I was at home watching Happy Together when Yoo Jae Suk asked Big Bang who they would not date if they were women ...GD said T.O.P,
T.O.P wants to date them all
Taeyang said he would date Daesung but T.O.P contradicted him.
- I think I'd get hurt if I date Daesung
Uncounsciously I leant towards my flat screen to hear his reasons. T.O.P knows what's happened between Daesung and I. Actually I worked in a drama with Seung Hyun in 2013. It was my first role as a second lead and contrary to what you may think the others actors were kind to me, even if I am half english, especially Choi Seung Hyun.
One day after a busy day filming he asked me if I wanted to have fun, to go to a club with others actors and with his band. I said yes, I like clubbing... I needed to relax after work.
This is where I met Daesung, he caught my eye straightaway. He was laughing and dancing with Seungri when I first saw him. His outgoing personnality attracted me like a magnet. T.O.P introduced me to all the members and Daesung was the first to ask me a lot of questions.
How old I am ? Why do I have azel eyes ? Why do I want to be an actress ?
I spent the entire night talking with him. We were alone in a corner of the VIP room. We laughed and joked like we knew each other for years. This day I thought I met a friend but now I know that deep down inside of me I fell for him right away.
I get out of my thoughts and watched the boys joking about that.
TOP was saying that Daesung is dangerous when Daesung said that he is not.
Then Taeyang said something which caught my attention.
- He makes you fall fast and deep. The women who fell for Daesung never recovered.
So, I guess I am not the only one. I remember when I noticed that I loved him. It was a month after our meeting. We used to text each other a lot and usually when a guy keep texting me I'm getting annoyed. I always hated clingy guys especially when its on phone. But it was different with Daesung, I was the one who waited for his texts. I was the one who asked him if he had a good day, you know the text use like a pretext to talk.
I litteraly lost my pride in front of this man.
- Chincha, I whispered to myself while petting my cinnamon ferret. Ottokae D ? I said to my ferret which was a Daesung birthday gift.
Why I am still in love with him after more than a year ? We just dated for five months and I can't forget him. I still have to text him for his birthday, for christmas or like I did for there comeback. It is as I am doing everything to not being forgotten, to not be the only one to think about him.
I slumped on the couch and sighed.
- Even years later they want to stay friends with him, added Taeyang.
Of course, I thought, It's normal. If all Daesung's ex girlfriends have the same memories as me, they want to stay in touch with him to not forget this memories.
I laid on the couch with D on my stomach and thought without paying attention to the show. All this memories...
I remember on 3rd March 2013 when we first kiss and decided to date. He was so happy after releasing his first solo album and was excited for his solo concert in Japan at the end of the month. I was in a good mood too, the drama had good rating and the viewers seemed to like my acting. We were here, on my couch watching my drama when a scene where my character wanted to kiss T.O.P appeared.
- Andwae ! shouted Daesung
- Ya ! I said, you look like Lee Kwang Soo
- And you will kiss T.O.P, he replied
- Wait, I told him
After a few seconds we could see T.O.P rejected me. It was predictable, the second lead never end up with the first lead.
- Oh ! poor Suk Hee, he told me while petting my head
I moved his hand and laughed
- Everyone has is own karma, always rejected, I said lowering my head.
I was acting to see his reaction.
- Ya, jungmal. Who could reject a pretty girl like you ? You are brave, funny and sorry if it's rude but... your big azel eyes and your S line body are so hot !
After saying this, he protected himself with his hands. He knew me, he thought I would have slap him or pull his hair. If it was another guy maybe I would have done that but it's Daesung , D-Lite. It sounds like compliments from him. I wanted to continue in my acting to see if I could have another revelation.
- Jinjja ! I said in an high tone to look cute.
He raised his eyes and nodded. I wanted to take advantage of the situation to finally confess to him.
So I came closer to him and look at him in the eyes.
- Do you really think my eyes are hot ?
He nodded. I could see his eyes moving to not make eye contact. It was the first time that I saw him embarrassed.
- And... My S line body, I added touching myself from my armpits to my hips.
He held his breath and gulped. His eyes were glued on my hips but he didn't answer to me.
I climbed on his thighs and he tensed, looking everywhere except at me.
- So... I said taking his hands to put them on my hips. Is my body hot ?
He looked his hands on my hips and moved them up. I was in a tank top so I shivered. His eyes were wide-opened when he saw my shivers.
- Suk Hee, he whispered, Don't... Don't do that to me...
- Why ? I continued pressing myself against his wide chest.
- Be... Because, he stuttered.
I looked at him and put my hand on his face to encourage him to tell me. He was breathing hard and was looking at my lips intensely. He came closer, his lips were close to mine. It was my turn to breath hard. We stared at each other eyes during seconds.
- Fuck, I yelled in english before kissing him like a crazy.
He moaned in my mouth and caught my lower lips between his sexy full lips. He stroked my back while I was playing with his white hair. I felt alive and had more shivers when his tongue met mine. His wet lips were D-liteful so I pushed him on the sofa and grinded myself on him. His eyes rolled and he held me as he didn't want me to stop. We did that for quite a long time.
- Suk... he whispered with a low voice. Stop, I'm gonna ...
I did as he told and moved back. I was catching my breath like him who looked so sexy. His chest was moving, his hair was messy, his eyes were closed and his lips were swollen. I put a hand on my breast to contol my breathing and I wiped my forehead.
After a few minutes our breathing were slower, he opened his eyes to look at me. I had the feeling that seeing me made his breathing fast again because he gulped before talking to me.
- Suk Hee White, he called me by my full name
- Kang Dae Sung, I replied putting my forehead on his
- Is it what you want ? Or do you want m... more ? He asked me timidly
-I want you, I replied instinctively
He raised his eyebrows so I clarified my answer.
- I... I want everything, I murmured. I want this, I said talking about what we've done and I want try to be... with... you, I finally said.
He smiled like a child during Christmas and told me that him too, he wanted to try, he wanted to date me.
That was the second time that I forget my pride for Daesung by asking him to date me, I told myself looking at him in my flat screen.
Ottoake ? This memories can't leave me. I remember everything like when we told his members that we were dating after a month, they even gave us a nickname : DaeSuk. When he offered D to me on my birthday, when we went to the cinema wearing a mask, when I attended to his show on Music Day in Japan. He sang « I Love You » with so much emotion that I cried like a baby.
I was tearing up when I thought about another memory, something special : our first and only time.
Because of our busy schedules we never had the time to go this far. We were always interrumpted by phone calls. His agency, his manager, my agency, my manager...
So when we were in Japan after his show on Music Day we quickly ran to my hotel room, not his room because his manager knew where to find him.
I was in the same hotel as him, in the same floor but nobody knew.
I was telling him that his performance was so perfect when he kissed me holding my head. It was soft but sensual. Just with this kiss I wanted him like I never did before so I kicked out my white doc martens.
He did the same and he opened my jean shirt dress to find my white lingerie set.
- Ya Suk Hee, he said moving his head, did you really came to my show like that ? What if a pyunte was in the crowd ?
I rolled my eyes and said : - Come on Dae Sung, they were just girls around me and if they were pervert, they would have catch you not me, I joked
He smiled and posed to tell me « look at me, it's normal ». I laughed and took off his black jacket. We removed our socks so I could tell that I was the only one in underwear.
I laid down on the bed and stretched out my hands above my head. He was still in front of the bed with his black jeans and his skin-tight white shirt. Slowly he pulled out his shirt. I was excited by his well-built chest and his perfect skin. I was breathing fast so I reached him, opened his fly and pulled his jeans. He quickly join me on the bed, he was in a grey underwear like his new hair colour.
Instinctively he settled back between my tights and we did the things that we already done. We kissed lengthily, touched everywhere, murmured sweet words, sighed with lust and smiled with happiness. We could hear his phone ringing but we ignored it and continued.
Then he entered me with eagerness, his pupils were blown wide with pure lust and his grunts were so sexy. He thrusted and drove me nuts to the point of being loud. I held on his shoulders and met his thrusts. He grabbed my hip with his left hand, my breast with his right hand and kept thrusting.
- O...Oppa, Sa... Saragne, I whispered immersed by pleasure
He slowly stroked my forehead and smiled. His smile always arouse me so my walls tightened. He accelerated his thrusts, our breathing were fast and our moans louder.
- Suk... Suk Hee, it's so... hum... Cum with me
He didn't have to ask me, I could already feel that I was close. He began to suck my left nipple after I sucked on his neck. Our backs were arching when we came hard. It was a first to me, I never came with my past boyfriends, they were selfish and fast. Even if our first time was fast I never felt an orgasm like that, maybe because I loved him as much as I wanted him.
Daesung was catching his breath when I climbed on him.
- Ready for round two ? I asked him with a mischievous smile
He nooded and grabbed my thighs but a knock on the door interrupted us.
- Kang Dae Sung ? I know you are here, I saw Miss White's name on the register. So pali, the journalits are waiting for you in the assembly room !
- Ah really, I whinged putting my face on his chest
- Don't worry jagiya, I will come back in the middle of the night to you
I laughed and kissed him a few time. Then he dressed himself quickly and went toward the door.
- Come back to me, I yelled
He raised his tumbs, half-opened the door and told me.
- Me too Suk Hee, Me too I am in love with you
I smiled and waved to him.
- Ya Pali ! yelled his manager
I chuckled and he closed the door. I fell asleep right away hoping that Daesung would have wake me up in the middle of the night.
He never came of course. He had a party after his interview. We didn't talk face to face for two weeks and during this two weeks we slowly loose contact. One day I recieved a text, he told me that we should stop now, that he didn't want to hurt me by being abroad often. I accepted, I told him that I wanted to stay friend with him but I am the only one who tried to get in touch with him. I feel like he is avoiding me... Once I saw him in a ceremony, our eyes met but he looked away. I said hello to T.O.P but Daesung looked at the ground.
I still don't know if he really loved me at the time or if he just wanted to wait and screw me. These questions are still haunting my mind. I hope he had love me but it would be easier to hate him and think that he is just a heartbreaker.
- Ya ! Why did you do that ? I yelled at his image on the screen
I stoop up and turned off the TV.
- It's a new day for me, I will forget him ! I tried to persuade myself before going to bed.

Notes

I already post this story on another website so I will post the sequel (Seducing The Wrong Person) here too :)
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