What is Life
Acceptance?
DK’s POV
I.....was speechless. All I wanted was to give her a back hug and tell her that everything would be okay as long as I was around but I was bound by my contract. Too. Many. Emotions.
“Did you realize that you just put all of us in jeopardy?”
"미안해요, 형. 정말 몰랐어요."
“I’m sorry, hyeong. I really didn’t know.”
“Oh really? What if someone followed you and took a picture of you? We’re all going to be screwed. For once 석민아, 제발 (Seokmin-a, please). Think about SEVENTEEN and don’t be selfish.”
I was back at Pledis Entertainment and found 승철이 형 (Seongcheol-i hyeong) and 지훈이 형 (Jihoon-I hyeong) conversing when they called me over.
“I know you love her. I know you might think that she’s your everything but think of all the blood, sweat and tears that we shed so that we all could debut and we did. Stay away from her, leave her alone. It’s for the best for both of you.” warned 승철이 형 (SeongCheol-i hyeong).
“Look, I’m sorry for being so harsh but you’re not a kid anymore and you have to realize that. It’s no longer a playground. It’s the real world out there and I need us to survive.” 지훈이 형 (Jihoon-I hyeong) gave me a cold stare and I knew I went over the line now. He might be a bully at times but he wasn’t a busybody. He trusted all of us to be at our best behavior. He would only butt into a problem when it had become too severe.
I couldn’t even lift up my head in front of them. They were right. Everything that they said was right but I could not deny the fact that it still bothered me - her and her problems.
승철이 형(Seungcheol-i hyeong) put his arm around my shoulder. “괜잖아 (It’s okay). At least you met her for the last time. If you need someone to talk to, you can always come to me or 지훈(Jihoon). But please, just don’t cause any more trouble, 알았어 (do you understand)?”
I nodded. I knew I had to let go. It wasn’t my choice anymore. I guess when I traded love for my dream, love was never an option for me anymore, at least not while we were still rookies. I gritted my teeth and decided at that moment that I would do what it takes to protect her behind the scenes until I could finally be with her again.
I shouldn’t trouble my brothers anymore. I should, nope, have to be okay for the sake of everyone, for the best for all of us. I have to go back wearing my mask - the happy virus.
< song of the moment >
Catherine’s POV
What was he thinking?
Only after a few months, he came looking for me like a lost puppy. It was partially my fault for texting him that day but it was an emergency. I really thought that only he could make me feel better but I forgot the fact that their leader must had hold on to the members’ phones.
I was clumsy all day long, quite not in the right state of mind to be frank, to the extent that the chief editor decided to let me off early. I told her that I was having a rough day and she understood but I knew that tomorrow I had to get my act back together. There was never any second chances in this industry.
I really thought of going back to my place and just sleep but even the thought of spending my time alone in my place was not enticing as it had always been.
Maybe I should visit my adorable little sweethearts to lighten up my mood.
“Wah! 떡볶이 다 (Ddeokboki da)!”
Within a second, I was swarmed by an army of adorableness. Lovelyz.
“Just a warning. I didn’t buy a lot because all of you have to maintain your weight, okay.”
“Yes, 언니 (eonni)!”
Soon enough, they were stuffing their mouth with it. They just finished their practice and coincidentally started their lunch break when I got in. Lucky them, I supposed. I was catching up with them on my internship and their experience so far in the events that they went since they debuted. They were the sweetest little girls like legit. The fact that they didn’t have cellphones of their own was quite upsetting but I guessed it was for their own good. With all the dirty little secrets I heard from the insiders, it was safer for them to live without one at this stage of their idol lives.
They were gushing over all the male idols. They even mentioned how much they adore L. He was a visual god though. Names kept thrown out until one of them mentioned DK. I kept on a straight face and giggled with them. They didn’t need to know about my relationship with him. Kei picked up on my facial expressions though and she pestered me about it in private but I told her that I would tell her someday but not today. As I was helping them clear up the mess, the door swung open.
All the girls stood up and bowed. “Hello, 우현 선배님 (Woohyun seonbaenim).”
He laughed a hearty smile and asked everyone to just call him 오빠 (oppa) instead of 선배님(seonbaenim). He noticed me by the corner of his eyes but chose to address the girls first, asking about their practice and giving them advices while at the same time, encouraging them. I knew him as one of the good guys but I didn’t know he constantly checked on Lovelyz too. The girls seem to adore him as well.
After he finished addressing the girls, he turned to me, “and who are you? I’ve never seen you here before.”
The girls immediately came to my defense and told him about how they met me and how we became close since then.
“Oh, I get it. You get their trust but how do I know that you won’t tell anything to the journalists about them or me?”
It was normal for him to be very distrusting considering how every little information can be used against him. Such a scary world, right?
“I would have told them about Lovelyz a long time ago if I were that kind of person, 우현 씨(Woohyun-ssi). But, here I am still being accepted by them so I guess that’s the proof that you need.”
He nodded in response and in the end, he believed me. He offered to escort me out of the building since the girls had to continue practicing. I bid farewell to the girls and followed him out.
It was apparent that he felt quite intimidated by my height. He wasn’t wearing his shoe lifts and he was shorter than me in my platforms. Nonetheless, he was polite enough to keep on engaging in conversations with me. He was amused by how I wasn’t phased by celebrities since most people would. I just remarked about how they were still normal people and therefore, should not be treated any differently. He had this smile on his face till we reached the exit. He welcomed me back anytime and to greet him whenever I see him. We parted ways.
To be honest, my heart was beating hard. I was his fan for quite some time but I was really glad that I could act naturally in front of him. He looked pale and thinner than usual though, which made me worried. I should bring him some healthy food when I visit Woolim next time.
Even after my ‘fan girl’ experience, I couldn’t stop thinking about DK. I had to hold back every single cell in my body to not turn back and hug him. Why couldn’t we still be together when both of us could still reach for our dreams regardless? I thought.
My phone rang and had managed to wake me up from my daydream.
It was a private number. The phone kept on ringing while I pondered whether I should pick it up. I had always hated answering calls from private numbers but for some unknown reason, that day, I wasn’t me.
“여보세요”
“Hello.”
“Hey, are you free now?”
This familiar voice. I had to check my phone again to make sure that I was really in a phone call and not dreaming.
“Yes, but why may I ask?”
“Do you perhaps wanna have dinner with me?”
I blushed and hesitated a lot because it wasn’t everyday you get to eat with such person. I was just worried that I might make a mistake. I was emotionally unstable after all.
“Yeah, sure.”
“Cool. I’ll meet you at 7. I’ll text you the place and sorry for having to call you with a private number. You know why, right?”
“Okay. See you there then!”
I hung up and wondered whether I made the right decision at that eventful night.
I.....was speechless. All I wanted was to give her a back hug and tell her that everything would be okay as long as I was around but I was bound by my contract. Too. Many. Emotions.
“Did you realize that you just put all of us in jeopardy?”
"미안해요, 형. 정말 몰랐어요."
“I’m sorry, hyeong. I really didn’t know.”
“Oh really? What if someone followed you and took a picture of you? We’re all going to be screwed. For once 석민아, 제발 (Seokmin-a, please). Think about SEVENTEEN and don’t be selfish.”
I was back at Pledis Entertainment and found 승철이 형 (Seongcheol-i hyeong) and 지훈이 형 (Jihoon-I hyeong) conversing when they called me over.
“I know you love her. I know you might think that she’s your everything but think of all the blood, sweat and tears that we shed so that we all could debut and we did. Stay away from her, leave her alone. It’s for the best for both of you.” warned 승철이 형 (SeongCheol-i hyeong).
“Look, I’m sorry for being so harsh but you’re not a kid anymore and you have to realize that. It’s no longer a playground. It’s the real world out there and I need us to survive.” 지훈이 형 (Jihoon-I hyeong) gave me a cold stare and I knew I went over the line now. He might be a bully at times but he wasn’t a busybody. He trusted all of us to be at our best behavior. He would only butt into a problem when it had become too severe.
I couldn’t even lift up my head in front of them. They were right. Everything that they said was right but I could not deny the fact that it still bothered me - her and her problems.
승철이 형(Seungcheol-i hyeong) put his arm around my shoulder. “괜잖아 (It’s okay). At least you met her for the last time. If you need someone to talk to, you can always come to me or 지훈(Jihoon). But please, just don’t cause any more trouble, 알았어 (do you understand)?”
I nodded. I knew I had to let go. It wasn’t my choice anymore. I guess when I traded love for my dream, love was never an option for me anymore, at least not while we were still rookies. I gritted my teeth and decided at that moment that I would do what it takes to protect her behind the scenes until I could finally be with her again.
I shouldn’t trouble my brothers anymore. I should, nope, have to be okay for the sake of everyone, for the best for all of us. I have to go back wearing my mask - the happy virus.
< song of the moment >
Catherine’s POV
What was he thinking?
Only after a few months, he came looking for me like a lost puppy. It was partially my fault for texting him that day but it was an emergency. I really thought that only he could make me feel better but I forgot the fact that their leader must had hold on to the members’ phones.
I was clumsy all day long, quite not in the right state of mind to be frank, to the extent that the chief editor decided to let me off early. I told her that I was having a rough day and she understood but I knew that tomorrow I had to get my act back together. There was never any second chances in this industry.
I really thought of going back to my place and just sleep but even the thought of spending my time alone in my place was not enticing as it had always been.
Maybe I should visit my adorable little sweethearts to lighten up my mood.
“Wah! 떡볶이 다 (Ddeokboki da)!”
Within a second, I was swarmed by an army of adorableness. Lovelyz.
“Just a warning. I didn’t buy a lot because all of you have to maintain your weight, okay.”
“Yes, 언니 (eonni)!”
Soon enough, they were stuffing their mouth with it. They just finished their practice and coincidentally started their lunch break when I got in. Lucky them, I supposed. I was catching up with them on my internship and their experience so far in the events that they went since they debuted. They were the sweetest little girls like legit. The fact that they didn’t have cellphones of their own was quite upsetting but I guessed it was for their own good. With all the dirty little secrets I heard from the insiders, it was safer for them to live without one at this stage of their idol lives.
They were gushing over all the male idols. They even mentioned how much they adore L. He was a visual god though. Names kept thrown out until one of them mentioned DK. I kept on a straight face and giggled with them. They didn’t need to know about my relationship with him. Kei picked up on my facial expressions though and she pestered me about it in private but I told her that I would tell her someday but not today. As I was helping them clear up the mess, the door swung open.
All the girls stood up and bowed. “Hello, 우현 선배님 (Woohyun seonbaenim).”
He laughed a hearty smile and asked everyone to just call him 오빠 (oppa) instead of 선배님(seonbaenim). He noticed me by the corner of his eyes but chose to address the girls first, asking about their practice and giving them advices while at the same time, encouraging them. I knew him as one of the good guys but I didn’t know he constantly checked on Lovelyz too. The girls seem to adore him as well.
After he finished addressing the girls, he turned to me, “and who are you? I’ve never seen you here before.”
The girls immediately came to my defense and told him about how they met me and how we became close since then.
“Oh, I get it. You get their trust but how do I know that you won’t tell anything to the journalists about them or me?”
It was normal for him to be very distrusting considering how every little information can be used against him. Such a scary world, right?
“I would have told them about Lovelyz a long time ago if I were that kind of person, 우현 씨(Woohyun-ssi). But, here I am still being accepted by them so I guess that’s the proof that you need.”
He nodded in response and in the end, he believed me. He offered to escort me out of the building since the girls had to continue practicing. I bid farewell to the girls and followed him out.
It was apparent that he felt quite intimidated by my height. He wasn’t wearing his shoe lifts and he was shorter than me in my platforms. Nonetheless, he was polite enough to keep on engaging in conversations with me. He was amused by how I wasn’t phased by celebrities since most people would. I just remarked about how they were still normal people and therefore, should not be treated any differently. He had this smile on his face till we reached the exit. He welcomed me back anytime and to greet him whenever I see him. We parted ways.
To be honest, my heart was beating hard. I was his fan for quite some time but I was really glad that I could act naturally in front of him. He looked pale and thinner than usual though, which made me worried. I should bring him some healthy food when I visit Woolim next time.
Even after my ‘fan girl’ experience, I couldn’t stop thinking about DK. I had to hold back every single cell in my body to not turn back and hug him. Why couldn’t we still be together when both of us could still reach for our dreams regardless? I thought.
My phone rang and had managed to wake me up from my daydream.
It was a private number. The phone kept on ringing while I pondered whether I should pick it up. I had always hated answering calls from private numbers but for some unknown reason, that day, I wasn’t me.
“여보세요”
“Hello.”
“Hey, are you free now?”
This familiar voice. I had to check my phone again to make sure that I was really in a phone call and not dreaming.
“Yes, but why may I ask?”
“Do you perhaps wanna have dinner with me?”
I blushed and hesitated a lot because it wasn’t everyday you get to eat with such person. I was just worried that I might make a mistake. I was emotionally unstable after all.
“Yeah, sure.”
“Cool. I’ll meet you at 7. I’ll text you the place and sorry for having to call you with a private number. You know why, right?”
“Okay. See you there then!”
I hung up and wondered whether I made the right decision at that eventful night.
Notes
Who might the caller be?
What's certain is that it wasn't DK.
Stay tuned for the next chapter to find out who it was ;)
I'm so sorry for the late update. I usually post daily but I was too carried away by editing videos :'(
Currently working on editing a special ver. for Monsta X - Amen MV (Special Clip)
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College is starting soon as well so I can only post the updates at least weekly.
Thank you for reading thus far and love you all!!
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I am enjoying so much tat my parents have to warn me haha
who might be the caller??!!? better ignore the question or else I might get the wrong guess again haha n ur late update is nothing coz I can wait for like forever haha anyways keep it up <3<3<3 m lovin
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