Bad for you.

The next morning I woke up with quite a heartache, I honestly did not know what I should be thinking or how I am suppose to react when I see him. Part of me wanted to confront him but then at the same time the other part of me just wanted to deny it. I love him but I'm hurt. I pick up my phone to see his usual morning text messages. "I'm coming over in a hour. Love you." I ignored the text message and got up to get ready, I don't want to see him, I need to get out of here. I jump into the shower and quickly finish up and got dressed. 40 minutes have passed, I need to hurry up. I run downstairs to tell my parents that I am going out, as soon as I finish telling them I head out to the car and started to back out. I took a quick second and thought about staying but my heart is really in pain. So I decided to leave after all.

After a long drive I decided to call bomi, after a quick conversation she turns out to be with bambam at a bubble tea shop. I start to head there then my phone goes off. Sungjong. I forwarded the call and kept driving. As soon as I pulled up I could see bomi with bambam and all his friends including mark. Maybe I could repay him back for last nights ride.

I enter the shop and the sweet smell of bubble tea and coffee filled all the place up with freshness. I walk up to bomi's table and she gets up to greet me with a warm smile. Sit! She points to a chair between yugyeom and mark. I walk around the table and sat down. I smiled at everyone and greeted them. After I settle down everyone was in back into the conversation zone. I tried to pay attention but I kept getting distracted. I looked down and stared at the table. I couldn't think straight. I could faintly hear laughter and voices. I need to stop. I remembered the shop had a piano. I get up and walked over to the piano, forgetting that there was a people there. I sat down on the stool and removed the piano cover off. The only song that popped up in my head was wish I never by Joelle. I started to play slowly then I got lost in the sound of the piano and sang my heart out.

"I made a mistake.
And if I could I'd just forget about you
And if I could I'd just delete you from my history
Keep you as mystery, delete the possibility of there being a you and me
Cause I don't care anymore
No I don't care anymore "

After a few minutes pass I come to a faint stop where I could feel a small teardrop run down my cheek, the room filled with applause. I looked up to see bomi clapping and smiling away. I turned my face towards the door to see sungjong standing at the door with dongwoo. Dongwoo had a girl with him.. have I seen her before? wait, the girl from the party. That's her?! My eyes widen, for some reason I'm filled with fear and anger. Sungjong started to walk over to the piano but I jumped up. Trying to walk away my foot gets caught on the stool's leg causing me to trip.I hear bomi and sungjong yell my name out. I stand up as fast I could and walked on the other side of the piano while sungjong was where I tripped. I stared at him but he looked confused. Bomi and the others were standing up. I slowly walked backwards towards the door. I looked at bomi then looked at my wallet and keys, she nodded back. I feel arms around me, I forgot dongwoo was there. I elbowed him and ran through the front door. I passed the window and looked back, looking back I made eye contact with mark. on the corner of my eye I see the boys blocking the door so sungjong and dongwoo couldn't run after me.

I ran and ran with tears in my eyes. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I need to hide now. Bomi knows where I'll be so I'll be okay. I turn off my cellphone and shove it back into my pocket.. wait how did he find me? I didn't even tell him where I was? Did I? I don't think so. Hmm.

I finally stop at a park and sat on the bench, my eyes feel itchy from all the crying. I decided to close them for just a minute..

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