Remembering Elizabeth (Featuring Suho and Sehun)

I was always glad to see the morning come. The nights were tortuous and the fitful sleeping made me have less and less energy during the day. It was taking a toll on Sehun too. He slept later every day. This morning when I woke up, I was surprised to find him asleep on the little couch, his feet hanging far over the edge and his face pushed into the tiny hard matching pillow. I thought back to the particularly harsh dream I had had that brought him into my room and I remember also seeing Bacon standing in the doorway watching as Sehun soothed me back to sleep. It was the first time he had stayed in the room.
I laid there for a while just admiring the perfection that was Sehun. He was so classically handsome. Long sexy lines and muscles in just the right places. Looking at Sehun gave me dirty thoughts. Lots and lots of dirty thoughts. I looked at his hands and thought of how they felt on my skin. He was powerful but gentle. I thought of his soft lips moving against my mouth as his tongue entangled mine. As I looked at him and let my mind wander, I absentmindedly let my hand slide under the covers. I reached down and letting my fingers slide under my panties, I began intimately touching myself. I thought of my hands sliding up his back and I brought my other hand up to my mouth and softly bit down on one finger.
Sehun turned over onto his back with a soft sleepy moan and his shirt came up, affording me a great look at his abdomen. It also revealed that he was hard. Most likely he had to pee but that didn’t lessen the arousal that I felt looking at him. When I was very close to climax, I heard a voice in the direction of the doorway say, “He looks like a baby when he’s sleeping, doesn’t he?”
It was Bacon. I squealed and sat up in a flash to face him, pulling the comforter up to my chin. “BACON! You scared me to death!” I yelled.
“I can see that,” he said with a little laugh and came over to sit on the end of the bed. I could feel my face growing hotter and redder as Bacon gave me a questioning look.
Sehun began to stir and sat up, rubbing his eyes.
“You had a hard night last night. Are you okay?” asked Bacon.
“I’m always okay in the morning,” I said. “I don’t usually remember my dreams.” Just my daydreams! My face turned another shade of red.
“Oh,” Bacon said as he nodded. “Sehun! Dude! Either cover that thing up or go get rid of it,” said Bacon as he threw Sehun a pillow from the bed.
I covered my face with the soft silk of the blanket and wished for death. Or for my body to melt into an invisible puddle. Anything but being there in that moment. I heard a loud smacking sound and Bacon yelling, “OW! What!”
I don’t know if it was the combination of the smacking sound and the feel of the silk on my face but for an instant, some of the soft material entered my mouth when I breathed in and an image came to me. It wasn’t really an image because it was black but that was because it was an image of another comforter. A black satin comforter. I was choking on it. I could feel the material filling my mouth and pain all over the rest of my body. I couldn’t see but I knew that my kidnapper was behind me, invading me, and there was nothing I could do about any of it.
When the image began to fade, I found myself, still in the bed, cradled in Sehun’s arms. Bacon was standing over us with a terrified look on his face. Sehun was wiping tears from my face. When I looked up into his eyes, he asked, “Are you back? Are you with me?”
I nodded. I felt weak.
“Can I go back to sleep for a little while?” I mumbled.
“Mmm-hmm,” he said and hugged me to him. “Do you want me to stay in the room with you?”
I shook my head as my eyes were already drooping closed.
“Alright. I’m going to be in my room with the door open. If you need me, just yell for me okay?” said Sehun.
I barely nodded as sleep took over my mind and body.

When I woke up, I heard beautiful soft music playing. It was Bacon’s song. He had done as he had promised and made a copy for my room. I smiled, forgetting the events of the morning. I got up, showered, changed and stepped out of my room, the music still playing. I peeked into Sehun’s room and found him all dressed up and doing something on a laptop.
He looked up and smiled. “Hey there.”
“Hi. Whatcha doing?” I asked.
“Just playing around on the Internet. Actually, I have a surprise for you,” he said closing the laptop and standing up.
“What? What kind of surprise?” I got excited.
“Well, your sister flew in last night and she wants to see you as soon as possible. She has to leave tonight so I told her we would go as soon as you woke up.”
My excited feeling turned into panic. “Oh.”
Sehun’s smile fell. “Don’t you want to see your sister?” he asked.
“I don’t know.” He looked confused. “I don’t know her,” I said.
Sehun took my hands. “I know. But you didn’t know us either. She’s your family. You need to get to know her.”
I looked at my hands being swallowed by his. “You’re right. Do I look okay? Should I change?”
“You look perfect. Come on. I’ll go with you.”

Suho had offered for my sister to stay at his house but she said she was more comfortable in the hotel. That’s cause she hasn’t seen his house! I thought.
I fidgeted in the lobby. I fidgeted more in the elevator. When we got to her door and knocked, my heart was about to jump out of my chest. Sehun grabbed my hand and I instantly felt calmer. The door opened and a woman who didn’t look like me at all was standing before me. She was blond with green eyes, and I had auburn hair and brown eyes. She was my height and had my coloring and I guess she looked like she could be my sister but I didn’t recognize her at all. She was beautiful with the biggest smile and I began to panic again when I realized I had never asked her name.
With tears in her eyes, this strange beautiful woman wrapped her arms around me and squeezed the air out of me. “Oh my Bethie! I have missed you so much. I love you!”
I hugged her back but absolutely nothing was coming to me. We went into the room and she never let go of my hand. I know she could see the blank look on my face and it had to hurt her. “I really hate this but, I don’t know your name.”
I watched as her face fell a little but she still smiled. “It’s Gwen. I know you can’t remember and it’s okay. I just had to see you. You have a family in America that is looking forward to you coming home. They would like to talk to you if that would be okay.”
“I guess so. I have to tell you that I don’t remember anyone. I don’t want anyone’s feelings to be hurt.” I felt bad.
“They all know. They just want to see you.” She stood up and put both hands on my cheeks.
“Okay.” I felt very uncomfortable but every time I started to feel like it was too much, Sehun would hold my hand or put his hand on my back and I would breathe easier.
Gwen turned on her laptop and I watched as the screen filled with strangers. There were a lot of them but the one I talked to the most was a sweet lady that said she was my mother. It was strange not knowing your mother. They were all very sweet and beautiful and I was ready to get to know them all again when I was well. We spent the rest of the evening with my sister and then she had to go.
I really liked this woman that was my sister. I was surprised when I cried as she waved goodbye at the airport.

That night Bacon made sure that his song played in my room softly as I slept and when I woke up the next morning, I hadn’t had one bad dream all night. I felt better than I had in a long time.
I went down to breakfast but the only one I found was Bacon. Suho and Sehun had meetings to attend.
“Good morning beautiful. You slept well last night. Did I have anything to do with that?” asked Bacon as I sat down in my usual seat.
“Good morning and I think you did.” I smiled. The maid came in and filled my plate.
Before she left the room he said, “I thought that was you that crawled into my bed last night.”
I was stunned. “BACON!”
“Oh wait! Maybe that was a dream. My bad.” He winked and grinned.
The maid rolled her eyes. I flushed red.
“It was your song and you know it!” I said.
“I’m glad it helped,” he said as he buttered a breakfast roll. “After breakfast, would you like a dancing lesson?”
“I would love that! I can’t wait for the ball!”
Bacon smiled at me and popped a bite of buttered roll in his mouth. He continued to stare at me as he took a drink of juice.
“What?” I asked and poured syrup on a waffle.
“Suho said I shouldn’t bother you about it but I’m really curious. Can I ask you a question about what happened to you?”
My smile faded. “I don’t really know anything but sure, you can ask.”
“Your dreams at night and the episodes you have, they are memories aren’t they?” He became very serious.
“Yes. I don’t remember them afterward though,” I said.
“Are you sure you don’t remember anything? I mean what do you know about it? Suho wouldn’t tell me anything except that you were kidnapped and tortured and that you have amnesia.”
“I know a little more than that. Not much. Are you sure you want to know?” I put my fork down and looked him in the eyes.
“I do. When you have episodes like this morning, it freaks me out. If I knew a little about why you have them, I think it would make it easier to take.”
“I’m sorry I scare you. You don’t have to worry when that happens. I’m really okay. It’s just my mind reliving what happened and maybe one day I’ll start to remember the visions. That’s the hope anyway,” I took a sip of milk.
“What happened?”
“Well, I was kidnapped and held prisoner for about five months. In that time I was starved, beaten, and raped. Then I was given a drug to make me forget, which is why I have amnesia, and I was left at the airport with a ticket to Amsterdam. I was with a guy named Tom but he left me there to get on the plane by myself and that’s when Suho found me.” It always made me ashamed to talk about it, like I had done something wrong, so it was hard to look Bacon in the eyes. I didn’t.
“So you know the guys name is Tom?” he asked.
“I don’t think that’s his real name. He also told me I was in China and that everyone was speaking Chinese.”
“Would you know his face if you saw him again?”
“Yes. I remember his face very well. I also know that he isn’t the one who did all of that stuff to me. I think he was just helping out the man who did.” I said still not looking at Bacon.
“Is that because you remember the face of the guy who did do it?” His voice got quiet.
I paused. Should I tell him? I haven’t told Suho or even Sehun. “Uh, I do remember his face. I saw him one day outside of a diner that Sehun and I were eating at. I ended up in the hospital because it caused a very violent reaction. I hope I never see him again.”
“If you do, please tell me. I’d like to fu… well, let’s just say he would be the one who ended up in the hospital. If he made it that far.”
“You’re sweet.” I smiled at him.
“I can’t eat anymore so are you ready for your lesson?” he asked as he stood up.
“I am. Should I get my shoes to practice in?”
“I think you should work without them first. Actually practice walking in them before you practice dancing in them. I’ll meet you in the ballroom.” He left.
I’m glad to have Bacon helping me but I wish it were Sehun.

When I got to the ballroom, Bacon was putting some music on the stereo system. He turned to me and said, “Would you like to warm up with some twirling first?”
“Bacon!” I said and smacked his chest. He laughed.
“Okay, we’ll start with basic steps. You don’t really have to know that much. Most of the people that will be coming are idols and they already know how to dance. They’ll just swing you around where they want you.”
I laughed.
“That is if they can get you away from me!”
“Uh-huh. I see. Plan on being my bodyguard then?” I asked.
“Bodyguard? Yeah. Sure. That’s exactly what I meant.” He wiggled his eyebrows at me.
We both laughed.
Bacon took me in his arms and started swinging me around just like he said the others would do. “See! You’re a natural. Just go where they put you and you’ll be fine. Now, slow dancing is easier. The man leads so again, just go where he puts you.” He put one hand on my lower back and grabbed my hand with the other. He pulled me close. Very close. “You know what? Let’s do it this way.” He put my arms around his neck and both of his around my waist and held me tight. He began to sway and took me with him.
I breathed in the smell of his cologne. It was different from Sehun’s. Sehun always smelled sexy and sensual. Bacon smelled more masculine and strong. He put his face down close to my neck and I could feel his breath near my ear. It was warm and every now and then he made the softest of hums. All of a sudden, I became very aware of his body. The feel of his shoulders moving under my hands. This thighs touching mine with every step. His hair touching my cheek. My breasts pressed against his chest. I liked the way his body moved. I started to feel warm and tingly all over and I knew it was time for the lesson to be over.
I gently pushed away from Bacon and I could see in his eyes that he was feeling the same way I was. “Thank you for the lesson. I have something I need to do now.”
“Um, yeah, me too. Uh, another lesson tomorrow after breakfast?” he asked.
“Yeah. That would be great.” I practically ran out of the room. I went to my room and shut the door. I usually hated the door shut but right now I needed that barrier. I went over to the bed and fell into the soft blankets. I smooshed my face into the pillows and screamed. I kicked my feet and screamed. Sehun. Sehun. Sehun. Think about Sehun. Think about Sehun. I did. And then I thought of Bacon’s body pressed against mine. No! No! No! No! I screamed again. I turned over, tired and breathing hard, and stared at the canopy. What is wrong with me? Why am I thinking of either of them? I can’t have them. I’m not even staying here forever and neither are they. I need to stop! I need a distraction. I need to cool off. I decided it was time to see if I knew how to swim.

I didn’t have a bathing suit so I wore a pair of Sehun’s shorts and a t-shirt that I tucked in. The water was so cold. Just what I needed. At first, I just stood in the shallow end and let my body get acclimated to the temperature. I didn’t know if I could swim but I wasn’t afraid of the water. I went under and opened my eyes. The water was so clear that I could almost see to the other end. I turned over on my back and found that I knew how to float. It was coming back to me. I do know how to swim. I turned over and swam to the deep end. It felt good to get some exercise. I swam back to the other end but the clothes I was wearing was getting in the way. I had an idea. A really dumb idea as it turned out but I did it anyway. I got out and locked the door to the pool room. I cut out the main lights which left only the pool lights and took off my clothes. Underwear is like a bikini anyway, right?
I climbed back in and swam to the other side. That was so much better. I swam back and forth a few times and then just played around. I decided to make one more lap before getting out so I swam to the deep end and back. When I came back up, I started to climb the ladder to get out when I saw him. I slowly slid back into the water and waded backwards until the water covered my chest.
“Sehun. Hi. How long have you been home?” I asked trying to hide my embarrassment.
He was leaning back in one of the chairs against the wall and sipping beer out of a green bottle. He was grinning like the Cheshire cat. “A while.”
“How long have you been in here?” I asked.
“A while.” He was being infuriating.
“I didn’t see you. You should have said something,” I said.
“Should I?”
“Yes. You should.” I waited for him to say something else but he just finished his beer. “Well, um, can you turn around so I can get out now? I’m done.”
“No.”
I couldn’t believe he said no! “Uh, what? Please?” I said.
“You aren’t done.” He stood up and took off his shirt. He began unbuttoning his khakis.
“What are you doing?” I semi-yelled and turned around.
“You look like you’re having so much fun that I’ve decided to join you. The doctor says swimming is good for my therapy.” I heard a splash.
Please let him be wearing boxers! He was.
“Sehun, um, I’m in my underwear.”
“So am I,” he said.
I swam backwards a little more and stood along the small ledge on the wall. I watched as he went to the other side of the pool and opened the door of a little box. He hit some buttons and music began to play. Very slow, sexy music. He turned and went under the water. I watched as he swam toward me. When he reached me, he grabbed my foot and pulled me off the ledge. I tried to grab the side before I went under but it slipped away from me as he pulled me to him.
He wrapped his arms around me and kissed me. His mouth was still on mine when we surfaced and he pushed me back against the pool wall. He pulled away and swam to the other side. I just watched him. He stood on the ledge on the other side, breathing hard, and shook the water out of his hair.
What the hell! I slipped into the water and swam to him. This time I pushed his body against the wall. I ran my hands up his chest and around his neck and pulled him down into a deep kiss. He wrapped his arms around me, putting one hand in my hair. We fell back into the water.
Sehun turned us in the water and pushed me back against the wall this time. He wrapped my legs around his waist and pulling my head back, kissed my neck. My world began to spin. I wanted him so much that I kept pulling him closer with my legs so that I could feel his arousal rub against mine. He moaned softly and put his tongue in my mouth. He rocked back and forth against me until I thought I would pass out in his arms. I got dizzy and saw stars and even my toes tingled. My body was aching to have him inside of me. My hands found their way into the back of his shorts and as I enjoyed the feel of his bare skin, he gasped into my ear and pulled my earlobe into his mouth as he continued rubbing against me. I became weak as I felt my climax coming closer.
The intercom dinged and Suho’s voice filled the room. He said, “Sehun? Are you in the pool room?”
Sehun stopped moving. He put his head back and squeezed his eyes shut. I could tell he was holding back his anger. “YES! What do you want?” he yelled.
“Don’t get out. I’ll just come there.” Then the intercom clicked.
I started to panic. “Sehun, I have to go! I at least have to put my clothes on.”
He moved so that I could swim to the ladder. It was hard to swim. My legs didn’t want to work. Getting out, I grabbed the towel and dried off as fast as I could and put the cold shorts and t-shirt back on. Sehun didn’t even try to get out an get dressed. He swam to the edge and leaned his chin on his hands as he watched me.
“You better unlock the door,” he said.
I went over to unlock the door and thought of something. “How did you get in?”
“I have a key,” he said.
I wrapped the towel around myself because I was freezing. “Well, I’m going to my room. I need to shower.”
“There’s a shower in there.” He pointed to the doorway to the left.
“That’s okay. It’s creepy in there,” I said.
Before I could leave, Suho came in.
“Hey guys! Playing Marco Polo?” Suho grinned.
“Something like that,” said Sehun.
I gave him an angry look.
Suho looked from me to Sehun and back again. Understanding began to dawn on him and I could see the redness rush to his cheeks.
“Well, uh, Sehun, ummm, I need to see you in uhh, my office for a few minutes. And ummm, Elizabeth, I thought that uh, maybe we could uh, watch a movie or something tonight. I’ll make popcorn.” Suho stuttered.
“As long as it’s not Daisy Chain,” I said before I could stop myself.
Both of their heads whipped toward me then they looked at each other.
“Well, uh, okay then. Uh, Sehun, whenever you’re ready.” Suho practically ran from the room.
I looked at Sehun and he burst out laughing. He laughed so hard he fell back into the water. I shook my head and went to take a shower.

On my way to the theater, I made sure to pass Suho’s office. I could hear him yelling at Sehun.
“What in the hell do you think you’re doing? She’s a victim of rape and you’re taking advantage of her?”
“It’s not like that Junie,” said Sehun.
“How is it then? Even if she consents, she doesn’t know how it will affect her. She doesn’t know what she’s doing.”
“That’s bullshit! She’s perfectly aware of what she’s doing and if she said no at any point I would stop! By the way, not that its any of your business, but we haven’t actually gone that far.”
“Not my business? She is under my care and protection! Everything that happens to her is my business! I didn’t put her in your care so that you could seduce her Sehun!” Suho slammed something on the desk. I winced.
Should I go in and tell my side? If I do, they’ll know that I was listening.
“Junie, I would never do anything to hurt that girl. I really like her. If you don’t want me to touch her while I’m in your house, I won’t. But don’t keep her away from me. Please.”
There was silence for what seemed like forever. Then Suho said, “I’ll leave her in your care for now. Don’t take advantage of her Sehun. I know she seems like a normal everyday girl but she’s far from it. If she gets her memories back, she could be a complete mess.”
“She’s stronger than that. She didn’t forget because of the abuse. She forgot because of a drug. She’ll be able to handle it,” said Sehun.
“I hope you’re right Sehun. But with the way she reacts to small memories, they are afraid that if they all come back at once, she could end up comatose. And never come out of it. I’m afraid that if you… are with her in that way, she could have a major episode that could destroy her. It would destroy you both.”
“It’s called sex Jun,” said Sehun.
“What?”
“You can say it. I’m a big boy now.”
“Shut up! Come on. She’s probably in the theater waiting for us and we don’t want her to find any of the other movies,” said Suho.
“It’s porn Junie. You watch it so you should be able to say it.”
“Shut up!”
They were coming toward the door so I ran. I was laughing but it was through tears. Suho hadn’t told me it was that bad. And now I couldn’t have Sehun either. What good was a mansion and a ball and a beautiful ball gown without a prince?
I hurried and sat in a seat and wiped furiously at my eyes. They couldn’t know that I had been crying or they would know I heard. I was freezing after my shower so I put on the biggest, fuzziest sweater I had bought. It was like cuddling in a big blanket. I curled up in the seat and put my knees under the sweater.
I expected to see Suho and Sehun come in but it was Bacon. “Hey there girly,” he said. He came in and fell into the seat beside me.
“Hey there Bacon. What are we watching?”
“I’m not sure. Suho insisted on picking it,” he said as he rolled his eyes.
I laughed to myself.
The other boys finally came in and Suho plopped a big tub of buttered popcorn between me and Bacon. He sat on my other side and Sehun sat behind me. Bacon put one arm around my shoulders and propped his feet on the seat in front of him, grabbing a handful of popcorn. Suho used a tiny remote control to turn down the lights and start the movie. I was surrounded by my boys and I should have felt safe and happy but I didn’t. I was a ticking time bomb. At any moment, something could trigger my memories and I could just be gone. Trapped in a nightmare world forever with my captor.
I was tempted to grab Sehun and drag him off to my room to have my way with him. If I was going out, I wanted to go out happy and nothing would make me happier than being with Sehun.

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