Chapter 5 :

I didn't answer Kiko's calls and texts during her last day in Seoul. She didn't had the time to come and talk to me, she would have if she could. Good for me, I didn't know how I would reacted.
I thought hard this last days and I just want to concentrate on my new drama, my first lead role but now in I am in front of my TV watching MAMA 2015 so I just can't keep my promise.
I can't take my eyes of Daesung and I can't prevent myself from turning them away when they fell on Seungri.
- Omo ! yelled my best friend Hwang Kwang Hee, Jiyong and Young Bae are so stylish !
I laughed and rolled my eyes, he can't get over there collaboration on Infinity Challenge.
- Suk Hee look ! he said in english and showed me his Hwang 88's shirt
- I know, I replied not interested pressing my back in my sofa
- Aish, Suk Hee you should get over Daesung, you will hate Big Bang if you don't, he said in a high pitch
If only he knew what happened he wouldn't kneel in front of all GD's parts. He looks so cute and innocent on variety shows but how can someone do something like that. He litteraly sent me into Seungri's bed and I don' t even know why. Kiko told me he knew that Sengri likes me physically and it remind me that day.
FLASHBACK :
Daesung and I were hidding in a closet kissing and stroking each other.
- Suk Hee, whispered Daesung, we are in my agency, what if we get caught ?
- Don't worry D, just have fun while we can
- Hmmm, you are a demon you know that, he looked at me in the dark
- Dé, I replied cutely
He laughed quietly and kissed me intensely. I melted in the kiss because of his full lips while he was playing with my ponytail. I took off his shirt and stroke his sweaty body. My Daesung works hard when he is practising dancing. He took off my tank top's fine straps and kissed my neck.
- Daesung ! Aish ! Where is he ? We heard someone yelled
Scared, we stopped and caught our breath while pressing our forehead together.
- It's Jiyong Hyung, murmured Daesung, I .. I have to go
- Okay, I sighed disappointed, I will go out after you
- Dé mianhae Suk Hee, he whispered before opening quietly the door to see if GD was still there
He nodded toward me, put on his shirt and made me a signal that he will call me.
- Omo, I sighed putting my hand on my forehead, always the same...
A few minutes later I got out of the closet and was face to face with Seungri.
- Kkamjjakiya ! I yelled putting my hands on my cheast
Seungri's eyes were on my shoulders where my straps were still hanging. He walked toward me until I was pressed on the closet's door.
- Be carefull, he whispered, YG appa could have find you like this instead of me
I gulped and put my straps back while looking at the ground.
- Dé hmmm, I cought, mianhae
I bowed and ran toward the exit. Seungri was looking at me until I left the room.
END OF THE FLASHBACK
His eyes were lustful that day I should have known...
- Pffff, I sighed for the tenth time since the beginning of the MAMA
- Suk Hee look at Seungri and Sehun omo ! Daebak ! yelled Kwang Hee jumping in my living room
I raised my head toward the screen and couldn't help but laugh
♪ I'm a man who is holding a pretty flower ♪
He was sitting on Sehun's lap and singing this part with an arm around his neck.
I laughed out loud at the scene and forgot what's happened between us.
- Ya ! You see that you like Big Bang, nagged Kwang Hee, you should try with the maknae
I looked at him with wide eyes. How can he say that ?
- Wae ? he asked with big eyes
- No... Nothing, I said softly

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A week later, I was in a break after filming a dramatic scene, my eyes were still red after the crying scene.
♪ Uri Saranghaji Marayo ♪
- Shit ! I should change my ringtone, I thought taking the call
- Yeoboseyo Suk Hee White-ssi ?
- Dé Yeoboseyo Nugu....
- YG CEO Yang Hyun Suk, he interrupted me
I straightened my back in my chair and gasped. Omo What the hell ?
- A... Annyeong hasimnikka, I greeted him
- I will be straight Miss White, he began
I was stressed out when he said this sentence. Does he know ? Does he know about Seungri and I ?
- We need an actress for Winner's MV comeback, are you okay to read the script ?
I was relieved and I could finally breath.
- Hmmm, why not, I replied wipping the sweat in my forehead. I am a little busy maybe we could...
- Tell me the name of your agent, he said directly, I will see your schedules with him
- I do not have an agent neither an agency, I... I manage myself
I was in the same agence as Kwang Hee before and after some problems I decided that I was the only one who could know what is better for me. I do not want someone behind my back anymore.
- Really ? he said surprised. In this case are you free tomorrow morning ? We could talk about it in my office...
Me in YG building ? What if I meet Seungri ? I gulped and breathed
- Okay I am free on the morning, I said, I will come
I will not let this kind of opportunity pass even if I have to run into him.
- Good, I will text you the address and the time
- Alright thank you sa jang nim
- Thank you Suk Hee-ssi, good bye, he told me in english and hung up
- Do you have a problem ? asked me my coworker Lee Joon
I raised my head, I didn't know he was there.
- Andwae, I replied putting my phone in my bag, I just have a MV proposition
- Chincha ? he said raising his eyebrows happily
- Dé.... For Winner's comeback
- Ah I see, he laughed putting his finger on his lips
- Wae ?
- I guess your friend Choi Seung Hyun recommended you, Suk Hee-ah ! You are lucky, he told me stroking my hair and leaving
What's happening with him ? YG asked me by himself, I do not need TOP's recommendation, right ?

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The next morning, I was in front of YG headquarter. I was there ten minutes before my appointment. I couldn't stop thinking about Seungri, what if he is there too ?
I entered the bulding and even if I already came twice I was still impressed by the design. When you enter in this place you feel like you are in an arcade : the colours, the lights, the walls and the pictures. Everything can make you loose your time if you have an appointment like me. I was looking everywhere and was startled everytime I heard something. I can't meet him...
Then I stopped looking at YG's artist poster and walked toward YG's office.
The decor keep changing from white to black until I was in front of a sliding door.
I breathed and knocked, a well known voice told me to enter.
- Annyonghaseyo, I said while bowing
- Suk Hee-ssi, YG said and asked me to come on the wide sofa with his gesture
I sat quietly and prevented myself from looking at all the figurines. I do not want to look like a tourist in a professional appointment.
He was looking at me with his piercing eyes and began to explain to me what I have to do.
- We need you for Winner's MV, it's called Baby Baby. Song Mino asked me to hire you.
I raised my eyes and he laughed.
- He is a fan of yours
I blushed, me too I am a fan of him, I thought.
- This is the script, he told me while giving a few papers staple together. If you are okay with it you can go to the assembly room and talk with the members and the crew.
- I... I am okay, I said without reading it
I am good at negociating, if I do not like something I can still talk to the writers.
He smiled and handed me a contract. I didn't even want to know how much I will be paid for that, as a fan I want to do it even if I have to spend the whole day in the North Pole. I signed it twice and took a copy with me.
He stood up and I followed him to the assembly room. I could hear some noise coming from the assembly room, the members shoud be excited. I could hear them laughed and talked loudly.
YG opened the door and everyone went silent.
- Annyonghaseyo, the all said while bowing
- So this is Suk Hee White-ssi, he introduced me and let me enter the room
They greeted me and looked at me.
- She agreed to do the Baby Baby Music Video as Song Mino's partner, YG told them
- Omo ! Mino said before putting his hand on his mouth
The others guys laughed at his spontaneity.
- Take care of her, YG said to the members and the crew
- Dé....
He left and I took place beside Mino.
I read the script with him. I have to be topless and climb on a bed where he will be laid.
- The camera will be focus on your back, told me the writer
- Okay, I smiled. I am okay with it. I can't wait to see the MV
- Noona, are you a fan ? asked me Taehyun
- Dé I am, I love your style
- Oh !!!! They all said making the crew laugh
- Who is your favorite ? asked me Jinwoo
The all frozed and waited for my answer.
- Song Mino, I replied softly
- Ahhhh !!!! They yelled while Mino was smiling and shaking his head at his friends's reaction
- So you will both love the script, said Seung Yoon
We blushed and were interrupted by someone who opened the door.
- Annyonghaseyo Hyung, they all said while standing up
- Suk ... Suk Hee ? said Choi Seung Hyun. What are you doing here ? he asked me taking off his sunglasses
- She will be in our music video... as Mino's partner, said Seung Hoon in a teasing tone
Mino hit his arm and they laughed again.
- Chincha ? If I knew it I would have asked you to come in our music video, said TOP
I raised my head quickly when he said that and my eyes widened. He unsterstood right away that I will never do it. He thought it was because of Daesung. He is not the only reason now.
- Do you want to have a drink with me in the lounge area ? asked me Seung Hyun
I hesitated and the person in charge stood up
- Dé we need a break, you can all take a break, he said

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- So you are in Winner MV, said Top with a jealous gaze
- Yeah I am, I smiled
He pouted and crossed his arms
- Don't worry, I said, I will kiss nobody
- I wanted to be the first to kiss you in YG but in our drama we weren't fated to be together, then you had Daesung so I can still be the second in YG. I guess I still have a chance in a drama, he joked
If he knew that the second in YG is Seungri, he would be shocked.
- So what are you all doing after the MAMA ? I asked him
It was my way to ask where Seungri and Daesung are.
- Just partying, going on exhibition and resting, he said. The youngters are in Hawaii, I don't know where they find the energy
- Dae... Daesung and Seungri are together in Hawaii !
I shoud be relieved, I can't meet them here if they are together but I am not. What if Seungri told him ?
- Dé, he replied, they are stick together at the moment
I panicked and began to bite my nails.
- Suk Hee ! yelled TOP taking my hand, stop that !
- Dé appa, I whispered gently
- I like it ! he laughed and I shaked my head

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After passing the morning in YG and the afternoon acting, I was on my bed exhausted. I decided to go on Instagram and posted a picture of my tired bare face. I looked at the comments, some of them already knew about the Winner MV. They were curious, happy or jealous. I remembered when they thought that I would kiss TOP in our drama a lot of bad comments were on my SNS so I am use to it.
I refreshed the application and saw three pictures of Seungri and Daesung on a boat. They look good, I can't help but smile at their silliness. I prevented myself from pressing the heart. I don't want him to know that I looked at his pictures.
- Omo, I sighed
I decided to disconnect but a notification caught my attention.
@seungriseyo liked your picture
I sat on my bed surprised. A fan already screenshot his like and they went crazy.
- Do you want to play ? I said to myself and laughed
I liked the three pictures that Seungri posted and the fans were craziest.
A few minutes later he commented my picture : ㅋㅋㅋ
The fans went wild after his comment, they knew we were playing with them.

I turned off my phone and went to sleep with a smile on my face.

Notes

Suk Hee is recovering from all this stuff so the chapter was a little more slow.
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