The Flower Boy

I knock hesitantly. Why did I agree to this again? The door opens up and his mother is there.
“Oh, it’s you! You must here for the chemistry project.” She says smiling cheerfully at me with a smile that just makes me feel happy.
“Yes, i’m Seokjin partner, Wonah.” I introduce myself realising I hadn’t even said my name before. I bow with a small smile on my face.
“Well come on in,” she says gesturing into the hallway of the house. I step in timidly even though this is not my first time here. I always fell overly polite in front of parents. “I wanted to say before how thankful I am that you’re helping Seokjin with Chemistry.” She says walking slightly in front of me down the hallway. As we get to the end of the entrance hallway, Seokjin appears around the walkway in front of us both. We both look at each other a little, as if waiting for each other to say something.
“How long have you been here?” He asks with his hands in his pockets.
“Not long, your mother was just walking me in,” I say turning and smiling at his mother thanking her with a head nod.
“Well, thanks mum,” he said a little shyly. He turns his eyes to me and flicks his head towards the hallway to the right of me. “Follow me.”

As he shuts the door to his room he says, “what did my mum say just before?”
“What? Are you worried she spilled more secrets of yours?” I sat down on his bed and got my phone out of my pocket, sounding a little sarcastic. Opening up an app and with no response from Seokjin, I look back up to him standing in front of me with worry on his face. “Wow you must really be hiding something with that look on your face,” I say look back at my phone trying to sound enthusiastic about this meet up. To be honest, I was worried about the whole situation. We hadn’t even said what our agreement was specifically about.
“Anyway, how are you gonna repay me for all these experiments i’m doing?” Seokjin said sitting down next to me making the bed bounce momentarily. He looked over my left shoulder to see what I was doing on my phone. I quickly locked my phone, and stuffed it back into my jean’s back pocket.
“I’m gonna help you with your helpless relationship with Seungyeon remember?"
“How would you know about relationships?”
“I’ve been in one before,” I crossed my arms and looked away from Seokjin. I can’t believe i’m telling him this.
"Was it Seungcheol?” I look back at him giving him a sour look, daring him to tease me further. I wasn’t even sure how I felt about Seungcheol which made it even worse.
“Let’s just say I know how not to treat someone.”
“Oh so he was a dick to you..” he said also crossing him arms. I looked at his profiled face a little taken back by his bluntness. He turned to look at me, “is it too soft of a subject to touch?” Looking into his eyes I could tell he was actually being genuine. Concern showed on his face slightly, making my heart beat quicken thinking about my “ex”. I shook my head sighing looking down at my feet hanging off the side of the bed.
“That’s why I’m here,” I said looking back up to Seokjin’s slightly furrowed face, “you better not make the same mistakes he did.” He immediately shook his head slightly.
“Never.” I smiled a little at his honesty and respect.
“Okay so any ideas on locations?” I said as I adjusted myself on the bed and changed the subject.
“Huh?” He looked at me a little surprised, with wide eyes.
“For dates…” I could tell this was going to be an awkward topic…
“Umm well I thought maybe a movie,” he scratched the back of his neck looking a little flustered at the idea, making me smile a little more.
“That’s good. Just be yourself around her okay? Like how you are now,” I said nudging his arm closest to me with my elbow. While I smiled at him, he looked back a little bewildered at the way I was acting. The smile on my face slowly disappeared as awkward silence filled the room. He coughed just to make it more awkward.
“Can you tell me if i’m being too flirtatious?”
“How?”
“Let’s just say, we’re at the movies right now.” He pointed to the space in front of us making the shape of a rectangle with his finger. He leaned back and stared at the space as if it were the movie screen.
“Oh… okay,” I said hesitantly leaning back into my hands behind me on the bed. I looked into the empty space waiting for something to happen…
Then I felt Seokjin’s breath right next to my ear as he whispered out, “this part’s funny.” I almost rolled over away from him when I heard it.
“Seokjin-ah! That’s not only awkward but extremely cringe-worthy!” I crossed my arms over my chest in an “X” shape as if to protect myself from his weirdness.
“So not that…” He scratched the back of his neck again awkwardly. I sat back up slowly.
“Well I can lean in like this.” He moved his body across the bed slyly, eliminating the space between our legs. My heart thumped furiously and I was almost scared that Seokjin could hear it, when I heard his breath quickening. I realised how open we’d become with each other. How much nerve it took him to tell me and show me these things he’d never shown anyone at school before. How lucky I should be...
“And she’ll lean into your shoulder,” I nuzzled my head in his neck, hopefully making him feel less nervous, which in contrast made me even more nervous. If i’m honest with myself, it was pretty comfortable there. We stayed there for what seemed like minutes, in what was now not awkward silence, but thought-filled silence. I felt his head turn against my head, so I looked up, meeting his eyes immediately. It may have been because of how comfortable I was next to Seokjin like this, but I didn’t move. He did though. He also kissed me when the sound of a knock came from the door. Our heads looked to the door as quick as a switch. “Can I come in?” Seokjin’s mother said muffled by the door in between her and us. Without a word me and Seokjin raced the his desk and fumbled our way into the two chairs there.
“Of course mum,” Seokjin said slightly loudly so she could hear. While he said this, I raced to bring out a pencil case and books, to make it look like we were actually working. As the door slowly opened, with a slight creak, her smiling face appeared. She was carrying a tray of snacks and drinks. I smiled, unable to hide the guiltiness of what I had done. What was I doing? Seokjin has a girlfriend!
“I just wanted to bring these in, remember to stay hydrated!” She said in almost a whisper as she carefully balanced the tray on his bed and quietly snuck out again.
“Thank you Mrs KIm,” I say quietly before the door closed. When the clunk of the door had sounded, I was able to calm down. I melted into the chair and swivelled to look at Seokjin with tiredness.
“I’m sorry. That was all me,” I say in a whisper.
“I’m not.” He said also looking fatigued into his lap.
I wanted to question what he’d said but i’d really been mentally burnt out.
We decided to leave the lesson there...

Notes

12 days?!?! Wow i'm so sorry this has taken a while. School has been a bit tough especially with lots of commitment on my hands.