You know I love you, right?

-2 years ago-
"Oppa, what do we have to talk about?" I asked him, while touching his hand that was laid on the table.

He asked me to meet me at the cafe nearest to his Entertainment. It looked like he had something urgent to tell me.

"I... I will be leaving Korea again. My Entertainment wants my group to do a world tour." He said, bitterly smiling at me.

"That's great right? It is very helpful to promote your group since you guys just debut 6 months ago." I smiled warmly at him.

"Yes." He replied, looking down. He doesn't sound happy at all.

"How long will it take?" I asked.

There was a moment of silence. He finally looked up and said, "5 months."

"5 months?! So i won't see you after 5 months?!" I gasped.

This would be the longest time I won't be able to see him. We had been dating for a year now. The longest I had never seen him was a week.

"Yea." He sighed heavily.

He continued, "Actually I am here to make things clear between us."

The expression on his face doesn't look good. It was bad but kind of unreadable. I slowly retrieved my hand from his hand.

"Yea?" I asked.

"Hayoung, you know I love you right?" He said, looking at me in the eyes.

"I love you too." I smiled a little.

The situation was getting tense as seconds went by. He looked depressed.

"Those memories we have created for the past months, would be treasured in my heart forever. Because I wouldn't let myself to forget them. All of them were very sweet." He forced a smile, looking at me deeply in the eyes.

"Op..Oppa, what.. Are.. you talking about?" I couldn't help myself to become nervous all of the sudden.

"Hayoung, you remember we went to The Wishing Well?" He asked softly, ignoring what i asked.

I nodded. That time when we went to the Wishing Well, we both wrote something on a piece of paper. We then put the papers into a bottle and threw it in the Wishing Well.
"What I wrote is : I hope the ones I love can always be happy." He said, giving me a weak smile.

"I already found my happiness, it's you." I grinned.

"Yea me too." He replied, nodding a little.

He added, "It is just funny that sometimes we are so far apart but in the end we are so close together."

My smile slowly faded.

"What do you mean?" I said, biting my lips.

"My mother once told me that loving someone is not all about giving your love to the one you love. It is about caring about their happiness, whether they are always happy. Or not. Sometimes i think back and found out that I am being too selfish on loving you."
He cupped his hands on his face and sighed deeply. I had never seen him looked so sad. That gave me a really strange feeling. I shook it away immediately.

"I don't get it, what are you trying to say?" I asked, getting a little impaitient.

"If we are apart one day, will you be happy?" He asked.

"Of course not. What are you trying to say?" I burted out. The tension was getting stronger and stronger as seconds past.

"I don't feel that I can make you happy anymore. Each time I left you, I felt that my heart was running to you, but I couldn't help it. I think we will be apart more often now on. I won't be seeing you very often. It hurts badly, for both parties. We both hate the feeling of being apart, but reality makes me awake. Reality makes me understand no matter how hard we tried to do something, whether if it's good or bad, it won't always turn out what we want." He finished.

I stopped smiling. I stared blankly at him, he did the same too.

I knew what he meant. I knew it.

He seem to know that I get it.

"I am sorry, Hayoung." He looked down.

I lifted his chin up, making him look at me straight in the eyes.

"Oppa, do you want to break up?" I asked him coldly.

"Hayoung, I-" He began but I cut him off.

"Just tell me. Yes or no." I demanded.

He stared at me for a while and replied, "Yes."

I sighed. My vision began to blur. A tear trickled down my cheek.

"Hayoung, I believe we both still love each other. But as far as I know, long distance relationship doesn't help at all. It makes us slowly distant from each other and in the end this will happen --us breaking up. It will hurt even more if we decided to leave each other then as we can't afford to do it after being so attach to each other. I am very sorry." He looked down.
There was a moment of silent.

"Oppa, I respect your decision..." I paused for a while, catching my breathe,"...Let's break up"
"I am very sorry, Hayoung." He said, touching my fingers.

I took my hand away from the table and said, "Thank you for everything, oppa. I am afraid I need to leave now." I stood up from my seat and was about to leave the cafe when he grabbed my wrist tightly.

"Let go." I said, trying to shake his hand off me.

Before I knew it, he pulled me into an embrace. I buried my head in his chest and began crying real hard.

"I am sorry. Really." He apologised again.

"You know how I feel? It feels like someone just wakes up and decides never talks to me again. No reason. No explanation. No words said. They just leave you hanging like you never meant a shit to them, and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy. It feels the same now. I feel that I am nothing to you anymore." I cried, pulling myself away from him.

"Hayoung-" He began but I cut him off, "I don't think we have anymore to talk about."

I wiped away my tears before running out of the cafe. I ran without looking back. I heard him calling for me, but it doesn't matter anymore, things couldn't change anymore. My tears kept running down my cheeks despite me trying hard not to let it fall. I never ever felt so broken before, like my body had given up on me. I felt lifeless.

I stopped running. I was too exhausted. I leaned myself against a tree. A train of thoughts ran through my head again. I tried to shake them away, but to no avail.

I tried to think of something happy, something that can cheer me up from all these. But all my good memories revolved around him. The memories made me even depressed.
They made me know that we were no longer together.

Me and him. Me and Jaebum.

-end-

Notes

Hey guys! So I wrote this chapter for days. I tried to make this chapter really perfect. Do comment//rate//subscribe//VOTE! Please vote :3 If there's no comment and vote, I may stop writing here. I am going to write on wattpad instead.