Love for you

“It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart”

A faint, desperate smile stretched on his lips and pain, made its way through his eyes quickly.

“Without saying a word, you can light up the dark”

He rubbed his eyes with the back of his left hand and tried smiling once again while squeezing her hand, he had in his right hand, but it didn’t work at all. His breath hitched and swollen red eyes welled up once again as soon as he tried drying them. Eun-hee’s peaceful face in his eyes went vague and he unconsciously let out an ‘embarrassed laugh’ mumbling sorry to the sleeping figure in front of his eyes as he started singing once again.

“Try as I may, I could never explain,
What I hear when you don't say a thing.”

He rubbed his thumb on the back of her hand and smiled once more. A sad yet breathtaking smile. He sighed slowly crying with shoulders shaking and head hanging low but he didn’t want to stop singing so he tried to hold back. He tried hard and yet his eyes remained teary and Eun-hee’s face blur. He didn’t want her to fade away like that in a fog of his tears. He didn’t want her to disappear in the silence and he definitely didn’t want her to go away in any ways.

“The smile on your face
Lets me know that you need me.”

He desperately wanted to see her smile once again. The shining face of her with a gorgeous smile playing on the lips or even a smirk for him would work. He just wished for her lips to twitch. The peaceful yet expressionless face of hers, scared him and was scaring him that it wouldn’t ever have a smile. It scared him and it made his heart ache with pain and in desperate need of seeing her smile.

“There's a truth in your eyes
Saying, you'll never leave me.”

How he wished, it would happen. He wanted her eyes to open and tell him that she’ll never leave him this way. He wanted her eyes to speak the truth. He wanted her eyes to tell him that the truth was he wasn’t guilty and if she’s with him, he can get over with any pain or hard time. If she’d never leave him like that, he could go through anything.

“The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall”

He unconsciously stretched her hand, caressing her long milky fingers with his own thin long fingers. The cold and slightly pink tips of her hand felt like piano keys and he gently pressed each tip with the each finger of his hand. Index finger’s tip pressed the index finger’s tip and a piano key sound ringed his head unconsciously. He smiled absentmindedly. Middle finger’s tip pressed the middle finger’s tip and a cold fraction let out a twinkle only he could see in his mind. He smile grew a little more. When ring finger’s tip touched the ring finger’s tip of hers, their platinum rings sparkled under the light together and he pleasantly laughed without a voice. He unconsciously started singing again_

“All day long I can hear
People talking out loud
But when you hold me near, You drown out the crowd”

A tear fell on her pinky finger’s tip and he, with a broken smile touched the drop of tear with his pinky finger’s tip that quickly slipped away between their fingers causing a shapeless line to form on her finger to the other end of her hand than disappearing somewhere there, he couldn’t find.

“Try as they may, they can never define
What's been said between your heart and mine.”

He smiled and continued playing with the keys of her fingers’ tips as if he was playing a piano with one hand and at each touch, he could hear a sound of twinkle as if the stars were chuckling at his actions from afar.

His cheek continued glistering with warm water falling from the edges of his red dark brown eyes, spilling from the tips of lashes and falling on the piano keys he was playing with all the way through his red burning cheeks. A broken smiled continued playing on his visibly defined lips and a pang of pain kept on hurting him intimidating the tears that continued blurring his eyes without any second thought it could ever get.

He inhaled sharply and his breath hitched once again with sobs that kept on making their ways out.

“Yixing hyung told me it’s your favorite song,” he smiled but Eun-hee didn’t respond. He instantly looked away if as he was afraid of getting caught crying for her by Eun-hee. However, he wasn’t sure if he’d ever be able to get caught by her doing the things he had never imagined he would ever do for someone. “Now get up when you heard my gorgeous voice,” he laughed at his own made up line but rubbed his tears from his eyes when she didn’t tell him that how bad his singing was and how silly he was to always be in smug for his doings. He wanted her to tell him that but she didn’t and it hurt. It deeply hurt and he couldn’t help but let out a loud sob taking her hand in his hand once again. “But don’t tell me you are not thankful. I_ I want you to fight with me. I want you_ want you to tell me that my everything belongs to you_ I may never admit but you shouldn’t stop claiming anything_but_ but you can’t claim me alright?_,” he lightly pressed his lips at the back of her hand and his tears pooled at the back of her hand when he didn’t let it go for a long time. “Get up now, no girl let me cross her way as if I’ve betrayed the whole nation of Korea by marrying you. So,_ so I’ve no one to flirt with_ You better get up now because_”

He hung his head low and within a sob, a whisper gotten chocked away. Nobody could heard it but it was just a little thing that showed his heart. A minor thing that expressed his feelings. Very little thing that told her how guilty he felt because he said_

“I want to say ‘sorry’”

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Notes

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