Beautiful liar (Shadow)

-Yeongah P.O.V.-
"You don't want us to come with you to your company dinner?" Ken asked heartbroken.
"It's not that I don't want you there, it's just that I'm afraid that Leo or his shadow might be able to see you." I told him.
"But I don't want you to go alone because his shadows kind of scary." Ken said grabbing my hand worried.
"It will be fine." I told him.
"But he has tattoos and bleached hair. I've never seen a shadow look like that."
"Don't worry, if anything happens to me I will always call out your names so you guys can be with me." I smiled.
"Promise?" He said squeezing my hand.
"Promise."
"Lets go." N said to me with his hands in his pockets.
"What?" I asked.
"I'm at least going to walk you there."
"But-"
"Lets go." He said and grabbed my hand.
-N P.O.V.-
If only it wasn't him I wouldn't feel so uncomfortable letting her go by herself I thought as we walked down the sidewalk.
"Remember to call my name when you are ready to walk home." I told her.
"Okay." She said and walked with her head down.
"What's wrong?" I asked her.
"Sometimes I feel so helpless and you guys do everything for me but I don't even know who me is." She said.
"Sometimes its better not to know, just like I wish I didn't know things." I told her.
"Like what?"
"My childhood." I told her.
"Your childhood?" She asked confused and looked up at me.
"Yes, all shadows were once people but have no memory of there human life."
"How do you have yours?"
"I'm not sure."
"So this means you'll never tell me about my past?"
"At least not your early childhood."
"Something very bad happened?" She asked.
"I've seen you cry way to many times, now you should enjoy and be happy without those memories."
Both of us have lived painful lives that can't be forgotten easily but her accident three months ago was like a miracle. Now no more pain....
*Three years ago (The day N regain his memories)*
"N!" Yeongah yelled as I fell to the ground.
"It hurts." I said holding my chest.
I'm a shadow so why do I keep getting painful flashbacks of myself as a human?
"What's going on?" she asked me.
I saw a flashback of myself being beaten and thrown into a dark room. No food or water. I was only 14.
"It hurts." I said again and tears rolled down my eyes.
The worst flashback of all was the day I died.
Beaten to death at the age of 23 by my own father.
"N! Please tell me what's going on!" She yelled at me.
I didn't want to say anything at all, it was just to painful to think about. Instead I grabbed Yeongah's hands and I think she understood. Soon I felt a hand embrace the back of my head and found myself resting on her chest. I buried my face and wrapped my arms around her as she rubbed her hand on the back of my head. Being with her took the pain away and I hoped that the many times that I held her crying felt the same.
This was the night that I told her my true feelings but we couldn't be together.
*Present*
I guess its best she doesn't know my true feelings since we can never be together but some nights I find it hard when I wish I could have her comfort.
I miss it.

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