I'm trapped in the "circle of life" just like almost everyone on planet Earth. Do you know how you wake up every morning to force yourself out of bed, go to school or work a.k.a. the kind of prisons where we don't even get McMurderer's Cheeseburger for free ... you know, 'cause in prison they do get that (￣^￣;) ... I'm talking about being a "zombie" and not having ANY chance to change that.

I'm sick of this collage, sick of the people surrounding me, sick of my unsupportive family and two faced "friends" ... Urrggghhh ... help (╥_╥)

Sorry, I might have cut too much into the middle ... I swear I can be the sweetest person you'll ever meet, I might also have the cringiest jokes ever and am lazy, but right now I'm so brainwashed with all the expectations not only society, but even my parents put on me ... Aissh ...
I'm Yeon. I was born in Chungju. I have two siblings. After I turned 8 we've moved to Daegu where I attended school. I had friends, I had good grades, dreams, family ... then my parents decided to move to the UK for financial and educational reasons ... and it all went downhill from there.

As of now ...
Divorced parents *tick*, no friends *tick*, bullies *tick*, no life *tick* and the list goes on ... but hey at least I've gone vegan a.k.a. no meat, no dairy, no eggs ... but double amount of bullying for that ... (￣^￣;) ... thanks.

I know life is not easy and it can get really hard, but my situation is the worst I could possible be in. After divorce we almost never saw dad. My mom doesn't care about us and spends money on everything, but food. She has remarried to this man ,but still has no job ... and not even holidays anymore as she doesn't like when "society wants to tell her when to celebrate" ... Can you imagine a birthday with a single balloon and a cupcake?
Okay that might have been a little over exaggeration ... we do get a frozen cake and two more balloons.

I can never go out, not that I could do with anyone. And on top of that I rarely see my little brother anymore since mom doesn't earn enough to take care of all three of us, so he had to stay with my dad who actually has a proper job at a big company. They're living in another town not so far from us, they visit us occasionally.

But to be honest my sister is the only thing that keeps me from running away from home. I don't know how much longer I can take this ... I -I don't think ... for long ...
Sounds like there's no reason? ... Wait for that ...

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*ringringringring* //SLAASSH!!! ... *sight* " Are you kidding me?" I forced myself out of my bed ... "Right, collage"

I still had a few months till I can get my degree. I wanted to quit, but for my sister's asking I'll finish it properly ... I'm surprised how many things she talks me on to do so.
I got changed, went to the bathroom and brushed my teeth. After I spit I looked up in the mirror and wiped the foam off my mouth ...

"Why are you so ugly?" I questioned my reflection "Aiissh, who am I even talking to?"

I had many expectations about my body and personality. I think even more than society's and my parents' combined. I know it's not okay to hate on myself, but I feel so uncomfortable in my body and it feels like I never get anywhere trying to change that.

I grabbed my bag and was going to head out the door

"Where are you going? Aren't you going to say goodbye? And did you even have a shower?" mom poured her questions on me.

"Collage, bye and no ..."I turned around smiling sarcastically "... I did not have a shower"

"How unrespectful" my mom's partner ;Greg murmured eating his breakfast.

"Pfftt ..." I turned around to go.

"You need to learn to sort yourself out or otherwise you're never going to get anywhere in life" she said.

"Huh?!" I turned back at her hurtful words.

//"Unnie!" my sister suddenly hugged me from behind.

"Hehe ..." I smiled.

She always knows how to calm my nerves.

"Don't forget to smile ... and stay strong" she whispered.

" 'Kay sis ... Wait!" I snapped out of it " What's the time again?" I turned around asking.

"8:10" she said.

"WHAT?! Aiiissh ... " I ran like a cheetah to get the bus in time ... (not running man)

Like I can't wait to get to collage ... Aisshh ... *dead*

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I spent lunch and break times alone as usual. Even if not physically, but sure mentally. Watching Kpop videos and checking my Instagram every 2 seconds. It gives me SOME motivation. No luncs as well, as usual.
//*belly grumble* "Ssshhh ... I'll just eat when I get home. Hold on just a little bit." I murmured.
I didn't really have friends since moving. It's not that I don't want to, but more like I don't want friends like these. I don't know why people don't get me, but I definitely know that I don't get them because they can only talk about drinking, partying and all that kind of stuff.
I don't feel left out, but I'd be happy to talk to someone about something normal for once ... Oh, how I miss my friends. What happened that I ended up here? Did I do something wrong? ... How about karma??（；￣ー￣）

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Now the bus ride for another hour to get home ...

I always listen to songs on the way. Weird or not, but I dance to them in my head. Fantasize over nice stories to keep my energy and hope levels up. Sometimes I'm in it so much that I accidentally do a dance move on the spot ... and also sometimes accidentally hit someone as well *awkward laugh* ... hehe, okay ,but to be serious I've been dancing a lot lately. It helps me ease the stress ... thinking about it ... I feel like this is the only thing I can do well. Since moving my grades have never been worse ... and same goes for my relationship with my family. So ... the only time I can feel like myself again is when I dance, even if I'm stronger as a vocalist.

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"I'm home" I stepped inside and took my sneakers off.

"What are you guys gonna eat today?" my mom asked.

What?! She didn't make food for us again? Great. Now, this as well.

"I don't know. Rice soup." I said going up the stairs.

Rice soup is a meal that my sister created. It's really easy to make so we make it often ... and she makes it taste delicious!

I can't cook nor I have time for that because of work and collage. We've been eating smaller amounts lately due to lack of food. I always let my sis have more to have energy doing her best in school. So I usually go to sleep hungry.

A day in my life ... how pitiful.

Notes

Hiiiiiiii !!!! This is my first chapter!!!! EVEEERR!!!!!!!
Feel free to leave comments and opinions. Although I'm only writing for fun I'd like to improve on my skills as well ... but please be gentle with my feelings (T-T)

If by any chance my little fantasy story is similar to any other, that is a total coincidence. Despite that I am sorry for any misunderstandings it caused or might be causing because of that ...
Thank you for reading , I hope you enjoyed :)
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Be ready to get emotional in the next ... erm ... episode?! I dunno, but you know what I mean. I'm getting teary every time I read it ... o(╥﹏╥)o *takes tissue* ... but really tho. Prepare your souls.