The Roller Coaster That Is Life

Nita's POV

Several Weeks Later. . . . . . .

Nita had been more busy than usual for the past couple of weeks. Time had passed by so quickly, that her birthday was coming soon. Part of her was glad no one here knew her birthday, but there was a part of her that missed her family more as the days to her birthday came closer. She shook her head, trying to rid the thoughts from her head. There really was no reason to get all emotional about it, they weren't going to just pop up out of nowhere. She looked at her watch, and quickly made her way to the studio.
It had been a couple of weeks since her photo shoot with Big Bang, and today she was going to finish the reminder of the shoot. She felt more nervous today, which was one of the reasons why she'd decided to show up early. She thought that maybe if she was there before the others, she'd be able to relax a bit, but that wasn't the case. She walked in through the door and was relieved when they didn't stare at her. Everyone was busy going about their business. She quietly made her way around the studio. She noticed that the crew was putting plastic, on the cement floor, covering the bottom half of the backdrop, wondering what that was for, she tapped the crew member on the shoulder to ask, but was called for instead, "Good, Nita you're here," Nita turned around to see Designer-nim, she smiled and bowed, "I have something I want to show you, please come." He took her hand and pulled her with him, heading towards the changing room, she'd used before.
"How are you, Designer-nim," Nita asked while being dragged along.
"I've been doing pretty well, I'm glad you came in early. I wanted you to try on a new set," he said, letting go of her hand as they entered the changing room. Nita saw him make is way to the actual changing area and coming back with a something in a black garment bag. He unzipped the bag and pulled out the contents. It was nightwear, similar to what she'd taken pictures of in. But these two sets were unique. Both made of an off white sheer, they were meant to be worn over what was behind it. What attracted her to the design on the sheer fabric, it looked like her dragons.
"This is amazing, it's beautiful," she said, "I would love to model this for you," she added. Slipping on the knee length cover up.
"Take a look at the chemise too," Designer-nim said smiling at her. Nita could see the pride he had for himself and his work. She smiled back, carefully taking off the cover up. The chemise had the same concept, but it only had one dragon on it, a cyan one. She looked at Designer-nim questioningly.
"Green and blue make cyan, it seemed fitting," he said, taking the garments out of her hand, "look at the other one," he added, nodded towards the set behind the one she'd been holding.
Nita pulled it out of the bag, and couldn't stifle her laughter. It was the same sheer fabric the other one had been, but this set had pandas on it. The chemise had cute little baby pandas on it, while the cover up, hand a mother panda on it. So when she would put on the cover up, it looked like the mamma panda was protecting her babies. The irony of the dragon and panda chemise wasn't missed by her. She was sure that if V saw it, he would be beside himself. When she thought about what G would say, she couldn't quite make that assumption. When it came to G, she was bundle of nerves since the last photo shoot. She shook her head, trying once again to get rid of her thoughts.
"There's beautiful, I can't wait to model them for you," Nita said bowing. Designer-nim stopped her by taking hold of her shoulders.
"These were inspired by you, for you. I talked to Yang Sangnim a couple of days back, and he wanted us to take a full spread for you," he said, "I assured him that there would be no room for him to complain. These two sets are my gift to you, for helping me out when I needed it the most. Most models wouldn't have done what you did," he said giving her a lite hug. She hugged him back, she was on the verge of tears. She tried her best to blink them away.
"Well then what are we waiting for," Nita said pulling back from the hug, "let's get this show on the road," she grabbed the hangers and garment bag and went to go get changed.
Before she knew, she was in front of camera. She had convinced the photographer to play some music, so that she her nervousness would ease out of her. If anything could calm her it had to be music. Music had always set the mood for her. When her music changed, her mood and mindset changed. She loved it. Right now, CNBLUE's Love Girl was blurring from some mini speakers. She hoped she was acting cute and adorable, because that's how the music made her feel. She was dancing and being silly, she didn't understand what was so stressful about modeling. Or maybe she wasn't stressed because they were being easy on her. She shrugged her shoulders and kept at it.
"Okay, I think you should go change into the dress that they have for you, now. The others are here, so we'll take care of the line that we have to photograph first," the photographer said to her, "if you're hungry there's food on that table over there," he added.
Nita looked at him questioningly, "Why would I be hungry, it's only been a little bit since we started," she said to him. He looked at her like she was out of her mind.
"Do you know what time it is," he asked her. She shook her head, surely it hadn't been but an hour or two at most since she'd gotten here.
"It' s almost two o'clock, you silly girl," he said smiling at her. Nita looked around for a clock, but couldn't find one. When a phone was shoved in front of her face. Indeed the clock read, 1:58 pm. Where had the time gone? She asked herself, did she really just kill almost seven hours. She put that thought to the back of her mind, filed away for later use, and followed the arm that was holding the phone. She looked to find Siwon looking at her, his glance going from her face to her clothes, to anywhere but at her.
"Well, it's good to see you too, Siwon. How's the weather in the studio, today," she asked, not entirely sure, if he was talking to her or not. She sounded like such a hypocrite. She knew she needed to apologize to him, for the way she acted. She had decided that a while back. What she didn't think about was how busy she had gotten, and how busy she was. She figured she better make this better now.
"We need to talk, did you want to come to the house for dinner. The guys won't be a bother, they all have jobs today, that will keep them pretty busy," she asked.
"What are you making," he asked, Nita was a bit hopeful, hearing the hint of intrigue in his voice.
"Are we invited to this dinner, or is a date for two," came a voice from behind her, she turned around and couldn't believe who she was seeing.
Siwon followed the sound of the voice and smiled at the others. Nita was gawking. She knew she was gawking. She knew she was turning red in the face too.
"Is she okay," Kai asked no one in particular.
"She's fine, she's probably a fan," Siwon said, she knew he was sporting a smirk on his face. She didn't know what attracted guys to always smirk at her. All the Big Bang guys had done it at one point or another and so had most of the SuJu guys, she was still gawking. He knew she was a fan of all three. The least he could have done was give her a heads up.
"She's Nita, right," Guk Bang asked, Nita was sure she was a darker shade of red now, still gawking though, still gawking.
"You know her," Siwon asked curiously.
"Yea, my manager told me she was a new model," Guk Bang answered back.
"Hi, I'm Taecyeon," Taecyeon introduced himself. He really didn't have to introduce himself. Like a child she immediately covered her face and started talking.
"I'm sorry, but could you guys excuse me. I have to go get changed," she said, her face covered with hands, she only uncovered her eyes to see where she was going. She bolted out of there so fast. She had completely forgotten that she was still in the panda chemise.
She quickly went into the changing room, looking for her change of clothes, "here's your dress, Ms. Nita," the make-up girl was walking in another garment bag. She handed the bag to Nita.
"Just call me Nita, Ms is for my mother," Nita said smiling to her.
"Can I ask you something," the girl asked. Nita thought that they had become friendly, so she was wondering why she had to ask the question.
"Go ahead, I'm an open book," Nita said slipping on the dress. She tried to reach for the zipper in the back, but couldn't grasp it.
"I heard that you used to be in a dance group, is that true," she asked Nita.
"I wouldn't call it a group. It was just my friends and I," Nita answered.
"Oh, so that was just for fun," she asked.
"Yea, we loved to dance and have a good time. We danced because we loved to do it," Nita answered, thinking about the hundreds of time, she practiced with her girls. Her smile got wider as she thought about all the silly and goofy things they did.
"Could you help me with the zipper," Nita walked out backwards, so that she didn't have to much difficulty walking out.
"Sure," the make-up girl zipped her up.
"You should go, I'm sure they're waiting for you," she said, looking at the door, then getting back to arranging her things.
Sure enough, the others had already started their shots, she stood on the outskirts watching, till she was called.
SEVERAL HOURS LATER
Nita plopped herself in the small ottoman, she was exhausted. "How do you guys manage this," she asked exhaustedly.
The shoot was over, the crew was cleaning up and the four of them had changed into normal clothes. Everyone looked tried, Nita had gotten used to looking at them now. But her fan girl still had her moments.
"It was fun," Siwon said, looking at her.
"It was, I never thought I'd be in the same room as some of my favorite idols. I'm still getting used to it," she said to him, leaning back in the ottoman, and closing her eyes.
"How do you know each other," Kai asked.
"You want to tell him, or you want me too," Siwon asked Nita. Nita wasn't sure if she could, it was still her most embarrassing moment.
"You can," Nita said, her eyes still closed.
"She beat me with her purse," Siwon said. Nita bolted upright, he just came out and said it! You'd think he'd explain the story, but no just get to the abusive part first.
"Now, wait a minute!" she interjected, "the least you could do was tell the part before that," she finished. Even though she was tired, she still had enough energy to defend herself.
"Why would you beat him with your purse," Guk Bang asked, smirking.
Nita knew she was in trouble. Being the only girl in the group, she was going to be pestered. "I didn't know that it was him, I thought he was a thief. In my defense, there were a whole bunch of women running after him. For all I knew he could have been a pervert," she said, folding her arms and putting her nose in the air.
They all started laughing, "you're the one from his Running Man episode!!" Kai said, laughing full heartedly.
"OMO, that was you!!!" Taecyeon coughed out.
Guk Bang didn't say anything, he just pointed and laughed. Siwon looked at her and shrugged his shoulders, with an expression that said, 'what can do about that.'
"Aish, chincha, anyone with common sense would have done the same thing I did," Nita said defensively. Which only brought on more laughter from the other three. She decided there was nothing else she could say, that would help her.
Couple of seconds later, the laughter died down and Taecyeon kept looking at her. Nita wasn't sure what his issue was, but it was starting to bother her.
"What's the matter, do I have something on my face," she asked, wiping at her face in different stops.
"No, it's not that," he said, looking down at his hands, what was with the nervousness. A couple of minutes ago, he was laughing at her.
"You're from the states, right," he asked her.
"Yes," she answered.
"You dance, right," he asked
"Yes," she answered again.
Taecyeon pulled out his phone, quickly he started touching the screen, "That's you in this video, right," he asked, showing her the screen on his phone.
Nita watched the video, she couldn't believe it. She'd seen the video so many times, while shooting it, and editing it. She just didn't expect it to be seen by famous people. The video was made for fans, by fans. "You've seen this video," she said, it was more of a statement than a question.
"What's so special about the video," Kai asked.
"You're Nita, from The Fan Girls, the group of girls who create their version of their favorite group's MVs," Taecyeon said, "I'm right, aren't I," he asked.
Nita was still in somewhat of a shocked state. She was still trying to wrap her head around what she just heard. Taecyeon knew about The Fan Girls.
"Jamkkan, you're talking about the same fan group that did the 'Overdose' fan MV," Kai asked looking at Nita in a new perspective.
"I knew she seemed familiar, the same girls did a fan MV of 'One Shot' too," Guk Bang said.
"Nita, what's going on," Siwon asked, surprise was evident in his voice.
"Hyung, you do know they've done a Super Junior MV too, right," Kai asked Siwon.
Nita looked at Siwon, his eyes going wide. "'No Other'," he asked.
All Nita could do was nodded her head. She didn't know what to say. When she and the girls had decided to make the fan MVs, she'd never figured that those videos would be seen by the idols themselves. This was a surprise, she didn't think they would be noticed.
"You plan on saying something," Guk Bang asked, smiling, "I'm sure you'll be more surprised when I say, that I'm a member of your fan club online."
"Da du," Taecyeon added.
"Make me number three," Kai said.
"What can I say to that, wait what?!?!" she exclaimed. Fan Club? "Did you just say 'fan club'" she asked, still unsure she'd heard right.
"Neh, there's one for each member and then one for the whole group," Taecyeon browsed through his phone again, "see, look," he handed her his phone again.
Nita used her index figure to scroll down the site. It was dedicated to fans of 'The Fan Girls.' As she scrolled down, there were folders for forums, a live chat room, and stills from the videos they had done. Nita smiled, so this is what it felt like. She thought. She and the girls had put in so much hard work on those fan MVs, and there were people out there who enjoyed watching it.
"What's with the smile," Guk Bang asked.
"I feel appreciated," Nita said.
They all just looked at her. Her smile and sense of accomplishment didn't waver at their staring. She decided she better explain herself.
"When we started talking about doing one fan MV, we honestly didn't think that anyone outside of the fandoms would see the videos. Getting to the point of making the first video, took a lot of hard work for us. Finding out the idols we adore, have seen the fan MVs, feels good," she said, looking at each person. There was a hint of red in all their faces, which caused Nita to blush a bit too. She'd never admit it to her friends, but a lot of things changed because she and the girls had decided to make one fan MV.
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All eyes went to her stomach.
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Everyone's stomachs were asking for attention.
"Kaja, we're all hungry, and I already have something cooking in my Crockpot," Nita said, getting up and grabbing her tote.
As she got up she noticed that the crew that was in there, had disappeared. They must have finished and left, she thought.
She turned around to see that they were still staring at her, "Boo? Kaja, you guys are hungry, right," she asked.
"You sure what you made will be enough for all of us," Kai asked, "we don't want to intrude."
"When she cooks, she cooks enough to feed an army," Siwon said, "I've known her long enough to know that, when she asks, she's made sure to cover all her bases."
"Well then, I'm not going to say no to that," Taecyeon said, getting up and grabbing his backpack. Kai and Guk Bang followed suit.
"What did you make," Siwon asked her.
"Salsa Verde Chicken Tacos," Nita answered, "something different."
Nita smiled, she always cooked extra food. She felt honored in being able to feed them. As a fan, she felt on top of the world.

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