Lets Not Fall in love.

‘’Come here.. I want to show you something.’’ I followed him until we stopped in the middle of his bedroom floor.

‘’There are two very important hold in my book.’’ He stood behind me so that I was between him and the closed bathroom door. Without warning, He slammed me gently up against the door. ‘’This is what someone like that cat eyed bastard will use when they want to harm you.’’ He held my hands tightly against my back and forced me back when I struggled. He loosened up a little when I whimpered.

‘’Sorry.’’ He muttered. Had he been drinking? In the slightest?

He let go of my hands then, and pressed his body against mine. His hands rested on my waist. He took one of my hands and put in on the wall. ‘’What’s this hold?’’ I asked curiously, I tilted my head back to gaze at him. The look in his eyes made me bite my lip. ‘’Choi?’’ I muttered. He cut me off by swooping down and kissing me full on the lips. ‘’This is how i’m going to hold you,’’

‘’You have been drinking.’’ I accused lowly. And he did nothing but smile. His hands slid down to my bottom and squeezed, causing me to yelp.He then pushed himself closer and then I felt it.. I felt him… he ground himself into me, softly at first, then I pushed off the wall into his chest and turned around to look him in his face. That’s when he kissed me in a feverish way, sucking on my bottom lip and crashing our teeth together sloppily ‘’Jump.’’ he commanded and he caught me, wrapping my legs around his waist in expertise. I fought myself on the inside as he backed us up to his bed, he sat down and held my butt firmly. I could taste the sweet alcohol on his tongue as I played with it.

Large, rough hands started to ride up my shirt and around to cup my breasts. He took my tongue between his teeth and sucked gently, I moaned in response as I felt the heat rush to my core. A huff passed through my lips as I pulled away to both catch my breath and lift my shirt over my head. I knew it was wrong. Wrong the way he bent his head down and kissed my breast over the cloth of my bra before reaching behind and expertly unhooking it.

Wrong the way I had lied to my mom about where I would be tonight.

Wrong the way my hands delved into his hair and ground into his crotch as he kissed my nipples.

It was especially wrong considering the fact that I did not give a fuck. I removed my hands from Choi’s hair to tug at his shirt. His skin was hot to the touch.

‘“Are you sure you want to do this?’’ he mumbled into my ear softly. His hands caressed my sides gently and he licked my bottom lip as he waited for an answer.

I turned to look him in the face and nodded swiftly. ‘’There’s no backing out now. I hope you know that-’’

‘’Shut up and fuck me!’’ I growled. I was so annoyed by his teasing. Constant teasing. With a smirk, he closed his eyes in defeat. ‘’As you wish.’’ he purred. He placed me on my back and crawled over to kiss me again. His bare chest upon mine as his impatiently thrust his tongue back into my mouth, Before I could actually get into it, his mouth left mine. Kisses began trailing from my neck, down to my chest and to my navel.

I didn’t have to ask already; he was going slow for now… but I knew his intent was on skipping anymore foreplay.

He slid my shorts and panties off in one swift movement. I tried desperately to clear my mind and just focus on his ministrations. I got myself into this. I made my bed, now i would sleep in it. Choi smiled at my face. I hadn’t noticed that I had been staring at him. From my angle I can imagine how weird I looked.

‘’Stop looking at me like that.’’ I frowned. I wanted to look away but to shake his gaze but I couldn’t quite do it. ‘’Relax.’’ He cooed to me. But I couldn’t I wanted to close my legs but I couldn’t because he was between them. I took a deep breath and exhaled as he kissed my hips and then in between my thighs. It was sweet the way he massaged my legs as he kissed them. He looked up for confirmation and smirked. ‘’Can I taste you?’’ he murmured. Then smiled triumphantly when I looked away.

It didn’t take but a second, he spread my legs holding my thighs with his large hands. He kissed my core gently, causing me to bite my lip and push myself closer to him. Taking my impatience into account, he spread my folds with his fingers and delved his tongue into me. The sensation surprised me at first, I yelped and he held my hips down as he continued. He worked his tongue like his life depended on it. Shoving his tongue in and out. I moaned and arched my back as I pressed myself closure. I could hear him chuckle beneath me but I dare not respond Verbally. I couldn’t, I was that much at a loss for words. Guilt kind of welled up inside me and I soon found myself backing up at a rapid pace. “W-wait.’’ I said. I pulled my knees to my chest and didn’t look him in the eyes. I peered through my lashes at him. ‘’What is it?’’ he said resting a chin on his fist. Looking even more impatient than I did. How was that even possible?

‘’I have to tell you. I kissed him.’’ There was a laugh from the end of the bed.

‘’Who? SeokJin?’’ He questioned. I rolled my eyes and felt even smaller compared to him than before.

‘’No.. Zico. I was flirting with him when we were dancing. And I kissed him In the midst.’’ I caved. I did indeed feel better about telling him the truth. I was waiting for him to yell at me. To pull a gun out or something. But he didn’t. I felt the bed shift and then I was in his arms briefly before being coaxed back on my back. ‘’You kissed him?’’ he asked lowly. I covered my eyes not wanting to look at him. ‘’And you liked it?’’ He cooed. I angled my head to look at him. ‘’Uh…’’ I didn’t know how to answer that question. Maybe I did maybe I didn’t. Why did he care so much.
‘’I just want to know. Maybe you could tell me what I was doing wrong for you to kiss another man.’’ I shrank back at that. But then realized it was probably just his attempt To make me feel bad. ‘’you said that I was your girl. That doesn’t mean that I’m your girlfriend.’’ I said promptly. I crossed my arms across my chest and stared up at him. ‘’What were you doing that was so important that I had to be babysat? Hmm?’’ He looked down at me. ‘’I was taking care of business. And I’m a one woman man, thank you very much.’’ I squinted at him, feeling terrible. ‘’and you are my girlfriend. Whether you like it or not.’’ He said with a taunting smirk. In my confusion, he kissed me, deeply and possessively before continuing on with his earlier ministrations.
‘’So.. you’re not mad?’’
I asked raising an eyebrow. I was expecting him to be more vocal about it. But all I got was a shake of the head.

‘’Are you sure?’’ I asked softly.

‘’Amaryllis?’’

‘’Yes?’’

‘’Shut up.’’

I sat quiet and lay back on the sheets as he kissed my thighs, I whimpered and once again pushed myself closer to him. He sucked softly on the inside and switched it up, nipping the flesh and licking it afterwards. He was teasing. And I knew he was. I closed my eyes and threw my head back into the pillows as he caressed my thighs. His breathing getting heavier than mine was.

And then a loud scream filled the room and a wave of pain washed over me.

Oh… the scream was mine.

He had bitten down into the inside of my thigh. Hard. I felt it was enough to draw blood. I sat up in a flurry and backed up into the headboard.

‘’what the fuck?!’’ I screamed looking down at my thigh, which surprise, surprise, was riddled with his teeth marks, and around the perimeter it was already starting to form a bruise. All I got in response was Choi’s smug face, and it stayed smug even as he got up to retrieve a condom from his side table drawer. I opened my mouth to say more but he grabbed my ankle and yanked my back down to him.

‘’Shush, and let me show you what I can do… What Woo Jiho will never be able to.’’

He sat back and finished stripping himself of his clothes. My eyes widened a little bit and I bit my lip as I watched as he stroked himself a few time. ‘’No more games.’’ He growled and crawled on top of me. He silenced my needy whimpering with a rough kiss. His hands finally snaked down to touch me. Entering me with ease. I moaned into his mouth as he added another finger. Then another. The feeling of being slightly stretched wasn’t all that uncomfortable;

it wasn’t as if I had never touched myself before this. It was the 21st century!
I kept moaning into Choi’s mouth until it became too much for him. He buried his face and commented on how wet I was for him. And all I could do to respond was muster up a faint. ‘’Ah..Ahh.’’ I was half asleep and half dazed when I finally felt him slide his fingers out of me and re position himself so that he was lined up with my entrance. I was so zoned out, my brain didn’t register that he was speaking to me. ‘’H-huh?’’ I murmured drowsily. Choi chuckled and rolled his eyes.

‘’I Said, ‘Do you trust me?’ ‘’ I quickly responded with ‘’No.’’ Then laughed with him as he kissed me.

‘’…Yes. Yes. I trust you.’’

That was all I needed to say before he nudged my knees father apart with his knee, realigned himself and slowly began to push into me. I bit my lip as the feeling of being stretched took over. It didn’t hurt, it was just strangely uncomfortable at the beginning. The feeling of being filled up completely until he couldn’t fit anymore in.

He was… just the right size. Not that I had been with any others before. It just felt nice even before the throbbing faded away. And it only did so because Choi impatiently began to move inside of me. It was rhythmic, his stroked were lean and slow, but hard. He buried his face into the crook of my neck ad grunted as he moved. I angled myself so that my legs were wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer and driving him to go faster. I moaned. And kept moaning. As he held down my hips and drove into me like it was his job, as he hand once again crept down to play with my sensitive nub.

And moaned as he moaned. When I raked ,y nails down his back, and held him close to me for dear life before I came all around his length. I wasn’t really given a chance to ride out my high, I lay there like a rag doll whimpering, calling his name, and climaxing at least two more times before he finished.

To be honest, it wasn’t at all what I thought my first time would be like. Not this wild. And I didn’t thing I’d be this spent. And I certainly didn’t think that my first time would be with a gang leader. After a few seconds. Choi pulled his softening erection out of me and shuddered against me before rolling over.

I knew better. There would be know lovey dovey resolve that came with it. So I didn’t say anything to him. Mind you, I couldn’t because ,y voice was somewhat lost through euphoria. I gasped in surprise as I was suddenly pulled against his toned, lightly sweaty chest, and his lips gingerly kissed my temple.

‘’If I ever here about you messing around with another man. I’ll kill you and him.’’

Notes

yeah... My smut is a little rusty....