Three weeks later, my brother has finally decided to come home. I thought that I'd be able to curse him out and be one and done. But that wasn't exactly the case. 1, he showed up when I was at work. And 2, I didn't want to stress my mother out any more than she needed to be stressed. But I had help with that part.

Things were getting weird. And I don't just mean with me. After that night, I made sure to take my ass down to the pharmacy to find the morning after pill. Which was fine, because I hadn't seen T.O.P in the past few days. He kept me somewhat updated and sent the guys to check up on me every once in a while, but that was it. He'd been far too busy to come see me himself if it wasn't for the expensive gifts he would have dropped off at work and the flowers, I would have been a lot angrier.

Juli came up behind me as I was doing inventory and put her hands on my waist, that was the usual way she got my attention without having to speak first. " so." she started with a smile. " we start school in less than 3 weeks are you excited?" oooh. That was actually a good question. I wasn't sure if I was ready to start school yet, I try to get my mind off of it for the longest time, starting a new school meeting new friends and learning new material that was probably beyond my mind. And even more my Brother's.

"I suppose." was the question. I didn't exactly know how to answer that question other than that. But it was my last year and then maybe I could go to college in Seoul. Stay with my mom and support her along with Hansol. Or maybe when I was done I'd have the time to look after my brother, maybe after I achieve something he would finally listen to me. Maybe I can get him to meet with me and stay out of trouble.

Or would I stay with Choi? A man I knew for certain I wasn't 100% serious about. Or was I? Was he serious about me? Did you want to keep me around for that long? Pfft. I need to not worried about him.

"Hopefully we have a few classes together." Said Juli. And she started to help me fold the clothes. I smiled. Yeah, hopefully we had classes together. It was nice knowing that I'd be going into a new school at least knowing someone. And she had a few friends that she had introduced me to that went to our school. Making sure I felt less and less like an outsider. There was even another half Korean like me. Except for he was half white and half Korean. His name was Taylor. At least that's what his English name was.

The other weird thing that I had started noticing was that my Uncle Ken started coming around less and less. Of course, I hadn't seen him in a few years so I didn't know what his behaviour was like or did have an inkling of what might be going on until my mother mentioned it. "That's odd. He said he would spend time with you kids. And hasnt been coming around. I wonder if he's sick or something."


But he hadn't answered my calls, or hers. And she even told me she went over to his house to see if he was there and there was nothing. And on the days she found herself lucky enough to be around him he urges she get out of the area. A nauseating feeling washed over me when I heard about that. An instinct told me to ask the only other person that had been around him recently.

I waited until Hansol and my mother left; a dinner downtown, before going up to my brother's room and letting myself in to where he and Hyungwon sat, of course they weren't expecting me, because whatever they had on the bed was not for my eyes to see, as seen when my brother jump on the bed to cover it with his comforter. I rolled my eyes.

" I don't care about what kind of dirty work you guys are up to I had to ask you a question Juniper." He seemed to relax a little and not at his buddy who looked at me.

" what is it says, we are kind of busy right now."

" have you seen Uncle Ken recently? He's not answering calls and not answering his door." I saw A flicker of guilt Rush across my brother's face when I ask this question and he looked on his lap then over at Hyungwon.

"Tell me what you know." I demanded and he crossed his arms. "I.. I don't know what you're talking about." Was his response. And I felt myself lose it. I threw back the comforter with a growl. no I wasn't prepared to what I was faced with. There were enough bills on my brother's bed to fill up the refrigerator and probably the freezer. Both in American dollars in Korean Won. I stood motionless for about 5 minutes.

" please tell me you didn't rob a bank or anything." I said with my voice barely a whisper. My brother let out a long sigh and just covered the money again. " how much to keep you quiet?" He asked me without looking at me. And I felt myself go rigid for a few seconds. " I don't care about the money Jun. And I'm not a rat, I'm your sister!" Hyungwon decided now was the time to speak up. He reached forward to grab my hand then looked over at Juniper. " your uncle is Kkangpae." He said flatly, simply. And Juniper glared over him. This didn't seem to phase him. " she can be trusted. And you told Shownu your self that you were going to tell her."

My brother and I never kept secrets from each other until we moved out here. He hadn't told me about Monsta X. And I told him about Big Bang. Or that I was dating a gang leader. I didn't expect him to tell me where this money came from. Although I really want to know now. No, I didn't want to know. Because something told me that I already knew. I had a sneaking suspicion of where this money came from. Where exactly it came from.

"Yeah. Uncle Ken is kkangpae." I desperately try to channel the emotions to my face so I could keep up the facade but I was shocked, that I was surprised and I didn't know more than he was telling me. The fact about my uncle being a gang member did surprise me. But not as much as it should have. Or that it probably should have. But my brother was buying it and that's all that all that mattered.

" a few days I spend the night with Shownu I went to see Uncle can just because. He had some guys over. Their names were..." he looked over at Hyungwon, who was still holding my hand. He suddenly looked up at me. His thick lips threatening to smile as he picked up my brother left off. "Their names were Jiyong and Seungri." Smug bastard. I felt ice in my veins and fury run through my chest and it only continue to grow heavier as my brother continued. " yeah he does most of the dirty work for a gang called Big Bang. He's like a little slave. He made me hide in his bedroom under the bed. I know I've been anxious before but God damn this was pure adrenaline."

" so, that's why he doesn't want us around?" I asked innocently squeezing Hyungwon's hand. Juniper let out a gust of air and brought his feet up to rest them on his bed.

" I think he's in trouble with them. He doesn't know that I know anything. Or at least you thought I was ignorant to the fact that he was in a gang. Or that he's a gang leaders pet. Of course I'm going to find out I don't want them hurting my uncle. But I need you to stay out of it I don't want them hurt my sister either. I heard those guys will be on ruthless. That Jiyong that was fucking crazy. You have no idea" no bro, you have no idea.

Is What I wanted to say. But I knew better. " well now you know the truth. Well, at least some of the truth." I skipped my hand out of Hyungwon's and stood. "O...Kay. I will you guys to... Whatever you guys are doing." Juniper tried to call after me as I left his room.

" don't you want to know where it all came from?"

"No."

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