!!!! TAEHYUNG?!?!

"Oh, you're cute." He smiled at me!!!!??

Cute my ass! I'm hungry for ramen and you're a moron for tripping on the stares!!

With that look he took his hands off my arms and walked away.

... Oh no. I can't ... that smile shook me. I'm starting to have feelings ... great! Just great!

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