If Dreams Could Tell

Baekhee's POV

I've been to too many funerals in my life. But I have never been to so many in one year.

I had never been so heartbroken ever since I was born. Jin, V, J-hope, Jungkook, Suga, and Jimin.

After taking it all out on random people, Rap Mon and I had became slightly satisfied. We were probably known as the rude and disrespectful teenagers in public now.

The two of us came home, expecting to see Jimin in his room. Instead, we found his body lifelessly underwater in the bathtub. He had drowned himself.

Bangtan was falling apart. With Rap Mon's help, we set up a funeral for all 5 of them excluding Jin.

The he five were up in the sky, and us two are still here devestated as we'll ever be.

Something dropped on my nose. For the first time, it wasn't my tears, it was the rain.

Everything was grey and dull, making the atmosphere gloomy.

Some people high school came. We even saw V's mother.

"My Oppa's!" Seohyun sobbed loudly. I could tell she was genuinely crying. She didn't blame me this time. Minah and Jiwon was by here side patting her back.

"Why?" Seohyun blew her nose. She was too busy doing that to notice me.


Rap Mon and I sat on top of a hill, watching people cry and do whatever.

"Are you leaving?" I asked him. He had already planned this ahead of time.

Rap Mon watched V's mom shaking hands with some of Jungkook's relatives. "Yeah."

I sighed. I was gonna be alone again, living my normal life without my parents. Except it won't be so normal anymore. I wouldn't ever be able to forget this. It was carved forever in my heart.

"I'm leaving after this." He said.

Rap Mon was moving away from me, to somewhere like Daegu. He was still in a part of Korea, but he wasn't exactly here in the house.

After 10 more minutes, the funeral was over, and everyone left leaving the two of us to clean up.

"Shoot, my train's about to leave." He checked his watch.

"Oh." I said sadly.

Rap Mon gave me a great big hug, "Take care." He whispered.

My eyes were watering, "Not again."

He pulled, "Bye."

I waved. Once he was out of sight, I stood alone. Great, just great. Everyone is gone now, what am I even suppose to do?

Go back to their house? Go back to my own house? Oh right, that ajusshi is trying to sell it. I wonder if someone had bought it yet.

The rain was getting stronger as it started pouring. I looked for shelter.

To my right, I saw someone almost identical to Jin. I squinted. No, that couldn't be, he's gone. I shook my head and he was gone.

I still loved him, and I hope he still does too. I looked up to the sky. With all the rain pouring, it's probably Jin that's crying all that out.

I chuckled.

The rain stopped after about an hour of doing nothing.

I swiftly cleaned up the stuff. There wasn't much, just gifts that some other people gave.

I peacefully walked back to the house. It's going to be so lonely.

I was going to have to go back to college now, without Jin waiting by the gates.

At least Rap Mon was still alive, but not in the house. I still had one person.


It had been a month since Rap Mon left. I was going back to college and even managed to make a few friends. I had started working at a cafe to make some money.

I was living a pretty normal life again, except for the fact of the truth about the others. It still happened, and I'll never forget it no matter how much I try.

Today was a free day. No college, no work, no anything. I turned on the TV.

Ths news came on.

"One of the last major incidents was a train crashing from Seoul to Daegu. It had been comfirmed that there were no passengers alive."

I was frozen in shock. Wasn't that Rap Mon's train? How come I didn't know this? I put a hand over my mouth to prevent myself from sobbing.

One of my friends had just died one month ago without me knowing.

I stood up from the couch, and opened the front door not bothering to lock it.

It was once again raining, perfect for my mood.

I walked passed an alleyway.

The beach, the motel, the hospital. Overdosing, fights.

I stopped right in my tracks. Everything made sense now, it all clicked together like a puzzle.

This was exactly what was in my dream long ago. Seokjin in my dreams said he wanted to burn these memories. I had a glimpse of the future. I know what he means now by burning those memories.

I clenched my fist. It only made me feel worse. Why didn't I do anything?

I just sat in Jin's room stupidly not doing anything because of this one person. I was so stupid. Tears angrily made it down my face.

I let the rain drop on my clothes. I didn't bring a jacket, but I didn't care. Everyone left, leaving me stuck here. I don't know where I'm going, and yet I'm still walking forward.

Why does everything have to turn out this way? This isn't fair. Nothing is. I feel like my life has been cursed

I just wanted to crawl in a hole and die. You know what? That's just what I'm gonna do. I didn't care if I died the same way as Jin or Jungkook. Just something that's painful....I'm sure it won't be as painful as what I'd been through.

I walked in the middle of the road, closing my eyes and waited for the impact.

I let myself feel the pain, as I flew right over the car. All I heard were screams, and sirens before I completely blacked out.

Notes

I honestly feel sorry about this chapter. It's still not over, but it will pretty soon!. As always, comment, vote and subscribe!
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