A Broken Heart is Typing...

DAY 20

5:57 pm
d.okyungsoomyeyes: Baekhyuuuuuuuuuuun

baekondhouse04: What the hell do you want?

d.okyungsoomyeyes: I’m sorry!

baekondhouse04: I can’t believe you believe Chanyeol

d.okyungsoomyeyes: But he’s nice
d.okyungsoomyeyes: he just wants you to have fun in school

baekondhouse04: I have fun in my own way
baekondhouse04: So don’t do it again
baekondhouse04: have fun with Chanyeol if that’s what you want

d.okyungsoomyeyes: But...

baekondhouse04: I’ll be fine
baekondhouse04: You’re still my best friend
baekondhouse04: you being with Chanyeol, and playing with him won’t replace our friendship

d.okyungsoomyeyes: huh?

baekondhouse04: But please, can you promise me that?
baekondhouse04: If you like his company you can stay with him
baekondhouse04: but promise me that I can still be your friend even when you always want him around

d.okyungsoomyeyes: what are you saying?!
d.okyungsoomyeyes: you’ll always be my best friend

baekondhouse04: It’s okay to have him as your company
baekondhouse04: because that can’t be helped
baekondhouse04: I’ll accept that
baekondhouse04: I’m letting you go
baekondhouse04: literally, just literally

d.okyungsoomyeyes: what are you saying?
d.okyungsoomyeyes: I’m not leaving you!

baekondhouse04: I know!
baekondhouse04: hahhahahahhaa
baekondhouse04: but I saw you
baekondhouse04: seeing your heart-shaped smile even brighter now that you are with him
baekondhouse04: have fun alright?

d.okyungsoomyeyes: why do I feel like you’re saying goodbye?
d.okyungsoomyeyes: Baek, are you dying?

baekondhouse04: idiot! No!
baekondhouse04: But you know, I also had fun with him
baekondhouse04: with his jokes, me lending him notes, that’s fun
baekondhouse04: I’m having fun with that
baekondhouse04: but you know... I realized
baekondhouse04: how do we make fun?
baekondhouse04: between the two of us... I mean
baekondhouse04: are you having fun with me by your side?

d.okyungsoomyeyes: of course!
d.okyungsoomyeyes: I’ve always loved your company!
d.okyungsoomyeyes: You always talk to me
d.okyungsoomyeyes: And I like how you’re open to me
d.okyungsoomyeyes: Though I know you don’t really talk much about yourself
d.okyungsoomyeyes: But you make conversations just to talk to me
d.okyungsoomyeyes: So I’m lucky for having you as my best friend

baekondhouse04: :) Thanks
baekondhouse04: But really, if you want to go with others
baekondhouse04: don’t worry about me
baekondhouse04: Because Kyungsoo I always see you longing to have more friends
baekondhouse04: So I’m letting you have them
baekondhouse04: You deserve it
baekondhouse04: And you’re happy
baekondhouse04: Just eat with me always in lunch
baekondhouse04: hahahhah

d.okyungsoomyeyes: I will always do that!

baekondhouse04: Thanks

d.okyungsoomyeyes: I’ll still chat you always hahhaha

baekondhouse04: yeah hahahahha

d.okyungsoomyeyes: here and even in school

baekondhouse04: Okay, so goodbye now!

d.okyungsoomyeyes: Okay! Goodbye, and sorry again.

baekondhouse04 has gone offline . 7:54 pm

I know that giving you a chance will be a mistake. I am going far far away from you and don’t know if I’ll be back anytime sooner. You’re impatient I know that, that’s why I am doing this before this gets worse. Getting things worse means that you have to wait for me longer than you can and I know that it can hurt the both of us so much. It can hurt me more because you know who am I, and I’m not the type of person who can easily trust just someone whom I just met. But hell, Chanyeol, you came and I don’t know what magic you have but you made me trust you that easily, it’s just a chat, hell Chanyeol. And I know I know that I’ll hurt you with my words Chanyeol so before it happens, I’m saving you from me. I’m not a kind person. But I’m a trustworthy one so please trust me this time. I hope you will understand. I love my mother. But I like you... But I’m scared....

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