Life with BIGBANG

I was putting my make up on in the mirror when I hear my phone start playing “Bad Boy” by Big Bang. Wow its already 1:00 AM? I turned off my alarm and put my eyeliner away. Very slowly I opened the door hoping no one would hear me leaving the room. I start walking down the hallway and turn the corner to T.O.P’s room. I lightly knocked on the door hoping to not raise attention of the others. T.O.P quickly opened the door and I walked in passed him. This was the fifth night of us sneaking with each other so we had the routine pretty down.

I set my phone down on the side table checking the 7:00 alarm. As I turned around T.O.P put one hand onto my side pulling me in for a short kiss. We broke away and I set down on the bed taking off my slippers.

“So how was the studio today?” I asked him.

“Normal I guess. Just started filming a new video. I would much rather talk about you though.” He stated bluntly as he playfully poked my forehead with an index finger. I played along and fell backwards. I loved his playfulness.

“Well what about me do you want to know?” I asked lightly throwing a pillow at him.

He grabbed the pillow and jumped on the bed next to me tapping it on my shoulder. “Anything. Everything? What your home life was like. What do your parents do? Why did you come all the way out here?” after saying this he hit me with the pillow again.

I didn’t want to answer his last question and all I could think about was Zach. He was such an asshole. But I didn’t want him to get in the way of mine and T.O.P’s night so I tried shrugging it off and grabbed a new pillow and swung back at him. Before I knew it we were in a full blown pillow fight on his bed. Out of breath he flops on the bed next to me. “So back to my questions?” He asks.

“Well my parents are still married and own their own business. I have a younger brother who is going to school to be a teacher. And up until I came here I was still living with them while I went to school.” I reached over and pulled the pillow out from under his head and throwing it across the room hoping to distract him from my one unanswered question.

He then reaches over and wrestles me to the floor. I fight to get on top of him but to no avail. He has me pinned down pretty good with my hands over my head. “So what is the business your parents have?”

I strain against his strong hands to flip him over to keep our game going. “They own a doughnut shop.” The excitement he got from this was enough distraction for me to flip him over.

“I love doughnuts!” He nearly yells.

“Shhh!” I say laughing. “You’re going to wake the others.”

“Oh! Sorry.” We both start laughing at his sudden reaction. “So why did you leave all of that to come here? There must have been a pretty big thing to make you want to go all the way across the world. And all from a few texts with Kat.”

I paused for a moment to think of how to word this. I was surprised he didn’t take this opportunity to keep our wrestling game going. “Did Kat really not tell you guys?” I ask a little surprised.

“No she said ‘It’s not my place to tell’ so we just left it at that. Well that is except Rachel. She was very worried.” I felt bad. I didn’t want Rachel to worry. I knew it was strange I just showed up without a word but I was so embarrassed about what happened. When I didn’t answer he began to speak again. “You don’t have to tell me. Whatever it was I’m sure it was well deserved to get away.” He then stood up taking me with him and flopped down onto the bed. He laid down next to me and lightly played with my short hair.

I looked into his eyes and just got lost in my own thoughts. But I kept returning to that dreaded moment. I knew that I just needed to talk to someone about it. I just didn’t know how. “T.O.P?”
He looked up at me not saying a word. “My ex broke up with me and the reason was because he had met someone else.” I paused for the next sentence. “And he had been cheating on me for three months with her.”

He didn’t say anything as he sat up on one arm. He leaned down and caressed my cheek then met is lips to mine. When we parted I curled up on his chest and started to fall asleep. It felt like only five seconds when my alarm went off saying it was time to sneak back to my room.

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