My Boyfriend's Hot Bestfriend

After serious and intense talked with Jimin, finally I decided to back to my own apartment that night. Jimin insisted to deliver me safely. I stubbornly refused his order but I gave up because Jimin forced me to get inside his car. He called his driver to pick up both of us at Taehyung’s condo. On the way back to my place, I didn’t talk with Jimin. I had to commit if I would only focus on Taehyung starting now. We didn’t bother to say anything to each other. We sat in the backseat quietly. It was my first time being so awkward with Park Jimin. I took a glance at him secretly. He seemed so sad and heartbroken. His eyes couldn’t lie. I seriously wanted to give him a big hug and kiss. But I swore I couldn’t do that. My energy completely drained away. My brain kept saying if I only loved Kim Taehyung, but my heart screamed differently. And I, myself, didn’t want to screw their friendship because of me. In my mother’s name, I even didn’t know if I should back to Taehyung or break up with him. Because for pete’s sake, I already gave up my relationship with him. If people said it’s really easy and simple, let me tell you, it was seriously fucking serious business. This shit wasn’t for people’s entertainment and laugh. I was in the highest state of confusion. No one could tell how dizzy this shit got me.

We arrived safely at my apartment. Jimin didn’t say anything, but he just walked behind me deliver me ‘till my front door. I was grateful he did it. When I unlocked the door, I should’ve just come in to my flat, but I stopped. I turned around to see his face for the last time.

“Hey, thanks.” I said softly.

He just smiled at me.

That smile would be forever unforgettable. My heart cried.

“Good night.” I said.

He didn’t reply me. Awkward silence.

“Bye, Jimin.”

I opened the door and got inside.

“Can we just stay as friend?” Jimin stopped me.

I looked at him. I shook my head.

“It would be hard for me. You know I have feeling for you. It’d be difficult for us.”

“And then let’s make it real. It’s easy.” Jimin said without thinking.

I sighed. “Jimin, please. I don’t wanna argue anymore. I wanna be loyal with Taehyung.”

“Tsk. Loyal? You wouldn’t sleep with a stranger if you were a loyal girlfriend.”

I slapped Jimin’s cheek so hard. His words hurt me so deep. I was shocked I did it too. He looked at me speechless. “I love him. I really love him since the beginning. And I still love him.”
My tears dropped. Jimin was right. I wasn’t a loyal girlfriend in the first place. I shouldn’t have mad at him. But his words made it clear fact if I was indeed a bitch, a slut. That guilty feeling haunted me and hurt my pride.

I quickly got inside my flat leaving him speechless. I closed the door in front of his face. I locked the door and ran to my bedroom. I cried so hard. I sobbed uncontrollably. My body was shaking. I wrapped myself with blanket. I already missed Jimin’s touch when he was doing it for me. “I’m sorry, Jimin... I’m sorry.” I kept crying, hugging my pillow like a little kid. I even didn’t bother to turn on the light. I kept crying in silence until I fell asleep.

I was walking in the dark forest with no clear vision. I kept running calling Taehyung’s name. I tried to search his light, but I didn’t find any. I was running around and I only found dead end. I screamed Taehyung’s name again and again. But suddenly there was a big fireball flying above me. It followed my steps. I was scared. It looked scary and dangerous. I stumbled on the rocks and I fell on the ground. The big fireball was flying so low above my body. It seemed want to burn me. I reached the limit. There was no way out. The big fireball changed itself into a witch, ugly witch, her face slimy and mottled and she brought a sharp knife. She slowly approached me bringing her knife. My body was shaking and sweating. I was trembling so hard. I kept screaming Taehyung’s name so he could help me. But I was really helpless. My head was dizzy and I could’t see the witch’s face clearly. But her face looked familiar. She seemed like someone I know for long time. When I thought I would die, suddenly there were hundred of Taehyung figures filling the empty forest around me. His figures made me more dizzy and my view was blurred. Taehyung figures laughed at me and shouted at me if I should die.

“You’re going to die, bitch! You deserve to die! You are slut! SLUT!”

Taehyung figures shouted at my face and laughed. The ugly witch was coming closer and she was ready to stab me. I saw her knife above my heart and...

“Holy shit!” I quickly got up from my sleep.

I had nightmare. It was really scary and painful in the same time. My body was sweating. The sweat dripped on my skin face. I caught the air. I tried to catch a breath so hard. I was like getting an asthma attack. I was breathless. Slowly, I got up from the bed, I turned on the lights and walked to my bathroom. I quickly washed my face to wake me up from the scary dream. I looked at the mirror, my own reflection looked so pathetic and pitiful. Suddenly my tears dropped. I cried again. My heart hurt, too painful. I was in unstable emotion and I need someone to hug me right now. I couldn’t believe myself if few hours ago, I was so freaking happy and lucky for having Jimin as my boyfriend, but then in the past midnight, I was so pathetic, crying over my real boyfriend.



TAEHYUNG

I was sleeping when I felt my phone was ringing loudly beside my pillow. I checked my cell phone to see the caller ID. I was surprised if _______ was calling me in the past midnight. It’s 4AM and she called me. I quickly picked up her call.

“Hello.” I greeted her with my raspy voice.

“Taehyungah, I’m very sorry for calling you in this times.”

I could hear her shaky voice.

“Baby, are you crying?” I asked her, panic. I got up from my bed picking up my shirt on the floor.
I was naked, only wearing a underwear. I looked at my left side. Hyerim moved a little bit. She opened her eyes slowly. She yawned, stretching her arms and got up leaning on the headboard.

“I really need you right now. Can you come over? I’m sorry for waking you up.”

_______’s sounded hurtful. She was crying so hard. I could feel her sobs.

“No, it’s okay. Are you alright there? I’m going now. Something happened, baby?”

Hyerim looked at me. She seemed already know who’s the caller.

“Nothing. But I only need you. I miss you...”

Her words made me sad. I stared at naked Hyerim who was still lying in the bed wrapping herself with blanket. She’s indeed gorgeous, but... my girlfriend just asked me to come over.

“Where are you? I’m going now.” I asked _______.

“At my place. I’ll wait. Please, don’t break your promise.”

“Don’t worry. Wait for me. I love you.” And I closed the line.

I grabbed my jeans. I quickly wore my jeans and my shirt again. I took my wallet and my leather jacket. I checked the clock, it’s already 4:10 AM.

“Where are you going?” Hyerim finally asked me.

“You know where.” I answered her shortly.

“In the final, I’m only your fuck buddy, Kim Taehyung.”

I sighed, hearing her words.

“Do not say that, please. You’re going to be my wife. You exactly know that. We made some deals and I’m still Jung _______’s boyfriend now. She needs me.”

Hyerim didn’t say anything. She just watched me combing my hair. I took my car key and I kissed Hyerim’s forehead. “Go back to sleep. I don’t want you to wait.” I stroked her cheek.
Hyerim nodded understand. She pecked my lips. “Be careful.”

I drove my car in full speed heading to _______’s apartment. I was so worried about her condition. It was my first time got emergency call like that. She never sounded so sad, frustrated and desperate before. It made me mad and upset. There was must be something wrong. I had to see her now. I was grateful the street was really vacant and only some cars could be seen in this hours. So, I could go to _______’s place faster.

When I arrived, I quickly got out from my car and ran to her flat. I pressed the door bell. I was waiting impatiently. Without waiting any longer, the door opened in front of me. Before I could say something, _______ hugged me tightly. She was crying. Her tears wet my shirt, and I swore I didn’t mind. Her hug felt warm, yet desperate.

“Taehyungah, I miss you.” She sobbed.

My hurt cried inside. It sounded hurt.

“I miss you too.” I answered her immediately.

I released her body. I held her chin to make her look up at me. I wiped her tears and I kissed her forehead. “We should get inside, so you can tell me what happened.” She nodded understand.

I laid down beside _______ in her bed. I wrapped her body with blanket. I took off my leather jacket and I threw it to the nearest sofa. My girlfriend quickly grabbed my shirt, so she could coming closer into my arms. I hugged her and let her cry again.

“Hey, baby. Mind to tell me?” I asked her worry.

She looked up to see me. Her eyes were red and she couldn’t stop sobbing.

“I miss you so much.” She answered me.

She made me feel guilty in sudden.

“Aww... we just met yesterday.” I told her calmly. I stroked her long hair.

“But I mean, in different way. I’ve been missing you a lot of times. And I’m scared I’m going to lose you. I’m so doubt with our relationship now. I got nightmare earlier and it was scary as shit. You laughed at me and shouted at me I should die...” She choked.

“And... I don’t want that to happen. I still want you in my life. I want us back to normal, like we used to be.” She cried again. I quickly wiped her tears again. She looked desperate holding on my shirt. I pecked her lips. I couldn’t see her sad eyes. I was too shame to face her, actually. It was my fault after all.

“Taehyungah, say something...” She said.

“Baby listen, you know I love you so much. And you know our love is strong. You don’t need to be scared for stupid reasons. It was just dream. Screw that! Don’t worry. I’m here.” I hugged her. It was really painful if you had to lie to your lovely girlfriend.

I’m so sorry, Jung _______. I swear, I don’t deserve you. I’m so sorry.

I really couldn’t tell her my real feeling. She seemed struggling in emotion. It was not the right time to open up my dirty secret, moreover Choi Hyerim was still her best friend. I didn’t want to mess up their friendship.

“Now, stop crying, please. You really need sleep and take a rest. I’m going to watch you here.
Just sleep and forget about that nightmare. It can’t be real.” I kissed her forehead.

She nodded. I gave her more pillows so, she could sleep comfortably.

“Don’t go anywhere, okay. Promise?” She showed her pinky finger to me. The way she looked at me, I could tell she was too afraid to lose me. I smiled at her. I linked our pinky fingers together. “Promised.”

I watched _______ was sleeping peacefully and sound. I stroked her hair slowly. I looked at her beautiful face. I was damn stupid giving up on her. My heart ached seeing her like this. This was truly our crucial moment in our relationship. I thought it would be easy break up with her if she’s getting closer with Jimin, my own best friend. But I was completely wrong. She said that she still loved me. I still loved her too, but my situation was not the same like we used to be.
And I already stabbed her secretly. I fucked her best friend more than twice. I was totally insane and asshole. But I didn’t have much energy to get out from this shit. Choi Hyerim was slowly attracting me. And I wasn’t sure if my real feeling toward my girlfriend was still the same.

“I’m so sorry, baby.” I whispered softly and I pecked her lips.



YOU

I went to my campus together with Taehyung. We came in lunch time. Thank God, there was no morning class, so I had enough time to cuddle with Taehyung in my bed. It felt so right, back to my real boyfriend. Kim Taehyung was still the same. He made me panic because he almost burned my kitchen trying to prepare smoked bacon for me. He also made me confused because he talked to himself while doing laundry. It was crazy as shit. But at least, he’s really really my boyfriend. I missed him doing alien and strange stuff.

We entered the halls, Taehyung held my hand and we intertwined our fingers tightly. I smiled looking at him. It’s been long time. But in the same time, I felt weird, because I didn’t feel the same feeling when I was with Jimin. I could remember the way Jimin was holding my hand and playing with my fingers. I quickly shook my head to move out from thinking about Jimin again. I had to focus only on my boyfriend.

“_______, what’s wrong?” Taehyung asked me.

“Oh, nothing.” I said awkwardly.

Taehyung didn’t give a damn though. We walked to cafeteria to grab some food. I looked around. It was crowded as usual. But I noticed if people stared at me and Taehyung. I made some eyecontact with them, and they looked away immediately. What’s wrong?

“Babe, do you think if they are staring at us?” I whispered to Taehyung.

“I don’t think so.” He replied calmly. But I was sure enough he could see it. It was too obvious. I didn’t get it. It was not like it’s my first time holding Taehyung’s hand. I meant, everyone already knew about my status as his girlfriend. And I also knew if many girls liked Taehyung too. But that was really weird though. I checked myself if I wore the opposite dress. But I didn’t wear ugly dress or I didn’t do anything wrong with my clothes. What’s wrong with them? I felt sick because the sudden attention I got.

We sat near the right corner. Some junior girls from my class really stared at me without shame. “Yah! What’s your problem?” I asked them. They stood up and left the place quickly.
Taehyung made me sit down. “Just ignore them. They’re just jealous that you’re dating me.”

I looked at him. “I know. But this is so weird because all of them staring. Like, there’s something wrong with us.”

Taehyung smiled. “Forget it. Just enjoy our lunch. What do you want to eat? I’ll order.”

I told him what I wanted to eat. He stood up and approached the lunch lady. While Taehyung was waiting for our orders, I checked my schedule. This afternoon, I would go to dance class.
“Shit!” I cursed to myself. I remembered if Jimin would be there as my senior tutor. I really had to move to Hoseok sunbaenim’s class. I had to change my schedule. But if I took Hoseok’s dance class, I would be missing composing music class. And I believed Yoongi sunbaenim wouldn’t be happy at all. He’s so strict and he didn’t want junior students change their schedule anymore. It would be mess up his lesson. Maybe, I would just stay until the end of this semester. Senior tutors wouldn’t teach junior students next semester because they only had chance to teach us for one semester helping the actual college teachers. “You can do it, Jung _______! You can!” I encouraged myself. I believed it would be difficult later, I hoped I could act like a stranger in Jimin’s dance class.

Taehyung came with our food. He put them on the table. We ordered spaghetti.

“Let’s eat.” Taehyung gave me my fork.

I was about to eat when suddenly Hyerim embraced me.

“Hello, bestie!” She greeted me cheerfully.

I quickly hugged her back. “Choi Hyerim!” I screamed her name excited.

“Happy birthday, sweetheart. I called you but you didn’t pick up my call.” She informed me.

“I’m sorry. I left my cell phone when I was out.” I meant, when my boyfriend kidnapped me, giving me special present, threesome with his best friend. Hyerim immediately took a seat. I thought she would sit beside me, but she sat beside Taehyung instead.

“Hi, Taehyung oppa.” She greeted my boyfriend like a close friend.

Oppa? I was startled a little bit. I didn’t know if Hyerim could be that friendly to a senior.

“Hi.” Taehyung smiled at her awkwardly.

“I can’t believe you call him without sunbaenim anymore.” I said.

Taehyung was only focus on his plate. Hyerim looked at me.

“Oh, I’m so sorry. I don’t mean to make you jealous, but I just wanna erase any formality since he’s your boyfriend.” She answered me.

I shook my head smiling. “No, it’s alright. I’m just surprised you can call him with oppa. Because the last time I remember, you were being so formal calling him sunbaenim.”

Hyerim just chuckled. Her giggles made me goosebumps in sudden. What the hell. She sounded like someone in my dream, but I couldn’t tell who it was clearly.

“Ah! This is my gift for you.” Hyerim pulled out a small box from her bag.

She gave me pretty blue box and I took it. I slowly opened it and I saw a diary book.

“What’s this?” I asked her.

“It’s our memories.” She answered me.

“Really?”

She nodded.

I took it out and I opened the book. Hyerim wrote about our first meeting. I read it carefully. And then the next pages, Hyerim mostly wrote about how deep our friendship was. She even added our photos together. I was touched.

“It’s beautiful.” I commented.

Taehyung just watched me with no expression. I didn’t know what he was thinking.

“You want me to read it out loud?” Hyerim suddenly stood up on the chair without any permission. I was surprised.

“Guys, attention please!” Hyerim said louder.

People in the cafeteria looked at us now.

“Yesterday is my best friend’s birthday. And I want to read my diary about her today. Please pay attention to this moment, because this will be unforgettable for both of us.”

“Choi Hyerim... yah...” I called her, embarrassing. She just smiled at me.

“I’m going to read page 17...”

“Dear diary, today my beautiful best friend from small town visited me. It’s my first time having a friend in my big house. It feels different, because she gives me happy virus. I really like her because she’s smart and sweet. She said that she got full scholarship from university that I signed up to. I’m so glad she finally did it because I know she has financial problem. But... she told me if she had no place to stay in Seoul. So, here I am, as her new friend, will give her a nice place to live. I told her if she could stay at my big house. She accepted my offering gladly.
Now, I’m no longer lonely girl. I have a new friend who will accompany me whenever I need someone to talk...”

Hyerim finished reading her diary, smiling at me.

I didn’t know how to react, because it felt so wrong. I meant...

“Enough.” Taehyung stood up and he grabbed my hand. He took my bag and we left Hyerim alone, standing there speechless and clueless. People didn’t give any applause, but they just whispered to each others. They looked at me weirdly with their hateful stares. I didn’t understand what kind of situation I got into. Taehyung really gripped my hand tightly. When we both were far from cafeteria, he released me.

“Kim Taehyung, what are you doing?” I asked him, upset.

“What am I doing? Can you see it what’s happening? She is NOT your best friend!”

“What do you mean?” I asked him, confused.

“Just stay away from Choi Hyerim starting now! Stop talking with her!” Taehyung sounded furious. I had never seen him like this. What’s up with this attitude?

“But why? She’s my best friend...”

“She is NOT!” Taehyung cut me off.

I closed my mouth immediately. I was too shocked.

“I’m so sorry, baby. But... just stop meeting with her or talking with her. This is my order. Do not try to break it. Or you’ll get hurt.”

Taehyung hugged me.

I was still confused as hell, totally had no idea with this situation.



JIMIN

I saw Taehyung entered the cafeteria with lovely _______. She looked beautiful as usual, but her eyes... her eyes looked hurt, depressed and confused. I was sure she still wanted me. But she was too afraid to break the rules. I really felt bad after saying harsh words to her last night.
I was just too emotional and frustrated to get her, so I desperately said those words.

I saw her sitting near the right corner. People were actually staring at them, most exactly Jung _______. I believed they already watched the headline news on TV or read newspaper about
Taehyung and Choi Hyerim’s engagement and got confused why the hell Taehyung and ________ were still together holding hands. I was scared and worried if she would get hurt because soon enough, she would find out about Taehyung’s arranged married.

When Hyerim approached them, Taehyung didn’t look happy at all. I watched everything Hyerim had done from afar. I saw Jung _______ confused and didn’t know how to react. I knew her expression. I could tell her feeling so well. She was shocked and didn’t understand everything about why the heck Hyerim read her diary out loud in public like that. The worst part was, she read page 17 which meant about giving charity for Jung _______ a place to stay. Choi
Hyerim literally made a joke about it, telling people if Taehyung’s girlfriend was pitiful. And Taehyung’s official fiancee helped her and became an angel. If she's really her best friend, she should’ve just read another story about their friendship.

Taehyung grabbed _______’s hand and they left Hyerim alone. I clapped for Taehyung because if he didn’t do that, I would just grab his girlfriend’s hand and brought her to stay away from this situation. Taehyung did the right thing this time. I saw Hyerim acted innocent and left the cafeteria. I slowly followed her outside the building. When she’s completely alone in the quiet corridor, I grabbed her wrist and I pushed her against the wall. She was shocked and screamed. But she shut up immediately when she found out that’s me.

“What do you want, sunbaenim?” She asked me, panic.

I smirked. “Sunbaenim? Oh, you know formal language now?”

“I don’t have enough time, Park Jimin.” She changed into a witch only in seconds.

“Stop acting like you’re Jung _______’s best friend. I know you’re stabbing her back and you want to gain people’s sympathy with your bullshit!” I was so freaking angry.

She rolled her eyes. “Wow. Love is blind indeed.”

“I knew it you and _______ have something.” Hyerim added.

“I don’t give a fuck even if you’re going to be my best friend’s wife, but just don’t try to ruin _______’s life. Because she doesn’t know anything about Taehyung and you. You’ll get married soon, and Taehyung will break up with her as soon as possible. You don’t have to do your childish plan to make her desperate. She will find out no matter what!” I looked at her seriously.
She could see my eyes were on fire, feeling so mad.

“But she doesn’t know how to let Taehyung get out from her life. And I will help her.”

“You crazy bitch!” I shouted at her.

“Yes, I am! My love for Taehyung made me like this! I don’t mind being a bitch because your beloved Jung _______ is better bitch than me. At least, I’m real not fake like her.”

I firmly gripped her shoulders harshly. I was sure she was in pain but I didn’t care at all.

“You are going to pay everything to me if you dare to touch her! And your mom will regret for giving birth to you! This is not a joke!” I warned her. I released her and I left her alone. She seemed speechless with my action, but I couldn’t help it.

I swear to God, if Jung _______ would get hurt so deep, I would kill Taehyung and that bitch for sure. Kim Taehyung need to get hard lesson and somebody must teach him to treat a woman respectfully.



It was 3 PM in the afternoon. It’s dance class. I remembered if _______ would be here in my class. I really hoped she would come because I really wanted to see her. I bet she would act as stranger later, and I didn’t mind as long as she could be here in front of me. Everyone was gathering ready to get my basic theory lesson about dance and music. No one changed their clothes to dance outfit, they were wearing their normal shirt. Because I didn’t teach them how to dance, but how to feel the dance and music together.

It’s already 15 minutes and Jung ________ hadn’t come yet. Where was she?

“Okay class, please sit down. Today Park Jimin is going to teach you how to feel the dance in music. Since he’s the subtitute of me, so he will be your senior tutor. As you already know, this is only for one semester. So, I’m sorry to break your heart because Park Jimin won’t teach you for the next semester.” Prof. Lim told the junior girls.

They all looked sad and disappointed. The girls were boo-ing Prof. Lim out loud, but Prof. Lim was just smiling at them. She knew if this dance class only full with girls if there's me. “You can start your theory now, Park Jimin. I’m going to leave you with your fangirls now. Be careful.”
And she left me. I got it, the junior girls were indeed so scary sometimes. But I always enjoyed every moment because I loved dancing.

“As you know, we can’t dance without music. But why it can be like that?”

I pulled my chair into the center class. The girls were moving faster coming closer to me.

“Before you start to dance, you have to listen the music, the melody, and the beats. So, you can follow the flow easily. You need to feel the music vibe before you show your dance to audiences. If you can master the music feels, you absolutely can dance with beautiful flow...”

I stopped. I looked at everyone’s face. They seemed amazed.

“Sunbaenim is so sexy...” one of them said. She sounded more like sighing.

“Excuse me?” I raised my eyebrow.

“Yes, you are. Why do you sound so smooth, sunbaenim?”

I smiled. “Come on, girls. We have to focus on our theory.”

“I can’t, sunbaenim. You’re too hot to be real.” A girl with curly hair spoke up beside me.

I sighed. “I can’t explain the theory if you all keep admiring me.”

“You can continue, sunbaenim. Go ahead.” A blond girl let me continue to speak while she was looking at me with her dreamy eyes.

“Choose your favorite music, listen to it, pay attention to how you feel when you’re listening to.
And then move your body, follow the rhythm and your flow will appear just like that.” I smiled, showing off my eyesmile. All the girls in this class were sighing with their dreamy eyes.

“Girls, seriously...”

“Sorry, sunbaenim, I’m late.”

I stopped talking. I looked at the lovely girl who was standing in front of the class. She looked tired after running from the first floor. I smiled happily, showing off my eyesmile more. “You’re here.” I said. She acted so formal. She bowed her head for few times.

“It’s okay. You can take a seat.” I told her.

When she moved to her seat, suddenly I noticed if Jung ________ was wearing dance outfit.
She was wearing a blank tanktop with hotpants. The girls stared at her body and they laughed.
________ just realized too, if today we were not practicing, but getting theory lesson. She seemed surprised and she kept her head down, embarrassing.

“Yah, Jung _______. What are you wearing? Total slut.” A girl with browny short hair asked her and everyone followed her laughing. They made fun of Jung _______’s outfit.

_______ just remained silent. That was not her, definitely. She would just answer them back.
She’s brave and sharp girl. What’s up with her? I was getting upset seeing her helpless just like that. “Seducing Taehyung sunbaenim is not enough for you? and now you’re trying to seduce Jimin sunbaenim too?” The girls were going crazy. I stood up from my seat. I quickly approached ________, I grabbed her wrist. She was surprised with my action.

“Class dismissed. I’ll report to Prof. Lim after what you’ve done to Jung _______. You’re getting F! Don’t regret or cry later. And don’t apologize to me, because I won’t let you pass.” I looked at everyone seriously. There was dangerous sound in my voice. They all seemed shocked. I grabbed _______’s wrist and we left the class. I dragged her to 5th floor. There was a locker room, and I chose the locker in the middle because it was enough for two people in it. I pushed her to get inside and I followed her behind. I locked the locker. She was surprised and confused.

“Are you out of mind, Park Jimin?” She sounded mad.

The thin beam illuminated her beautiful face from the locker holes. I felt she was trying to avoid me, stepping backwards, but too bad she reached the locker wall. I looked at her closer, leaning down a little bit. My face only few inches from her face. “Baby, are you alright?” I asked her softly. I caressed her cheek with my fingers. There was strong electricity in everytime I touch her skin.

“Jimin, this is not the right way for asking me my condition.” She said sadly.

“Those girls are real bitch. You don’t need to hear them. They’re just trash...”

“I’m used to it. No need to defend me.” She cut me off.

We stared into each other eyes in silence. We didn’t speak anything. I could feel our heartbeats pumped faster than usual. She looked like someone I’d really love in the present, future, forever. I cupped her face. I decided to say it. “Baby, listen. I’m so sorry for what I have done last night. I swear, I didn’t mean to hurt you. I know I’m wrong and I don’t deserve your forgiveness. I hate myself for that.”

“Please, stop. Jimin, just forget it. I’m fine and you don’t have to worry. We... are done.”



YOU

Jimin apologized to me about everything hurt me. He looked really mean it. He sounded so sincere. But I couldn’t be blown away like this again. I should've stopped before I totally forget about Kim Taehyung. “Please, stop. Jimin, just forget it. I’m fine and you don’t have to worry.
We... are done.” I told him holding my tears. It was so much painful and I couldn’t describe how hurt my feeling was. It was really jabbing my heart, like breaking up with my own boyfriend. I had to act normal and fierce. I had to be strong saying those words.

Jimin looked at me with his sad eyes. He moved closer to my face. I could feel Jimin’s hot breath. My heartbeat stopped beating. I held my breath because...

Jimin kissed my lips. Slowly. Passionately. Tenderly. Soothingly.

It felt wet, moist, and soft.

I tried to push him, but my push was not powerful enough. I was too weak to do that. Jimin took my hands and wrapped them around his neck. We closed our eyes. My legs were shaking, I really wanted to fall on the ground. My whole body felt numb in sudden. I stopped breathing for few seconds. Jimin pressed his lips deeper, but still gentle. His hands pulled me closer into his arms. My brain screamed to stop but my heart called Jimin’s name on repeat. It was really difficult having unstable emotion and feeling at the same time.

Jimin released me. I opened my eyes to see him looking at me. His eyes didn’t lie. He really loved me. His soft gaze penetrated into my eyes. Jimin rested his hands around my hips. He still felt the same but warmer than usual. God, don’t tell me if this is we call as love vibration. Because it feels warm, and peace. Jimin leaned in closer again. His nose touched mine. I had to hold my last breath because Jimin was like sucking my breath away and stole my soul. He cupped my face with his right hand. He pecked my lips slowly. God... it’s so soft. I couldn’t help screaming in my head. Jimin did it again. He pecked my lips slower and he let his lower lips sticking on my lips. Jimin pressed his lips fully slowly. He played with my feeling because I didn’t give any respond. I froze as statue.

Jimin didn’t say anything, just action. He melted me inside and outside. I was too weak to do something to stay focus on Taehyung. Jimin brought me out of this world to reach 9th cloud. I was searching for my right sense to wake me up from his kiss, but I gave up. The more I refused, the more Jimin sucked my soul away. Jimin kissed me more serious this time. He tried to bite my lower lip. I giggled immediately. And I swore, I didn’t want to giggle like a happy little fangirl, but Jimin made me crazy just like that.

“I’m happy I can make you smile like this again. Welcome home, baby.” Jimin whispered.

I was blushing. My cheeks looked like super red tomato. I felt hot and burned.

Jimin kissed my lips more wet again. He sucked my mouth slowly and passionately. I started to smooch him, giving mild respond. I felt Jimin was smiling againts my lips. He pulled me closer to his body even more. He hugged me while kissing me deep, deeper. I kissed him back slower, and Jimin got my signal. He inserted his tongue into my mouth. Our mouth locked. We kissed passionately using our each tongues. Jimin swirled his tongue with mine. I stopped using my tongue because Jimin won the battle. Jimin bit my lower lip softly. I smiled slightly. Jimin smooched me hard but still gentle. Without I realized, I rubbed his nape. I played with the tip of his hair. I twirled his hair with my fingers. Jimin released me a little bit to let both of us take a breath. And then, he continued pecking my lips. Jimin’s kiss was wet, yet sweet. I could feel the butterflies dancing happily in my tummy. I got this kind of excitement in everytime Jimin touched me.

Jimin pecked my lips again, I pecked his lips back. He did it again, and I did it again. We did the same thing for few times, until finally I stopped it first. I released Jimin’s lips. Jimin looked at me deeply. “You’re so addictive, even stronger than drugs.” Jimin whispered.

“Park Jimin, what are you? What kind of human creature are you?” I asked him softly.

I lost in his touch, his kiss, his eyes. My soul was in heaven literally.

“I was born to be your soulmate.” Jimin answered me, smiling showing off his eyesmile.

“Jimin...”

“Sshh... I know.” Jimin kissed my cheek.

“Please, listen to me this time.” He added.

I stayed quiet and I let him to talk.

“I only want to ask you one thing. Answer my question with your real honest feeling, speak the
truth, give me the clear statement, so I don’t regret anything later.” Jimin stared at me seriously.

I was damn nervous.

“Do you love Kim Taehyung?”

I screamed inside my head. I looked at Jimin, feeling so doubtful.

“Baby, I need your real and honest answer.” Jimin said.

I didn’t know what to say. I was so scared to admit it.

“I...”

Jimin was waiting for my answer. I had to answer him that I still loved Taehyung. So, we could end this confusing with Jimin’s last kiss.

“Jimin, I...”

Before I could answer Jimin, suddenly the locker room was opened suddenly.

I heard there were two people came in. I couldn’t see anything from the locker holes.

“Jimin...”

Jimin quickly covered my mouth with his hand. He gestured me to be quiet. I nodded understand. Jimin peeked out slightly from the holes. He checked who they were. I saw his expression was not good. He looked at me immediately. He hugged me tightly and covered the locker holes with his back. We were standing in the dark with no light now.

We both could hear if that people were busy doing something because one of them sounded like bumped against the lockers. We could hear the liplock, smooches. I was sure if they were a couple and they were making out. I started to sweat because it was so hot inside the locker. I could feel Jimin was sweating too, but he still hugged me in his arms. “Jimin, it’s hot.” I whispered very softly to his earlobe so, people at outside couldn’t hear me.

“Don’t get out.” Jimin told me firmly. He also whispered into my earlobe.

After awhile, we could hear the girl was moaning. I gasped. Jimin hugged me even more.

She sounded very familiar. Who was she?

“Ahh...” The girl moaned again.

The couple seemed moving to the front of our locker door. The girl leaned on our locker. I squealed too shock, but Jimin quickly held me more tight. She seemed busy enjoying her make love because she didn’t even notice there’s also a couple inside this locker.

“Aww... fuck!” She moaned louder and her back touched our locker harder.

Someone was banging her hard against the locker door. It was really awkward for me and Jimin.

“Do you like it, baby?”

“Ah.. yesss.. yess...”

I was shocked hearing the guy’s voice.

I was immediately struggling to release myself from Jimin’s hug. I pushed him to my side to check who’s he. Jimin stubbornly covered the locker holes. We were fighting in silence trying not to make a sound. Jimin kept covering my view. But he was late because I already saw the sneakpeek. I was shocked, too shocked with what I had just seen.

“Ah, Taehyung ahh...”

My tears dropped.

Jimin quickly covered the locker holes again. He pulled my body closer to him, he hugged me tightly.

“Fuck me harder, Kim Taehyung.”

“Tell me, what you want, bitch?”

“I want your cock, oppa... ahh...”

“Tell me, who are you Choi Hyerim?”

“I’m your bitch, oppa. Ah!”

I sobbed. I tried hard to hold my tears, but I didn’t have powerful energy. I was too shocked with the reality. I was crying so hard, so damn hard, ‘till my body was shaking hard. I got a heart attack, even my hands were shaking hard uncontrollably. Jimin patiently was hugging me. He didn’t mind his shirt wet with my tears. I hugged him helpless. I cried in his arms leaning in his chest, while hearing my own real boyfriend was fucking my best friend.

Taehyung kept fucking Hyerim for few minutes before they both reached their climax. I was still in Jimin’s arms, feeling so shock with everything I had seen and I had heard. I cried until my eyes really red and swollen. I closed my eyes hoping if that was just a nightmare, bad dream.

“Taehyung oppa, that was wonderful. You’re hot.”

I heard Hyerim kissing my boyfriend’s lips.

“So are you. Your pussy is tight. I like it.”

I dropped more tears. I couldn’t believe Kim Taehyung was actually saying it.

“So, this is the feeling having an AB type fiance. He can be cute, weird, idiot but hot, sexy, next. I love it.”

Fiance? What?

Jimin covered my ears faster so, I couldn’t hear their conversation anymore. I looked at him.
Jimin looked at me sadly. He hurt too. His eyes described everything inside his heart. Jimin and I looked into each other eyes. Jimin kissed my forehead and he kept covering my ears until they came out from the locker room. Jimin slowly removed his hands. He wanted to hug me again, but I avoided him. I pushed him aside and I unlocked the locker. I got out and I found a necklace on the floor that Hyerim was wearing earlier. I knew her thing. And I saw her wearing this necklace for few times. It was really her, my best friend.

I couldn’t believe if Taehyung really fucked her. The flashback had been rewinding in my head like a black and white movie. Kim Taehyung told me to stay away from Choi Hyerim. Choi Hyerim approached me giving me a present, a diary book about our memories. Choi Hyerim called Taehyung with oppa, and I was surprised. Taehyung made breakfast for me, almost burning down my kitchen. Taehyung cuddled with me in my bed. My first sex with Taehyung after waiting for a year. My sweetest moment in our first date. Taehyung was coming to my life as my senior. My first meeting with Taehyung. Taehyung’s laugh and smile.

I fell on the floor thinking about my memories with Taehyung. I sobbed again. Jimin quickly helped me to stand up, but I was too weak. I lost my ballance, almost fainted, but Jimin held my body immediately. “Jung _______...” Jimin called my name softly. I turned around to see him.

“You want to know my answer, huh? This is my answer for you, Park Jimin. I got the special present one day after my birthday. Karma slapped me in my face! Karma is bitch, Jimin. And I, myself, is a bitch. I deserve this punishment...” I sobbed.

Jimin tried to take my hand but I stepped backwards.

“Did you see that? My boyfriend fucked my best friend! How wonderful was that, huh? I fucked my boyfriend’s best friend, and now... my boyfriend fucked my best friend! I kissed his best friend, and now my boyfriend kissed my best friend! It was awesome, right? Karma is bitch, Jimin...” I cried. My tears didn’t stop running down on my cheeks.

“This is not your fault! Don’t blame yourself, _______.” Jimin said.

“How come you said that when it’s really obvious everything is my fault!” I shouted at him.

“Don’t pity me, Park Jimin! Save your sweet words for other bitches! It’s already enough for me!” I continued crying and shouting at him.

Jimin looked at me sadly. I was sure he did hurt too, but I refused to believe.

“I’m the one who must taking responsibility for this shit. I’m the one who keep seducing you even though I know, you still love Kim Taehyung. I’m the one who keep playing with your feeling and taking advantage in your confusion. This.is.not.your.fault!” Jimin gritted his teeth.

“But I’m the one who started it! It couldn’t be happen if I didn’t come to night club and met you there!” I was screaming in frustration.

“Can you see, this is our destiny? This is God’s plan to let us meet up. He wants us to be together, Jung _______. My heart hurts seeing you cry. Please, stop crying.” Jimin said softly. He didn’t shout at me back. He was still gentle and sweet.

I stopped looking at him. I turned around again. My back faced him. I slowly left him.

“Where are you going?” Jimin asked me, worry.

“I need time alone. Don’t run after me.” I told him, sobbing.

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